\\my inner self//

LOVE

2009-08-21T09:31:00.000+08:00

Is it true that problems can just be forgotten overnight?

Love can be painful at times.
Sometimes the pain can't be seen.
Unseemingly, no one care about how you feel.

All you can do to relieve yourself is, cry.
Crying your hearts out to the pillow.
Fellow friends who are in the same boat understands you.

;Crying for your love

Nothing on earth beats appreciation and security.
What is love without security and appreciation?
What is love that is filled with supression of the feelings?
What is love that brings you inferiority?
What is love when you know it brings you nowhere in this world?
What is love when it is all about just superficial appearance?

Love have taught me that it is more than what I have initially thought to be.

I'm still in the midst of being moulded by love.

Although love may be painful, who can live without loving?

I LOVE YOU,HONEY <3

iPhone & DSLR !

2009-07-30T11:49:00.003+08:00

I want that iPhone and DSLR.

I just love the games in the iPhone applications. HAHA!

iPhone - I buy

DSLR - Daddy buy

I hope I can get it.

I've been hoping for it for so long already.

Now, I'm more persistent in getting it!

Everything is fine so far.

Work?

I think not too bad.

Although having difficulties coping in the industry.

As for BF, I think he is coping well in NS too.

I'm also coping well without him.

Had been having lots of fun meeting up with girlies.

Dinner for Leslie's bookout with girlies and guowei on Monday.

The food was not too bad, Sashimi was good, fruit tarts were EXCELLENT!

Mahjong with the girlies on wednesday.

Today going for my Mani&Pedi, like, finally!

As for tmr, hoping that BF will bookout. So I can meet him! (:

If not, then will have to wait till saturday then we can meet.

Anyway, I have lots of craving this few weeks.

1. Spicy Steamboat

2. Shaker Fries

3. Fruit Tart!!

4. Bakerzin Cheesecake

5. Durian Puffs

All the sinful yet delicious food; my cravings (:

Have been having problems sleeping well.

Woke up a few times in the middle of the night.

And I "think" I answered a phonecall from i-dunno-who.

And he spoke to me in wierd language. Like german or spanish.

I'm still in my sleepy-mode, I just hung him up.

WIERD!

Gonna buy 4D and see if "he" will give me an iPhone! :D

*high hopes*

Lack of sleep has been causing me to be moody and emo.

Flu is coming too.

Sigh.

Bye! Ciao!

Hoping my day will end well, cos ytd was a crappy day.

5years 4months, baby

2009-07-11T13:23:00.007+08:00

Happy 5years 4mths, Baby! (:

Soldier Lim is serving the country.

Baby has been in army for 3days.

I'm missin' him.

I haven't cried, but sometimes I get teary eyes.

He has been callin me everynight since the day he enlisted.

He'll be there till 24th july.

Anticipating for the day he book out!

Excited can.. hee.

A joke to share with you..

Me: "Darling, rmb to dry ur hair before slping......"

Bf: "I got no hair how to dry my hair?....."

Lol. Wad a joke, man!

This morning I woke up by a msg,

It's baby's msg!!!

I was so happy tht I teared. So touched.

He wished me Happy 5yrs 4mths.

HAPPY!! ((:

I'm starting work this coming monday.

After work, going drinking with colleagues and bosses.

Work from 9am to 6pm at Tampines Safra area.

But I still love my slacker life.

Have to meet up with lynn, yq and kelly soon.

Before their school term starts.

Wanna play mahjong anot?

Next week have to meet up with Jaymee too. (:

Need to catch up with her over dinner.

Ytd I went out alone.

To do my university stuff.

I went to FEP to buy Cheesy Curry Chicken.

Headed to Peninsular,

To collect BF and my graduation photos.

Our photos look good!

I'm gonna print BF's birthday photos too.

Gonna meet aunty then pass her the photos.

Aunty is so sad that BF goes into NS.

Cheer up, aunty~

After collecting our photos,

I headed to Raffles City S.C to buy shoes.

Bought 3pairs. lol.

I love 'em all

It is for my work. hee.

Went to bugis to shop and slack.

Still looking for a nice, plain denim vest,

tht doesnt look so cheapo and rugged.

Had cellgroup after tht and headed home!

Slept early.

Gotta get used to sleeping early and waking up early.

If not i'm gonna suffer when i'm in working life.

Going to TPY alr.

To print pictures and buy books.

Bye, folks.

