♥ Dilemma.

Monday, April 09, 2007 @ 4/09/2007 02:12:00 AM

Good Friday & Easter Sunday.

Thursday;
Watched his match. exciting!
Went to Safra Tana Merah for Bowling session with my family.
Fun!
Headed home for Mahjong session.
Both of us lost abit.
Boos.
Slept at 2am.

Friday; Good Friday!
Around 2pm, steamboat for lunch.
He doesn't seems to like it.
But i love it.
I LOVE MUSHROOMS! =)
Hee.
Around 6plus he headed home,
saying he has "training".
Actually is an excuse cos i asked him to go church with us.
Oh well, won't force him then.
My mindset starts to change after today.
'Cos i know, my lifetime partner must be a Christian.
As such, i'm kinda lost.
I guess, i can only watch as i take each step.
Maybe things might change for the better.
His mum ever said before that we're both from different religion.
But that time i was still young at thoughts,
not that matured yet.
But now it bothers me.

Anyway, he watched his VCD while i watch TV.
Neither did we SMS nor talked on phone.
Boos!
Fine, fell asleep and didnt sent my "goodnight msg".
He slept at 6am.
Suppose to meet early and go to his competition together.
But he woke up so late.
Got lazy and didnt felt like going out.
So, stayed home and Mahjong-ed with my family.
After dinner, bro, sis, dad and i went to watch his Finals.
Headed home together for Mahjong session.
I lost bitterly, 40bucks!
Oh gosh!
Argh.
Worst thing is, i got said by him again.
Isn't the first or second time oready.
I got really fed up. So hurt.
Always pick on me and find fault with me.
Didnt concentrate during the whole Mahjong session.
Stopped at 5am.
I teared when i was alone.
He slept at my room.
mih ssim
He knows it, I told him.
But he don't care.
Wadever then.
This adds on to my Friday's frustration and dilemma.
It somehow influences my decision.
But on account for the years.
Hmm..
I still do love him.
Alot. Seriously.
I think we've begin to see each other's shortcomings too.
Well, forget it.

Sunday; Easter Sunday
He didnt want to go church with us again,
cos he has training(for real).
We played Mahjong in the afternoon.
Then he headed home while i went to church.
After his training, He went to LK's birthday celebration.
At... one of the Pub at Boat Quay..
He didnt tell me until i asked to know.
A lil' disappointed. But nvm.
Bound to have girls.
IT'S OKAY.
Who cares.
Surround them also can.
Haa. Laughing till my sides hurt.
I can just say, "Enjoy yourself and have lotsa fun!"
And also, his hp's batt super low.
Which means, uncontactable till he reaches home and charge it.


Ah!
Enough of all this.
Change topic.
I had fun with all the little toddlers at church today.
They're super adorable and I love 'em all!
But I don't want to give birth.
Lol.
Super painful and will lose the body figure.
In future, I gotta think twice.
Haa! Haa!
The best is, just suffer once and get a pair of twins.
And it must be a girl and a boy.
Lol. Kinda impossible.
Haa.

Hmm, it's better to end off with a happy note and a smile.
or a laugh, which is much better.
HAHA! I Love Kids. =))


Magdalena.=)