♥ bored:(
Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 3/14/2008 09:13:00 PM
I'M BORED! didnt go to work today, thought we could meet up. But too bad.. he woke up SO late. sian. ARGH! my mood was totally dampen. forget it. i know the level of significance things are in his heart. i know how i am ranked as well. Whenever i take leave, thinking of spending time with him. it's always not appreciated and most of the time it will not turn out well. seriously, it's very disappointing. Sometimes i just wanna work throughout the week without any leave so i won't have to bother about plans to meet up. greater the expectation, greater the disppointment. Have time for other things, but when wanna meet me, suddenly very tired or got other things. there will definitely bound to have something. blame it on my bad luck? i don't wanna think anymore. spare me from all these, put me in your shoes.
Don't have anybody to talk to. i oso dun wish to talk to him all these. cos he always don't reply me and the next day...... as if nothing happens. HAHA! so funny! so what's the point of telling when i don't get any reply. LOL! might as well just keep to myself or blog it down. oh well, i always believe in this saying, "
action speaks louder than words."
I just got ALOT of things to say. probably one entry isn't enough to totally say out what is in my heart. is it true that absence makes the heart grows fonder??? If that's the case, then i wouldn't wanna meet him for many many days! WAHAHAHA!!
I've put too much into it.
I've given too much.
It's too hard to move on smoothly.
It's too scarred.
It's too laid back.
It's taken for granted.
Cos you know i'll be there no matter what happens, no matter what went wrong and no matter what you do.. Your life is too happening for me. I can't take it. I'm just a simple girl, not pursuing all these fun.
Probably, we have different goals/ambitions in our own life.
Tomorrow is Marc's birthday. Hope i'll enjoy myself there. HAHA! He loves having fun, then i also have my fun!! I'll definitely make myself enjoy and happy at there. He can go play basketball or go out with his friends lor.. haa.
If everything can start again. I would prefer it to be simple and without any major scars. Tell me that I'll be fine. A life of nothing special and spectacular, just a possession of someone who is special to me but considered quite worthless to him. Anyone willing to listen to me? I have much to say. Words are choking in my throat. It wants to come out, but no one will listen.___________________________________________________He told me his tired cos of all the late night stayouts. so i told him to stay at home and rest lor, no need to meet. In the end, he played ball and after that went to play mahjong. Wah, superman. Tired but still got the strength to play mahjong. lol. *bows* I'm going to silence myself from him. Enjoy all your late night stayouts then!! :) HEHE!
I clearly know how important. go and die lah, mag. don't even think of any importance. UNRANKED; to hell u go.