09/07/09

2009-07-08T01:49:00.003+08:00

My Boy is going to serve the nation tmr morning.
It's a good training for him; To be a MAN! hee.
From this, he'll soon become more mature and independent.
Also, this in a way means he'll be protecting me and his family from enemies. (:

Don't worry, boy.
It's not the end of the world.
We can still meet during weekends.
Even if I'm not in Singapore next time.
Sat n Sun we can webcam! (:
Just tht weekday we can't talk on phone.
Hope we can go through all these together.
After we go through all these 'thick and thin' stuff, our relationship will become stronger.
And, we will have lotsa stories to say abt our relationship.
*embracing every moment*
(:

Take Care, Boy.
<3
<33

Somethings just can't be changed...

2009-07-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

My mind is a whirlwind now.

So confused.

In a dilemma.

Emotional vs Logical.

Which will I choose?

I'm a very Emotional person, tht's why it's difficult for me to make decisions logically.

I tend to get my feelings involved.

Which is my weakest point. sigh.

Thus, caused me prolonged sadness.

Suddenly, I noe what it means to be persecuted.

You will feel so sad and hurt;

Tht no one is siding you.

Tht no one knows how you're feeling inside.

Tht you don't feel any security and stability.

Painfully I accepted it.

Sadly I bore it.

Hurtfully I see him agreed to it.

And from tht moment, I know everything is made known to me.

It has helped me come to a decision.

It is a painful decision, but probably a right decision,

which is best for everyone.

I don't know how to let my feelings out.

There is nowhere I can vent it.

I don't want to vent it on others.

And I know crying to myself doesn't work.

Suddenly, I feel tht I need nature.

The sea.

The wind.

The rain.

It's time for me to hit the seaside.

To let go my distress.

I just wanna get busy with my own things.

Dye my hair.

Perm my hair.

And soon, I'll work. (:

$$$!

I wanna withdraw from the world.

To live in my dreams,

with no worries,

no sorrow,

no anger,

no pain.

But laughters and happiness only.

(: magdalena (:

Reality Hurts

2009-06-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

Thursday. 18th June 2009

Woke up early to practice piano cos I thought I'll be out the whole day.

Was so happy when he called.

Was so happy that I'm going out today.

Was so excited to go shopping today.

But it didnt turn out well.

It's my fault?

Alright, my fault then....

While he was cutting his hair, I binge myself with chocolate to make me happier.

I ate the humble pie.

But things didnt progress better.

I guess he wasn't happy with his haircut.

So, he was angry again.

Then I think it's a better option to go back home.

To home we headed.

HAA. Wad a joke.. Went town for 2hours only.

Emotional. Controlled my tears.

I'm doing a great job by not bursting out in tears.

Continued to control my tears till I walk home.

It just stream down.

I just wipe away.

I find myself so foolish to be sad over it.

So, I told myself not to think about it anymore.

Cast everything aside.

The moment I reach home, I quickly turn on my comp; PLAY NEOPETS!

Had my first meal of the day at 7pm.

I guess, i'm tired of everything. Went to slp straight aft that.

Slept till 10pm.

Sigh.

Maybe it's better for us to cool down before meeting again.

Anyway, I'll be leaving for church camp tmr morning. Hee.

Gonna enjoy a spa treatment there with Cheryl.

Enjoy myself before coming back to reality.

Wednesday, 17th June 2009

My date with GFs at Vivo was wonderful! (:

We had Sushi Tei for dinner.

Still the same, I ordered Sukiyaki. Hee.

It's delicious! Esp. the soup. Jaymee love the soup lots.

So do I. :D

We went through a lot before we're back together again.

I'll really treasure this friendship.

Aft dinner, we go window shopping!

We were trying to fit all the baby clothes on Pris,

and all the baby shoes on Rox. LOL.

Baby stuff are so cute. :)

In future, I'll give the best to my kids. Hee.

Bought a Sour, Sour Lemon Lime Long Candy.

First time eating it, and it's super nice.

I think Rox's flavour is nicer; Sour Green Apple.

Went up to the rooftop to slack and enjoy the wind.

It's so cooling up there.

Took pictures together and we had a great time there.

Rox and I were trying to think of Yoga poses to do. LOL.

It brings back my Yoga memories.

And suddenly I felt like doing Hot Yoga!

But my church said it's again christianity. Sigh. :(

Arriving Tomorrow.

2009-06-09T16:05:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. I guess I'm quite excited he'll be back tmr..
But I didn't hear from him AT ALL since he flew off to Indon.
Forgot abt me le bah.. *cries*
Oh well, don't brood over it anymore.

