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Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @ 3/28/2007 04:31:00 PM

BORED!
Simply BORED.

Today i mahjong-ed since morning till afternoon.
Ytd i mahjong-ed from morning till evening.
Lol.
Everyday only mahjong and mahjong.
haa.

Anyway, ytd after mahjong, we went to watch movie, Mr.Bean's Holiday.
Not that nice though, wasn't up to expectation.
hmm, ytd lotsa dispute and misunderstandings.
i don't blame him neither do i blame myself.
cos both are at fault.
i feel that each time we spend the whole day together, there will be many quarrels in a day.
i dunno is it we cannot spend most of our time together.
if that's the case then, how are we gonna spend our time in future?
means we cannot be together in future?

sometimes i feel that we don't seem to get along.
it's like, we can't click. u noe? always have friction those kind.
can't seem to agree with each other.
sigh.

Didnt work this whole holiday.
Have been idling away my holiday.
I wanna work also cannot.
What's wrong with working at Sakae Sushi?
I'm seriously short of money.
no work=no income
no income=no shopping
Have been using my Ang Bao money,
which i m not suppose to and not allowed to use.
sigh.
No Shopping for me! =(
I'm always so tempted to go into my fave shops,
to browse through, try on then purchase it.
but now, i can't.
argh.
it's so frustrating!
everytime i walk pass the shops, he ask me, "Want to go in and see?"
and i so much so want to go in,
but i've to resist and cannot fall into temptations.
Already short of money still want to choose the work.

Told me no need to find job this holiday, just spend my holiday go watch his match and accompany him. I didnt think much and just agreed to it.
But now, he's out there working then who will keep me company?
*cries*

un-fair.
sigh.
he go training or play ball i oso keep quiet le.
now, plus he go work i oso cannot say anything.

sigh.
dad dowan to give me money cos i've spent alot.
i don't wanna go out anymore, since i've not much money left.
my bank left less than $100, can't even by a shorts.
aahhh!!
M-O-N-E-Y-!-!
Where to search for you?

it's been a month since i hope to strike 4D.
that's the only easy way to get lotsa money.
but it's also difficult.

Today lost a little in mahjong.
sigh.
Tomorrow he have training again.
hais.
it's seriously boring!
this whole holiday i didnt even earn a single dollar.
I'm jus prone to taking his words for real.
i should have went ahead to look for jobs.
Somemore, during last semester's holiday i told myself to look for a job this holiday regardless of anything.

oh man! F***! Dumb!
oh please, will someone remind me to look for job?
or mayb intro me a job so i'll accept it right away and not live with regrets, like what i'm going through right now.

argh.
more than a month had past.
there goes my holiday.
I thought i could earn some money to buy new clothes for my next semester and year.
sigh.

Shan't brood over it.
You're the reason for all.
i don't get moody or upset for no reason.
it's bottled within me.
sometimes i jus love to go all silent and not say anything.
i love to be alone for nothing will happen except loneliness.


I Love Mag-Self.

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