♥ cooling in progress..

Thursday, September 06, 2007 @ 9/06/2007 04:59:00 PM

Have you ever wondered?

I always envy those people who are born with a silver spoon. We're living on the same earth, and God also tells us that all of us are equal. But why are there filthy rich people and desperately poor people. How equal can all of us be? I wonder.. But if God make us all the same, then there is no differentiation at all rite? There won't be poor and rich, pretty and ugly, happy and sad nor smart and stupid.. And life would be all so boring cos everyone is the same.

Cooling in progress..
It's been 2days, it feels like I've started to get used to it. Excepr for before going to bed I will keep thinking. Sometimes even teared a lil'. And sometimes in the day, my phone seems to be quiet. Then I will keep checking it. So stupid of me. I know it won't ring, but I keep checking. But today I didn't check my phone. I guess I jus need to cool down, be isolated and left all alone. So that I can reflect and think through. What's going on in my life? Am I living to the life that I have always wanted? I used to think that I've the answers to all the problems in my life, but I know that life doesn't always go my way. So I gotta find the answers to my problems.

I am what I am..
I am Magdalena and always will be. I guess I have given much and sacrificed almost everything. And that's all I have. I've sacrificed many of my secondary friends and alot of my time. I'm totally broked. I don't have anything. I just have myself and a heart that is uniquely Magdalena. I didn't do anything to change you, so don't do anything to change me to who you want me to be. I respected you alot. I didn't argue with you and did not spoil your reputation or integrity, so don't push me too far. I might not take it and may snap anytime.

Going off for dinner with cousins, my childhood cousins. Long time since we had a gathering. Hee. Goodbye.

Take care folks. Hope you have a life that u want. :))