♥ confusion
Tuesday, July 04, 2006 @ 7/04/2006 03:48:00 PM
hmm.. his back on saturday afternoon.. was so excited and happy when i received his msg.. but he sounded kinda sian.. so, der goes my mood.. >.< boos! he went to take a nap and rested for like 3hrs.. woosh, dat's long.. arnd 7.30pm i called to ask if his coming for my bro's birthday chalet. he got up n rushed down to ECP's chalet. well, it didn't turn out the way i imagined. cos i imagine that we'll hug or something. or mayb chat happily..
ohwells. i'll jus stick to my belief, dun expect too much!! argh. he showed attitude.. den when everyone left, my bro+gf and i+bb decided to walk to mac.. but halfway, he said he wanted to go home. den i say "ok lor, i walk with you to take cab." den i walk back myself lor.. he somehow showed attitude. he sae veh dangerous. fine. but he say i oways lidat one. wad da?! i pass him his belongings den jus turn my back and walk off. i was so damn pissed!!!!! i walk to a bench n sat der. think n think n think.. but i cry a lil onli. suddenly have da feeling of -why cry over him, worth it mah?-.. plus i was so angry n hurt when i rmb suddenly think dat;
didnt see him for 5days le. now meet him oso quarrel. jus felt that we dun understand each other at all. sigh.. den more problems came lor.. when he say out wad's in his heart. yup, as usual, blamed myself again. he should have told me dat his home got cook. =(
anyway, he stayed till da next morning. we hang around at east coast beach. i was freezing
cold can! my teeth were
chattering and i was shivering. reali reali very
cold. can u imagine, the
cold sea breeze blowing at you for 3solid hours. plus i was wearing shorts. so damn
cold lah.
*shivers* he went home at arnd 7am bah.. den at nite got bball match.
ohwells. it's bball again.
everyday in his life is abt bball. look at it in a humorous manner, i've become his
2nd gf le.. lol.
bball is his CCA, im his ECA. boos. ='( ytd, think n think den my heart was telling me; might as well become frens, den he no nid to haf commitments in r'ship. jus bball will do, since it takes up
3/4 of his life. i didnt say 3/4 of time, i said 3/4 of life. woops. dat's alot yah. well, accept it bah mag.. it's ur choice in da first place. hee.
jus smile abt it and let it be.. AND, i got into PACEsetters!! was so happy lahs! come to tink abt it, he wasnt da 2st person i share my joy with. hmm, why leh? tell him he oso "orh.. good lor.."
maggie-dalena;
lonely me again...
