♥ Somethings just can't be changed...
Sunday, July 05, 2009 @ 7/05/2009 01:51:00 AM
My mind is a whirlwind now.
So confused.
In a dilemma.
Emotional vs Logical.
Which will I choose?
I'm a very Emotional person, tht's why it's difficult for me to make decisions logically.
I tend to get my feelings involved.
Which is my weakest point. sigh.
Thus, caused me prolonged sadness.
Suddenly, I noe what it means to be persecuted.
You will feel so sad and hurt;
Tht no one is siding you.
Tht no one knows how you're feeling inside.
Tht you don't feel any security and stability.
Painfully I accepted it.
Sadly I bore it.
Hurtfully I see him agreed to it.
And from tht moment, I know everything is made known to me.
It has helped me come to a decision.
It is a painful decision, but probably a right decision,
which is best for everyone.
I don't know how to let my feelings out.
There is nowhere I can vent it.
I don't want to vent it on others.
And I know crying to myself doesn't work.
Suddenly, I feel tht I need nature.
The sea.
The wind.
The rain.
It's time for me to hit the seaside.
To let go my distress.
I just wanna get busy with my own things.
Dye my hair.
Perm my hair.
And soon, I'll work. (:
$$$!
I wanna withdraw from the world.
To live in my dreams,
with no worries,
no sorrow,
no anger,
no pain.
But laughters and happiness only.
(: magdalena (:
