♥ sigh
Saturday, October 28, 2006 @ 10/28/2006 08:06:00 PM
i'm back.
and, yes. i'm really back.
had not beem updating my blog recently.
many things happened,
be it sadness or happiness.
at least, God gave me happiness in da midst of sadness.
sheena babe,
you're one person i'm really so glad to have.
thanks for ur advices
and encouragement dat gives me STRENGTH!
YES!
Hehe..
I'm sure u're not feeling dat good too,
i saw ur msn nick.
i hope u'll feel better.
JIA YOU, stay strong, pretty n sexy!
i love ur figure lahs~
keke.
oh yah, dun be envious of me le,
wad u see may not be wad u get.
now u noe le ma?
Life, afterall, isn't dat simple.
it's hard to live a simple life.
Everybody yearns for it
but look,
how many of us leads a simple life?
a few, i'm sure.
my boyfriend...
romantic?
caring?
soft to gf?
a lil of each of these characteristic, i guess.
i suppose it's cos',
we've been together for quite some time.
and guys being guys do get bored, you see.
Whereas, girls, are so faithful....
dat we make them feel so confident of themself,
allowing them to bother less abt us.
As i was reflecting abt my r/s,
stoning and day-dreaming.
i found out dat,
guys are onli romantic n caring,
during...
COURTSHIP!
after they've gotten u.
hell to ya, babe.
k lah, dun be so mean..
mayb a few months of romance.
dat's all.
(there r some exceptional guys. not all la huh.)
those exceptional guys are probably close to
EXTINCTION!
grab them while u can. lol.
oh wells,
i guess i'm a strong-willed girl.
who doesn't give up easily,
tho' everything seems to be collapsing.
after all this thinking and reflecting.
i've made up my mind....,
i'll not get so uptight over him,
i'll not be so worry abt him,
LET LOOSE OF HIM! (my greatest weakness)
don't be an attitude girl,
don't show my stunts and patterns.
...
abit hard to achieve all this.
but, i gotta try my best so our r/s will last.
sigh.
i can't believe i gotta change myself jus to be in love.
a saying says, "i love u for who u r.."
i doubt this saying.
somehow, i feel smth is lacking.
make me feel so empty.
something is pulling my smile down.
i may smile,
but something always bother me,
making me moody n sad.
da feeling sucks.
shouldn't we have a cool-down break,
den start afresh agn.
it's bothering me.
i loathe it. seriously.
yes, i've attitude!
yes, i've lotsa stunts & patterns!
yes, i'm unreasonable!
yes, i can't hold a candle to other girls.
yes, i don't have figure & looks.
yes, i'm irritating....
no, i'm really not a good gf, afterall.
.inferiority.
enough of it.
from today, i'm a changed mag.
no longer a girl who will gt so worried and uptight.
I'LL LET LOOSE OF HIM!!
YES, I WILL.
YES, I MUST!
Jus believe that each of us need some personal space.
and personal time.
with this, i believe i'll make it.
a kinda long post huh?
well, it's cos i've not been updating.
and my heart is filled with tings dat i wanna note down
and share with my frens.
but for now,
it's time for me to rest le.
i wanna enjoy my life too!
live life to the fullest.
=)
i'm ending it with a smile oh. keke.
