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Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 2/17/2008 03:05:00 AM
It's Chinese New Year .
Somehow, i can't feel the festive mood. Only look forward to the gambling. lol. I guess i'm down with luck, had not been winning. And I don't seem to have luck in other aspects of my life too.
I just hate my life.
Always so dim and dull. Can it be brighter and cheery. And smoother as well. :(
Oh well.
I know nothing can be done. nothing can be undone. Stained. really really stained. Can we start afresh?
I just realise my life really sucks. I've got no confidante. there's only me, myself. I always keep things to myself, bear everything myself, solve everything myself, do everything myself and scream at myself.
What can i do? nothing.
I ask myself and answer myself. Hopeless.
I wish i'm dead. Everything will be settled. but i pity my parents cos they put lots of effort and money in me. i'm stuck. die or don't die. lol. good qns. God, up to u to decide.