Jus had lunch at Tao's Restaurant with my siblings. Nice!
I love their tea! Superb!
Have the urge to buy a teapot and do it for myself at home. hehe..
*Bloated* -grins-

Tmr will be a pack day for ME, and yes, totally for ME. And I love busy days!
1.) Dentist
2.) Beauty Therapy
3.) Food Therapy

Reminders:
1.) Facial
2.) Mani & Pedi
3.) Continue Driving!!! -sian-
4.) Apply for Aust uni
5.) Enquire DSLR price @ Sim Lim
6.) Buy Present for BoyF's 21st B'day

It's impossible. It's pointless. Stop thinking. Stop dreaming.
It'll never happen. Just envy. Just see. Just hear.
But don't bother.

3 More Days ! =)

2009-06-07T19:43:00.002+08:00

Yeah!

Xueying was right, time flies.. BoyF and his team are coming back!!

Woohoo.. I'm on a healthy diet using milkshake as my replacement meal.
The main thing is to detox.. but one of the benefit is that i'll lose weight.. woohoo.. :)

During this period when BoyF is not around.. I get to socialize with friends esp his friend's GFs. Seem so much happier that I have time for myself to socialize, interact and network.. ^.^

Off to play fb applications. I love the games! But it irritates me when they can't load and half way it dc. argh..

i'm waiting for you.....

6 Days More...

2009-06-05T16:00:00.002+08:00

Hmm...
Darling is away from 4th Jun - 10th Jun; 7 Days w/o him :(

Sent him off at the airport ytd morning. So.... I....
Woke up at 4.15am.
Ate breakfast with them.
Hugged & kissed goodbye.
Left the airport at 7am.
Reach home 8am.
Slept till 2pm. [super tired]
Went out with Sis to PS.
Bought many craft materials. [happy!]

I enjoy retail therapy! Spent almost $100 on craft materials. lol. Haven't buy his birthday gift and i've alr spent a bomb on making a birthday card. lol.

6 more days and BoyF will be back..

Miss him so much. Couldn't get to slp at night. My heart is missing him.. Sigh.

Happy! (:

2009-05-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

Alright man...

I've been busy with lotsa things that i totally neglected dear diary.. sigh.

Major Events Encountered:
-May 16th, Sat : Magdalena's 21st Birthday Party!
-May 19th, Tues : Graduation Ceremony @ TP. Finally..
-May 20th, Wed : Magdalena's Actual Celebration with BoyF.

Before my birthday party, I did many preparations..
The Emcee & Magician...
The buffet...
The invitation...
The give-aways for all my loved ones who came...
The cake...
The deco stuff...
The deco...
The payments... The whole thing was about $3000 ++.. It's worth it cos of the fun, joy and laughter.. :)
Finally, the entertaining of guest on that very day! (:

I'm legal for everything and anything. My aunt told me that whatever I said, do and sign is legally binding... LAW siol. lol.

BoyF: Wah, your birthday lasted for almost a week..
GirlF: Hehe. Yah lor.. So many major events in between mah.. (:
*Wide Grin*
Thanks to all loved ones who celebrated my 21st birthday with me. Extending my gratefulness to those who sent well wishes to me thru facebook and smses. (:

BTW, my birthday party has taken a toll on me that I fell ill right after that. On Sunday when we checked out of the chalet. I could feel my illness coming.. On Mon I'm officially ill.

And, till now i'm still coughing.. cough and cough and cough... like nobody's business.

The best part of birthday is the PRESENTS ! (:
1. Nokia E63 & a Sun dress from BoyF
2. Jewelleries from Church Friends
3. Agnes b. Necklace & Gucci Perfume from BMC Folks (:
4. Red Packets from Family and Relatives
5. Swatch Watch from Godsister
6. Longchamp Bag from Bballers (Me & BoyF's Sec Sch Frens)
7. Anna Sui Perfume and Notepads from Cheryl & Shawn (Bestie in Church)
8. Birthday Cards from little kids in church.

Thank God for this blessed birthday, that it went smoothly and many people enjoyed it.

Immune / Numb ?

2009-03-30T22:45:00.004+08:00

There are a lot of emotions in me. It's driving me mad and confused. Don't really know what I really want in life. Or maybe I should say, I don't really know what this life wants from me. Or maybe I've been complementing people that I've lost myself.

Sometimes......... sigh. Never mind. I'll safekeep it in my heart..

I'm gonna lock my heart up. Then, nothing will happen to it.
Everything is gonna be alright when I'm not sensitive.

Now, I've to target to work on: Independent & Insensitive
These are my IN-thing.

In neutral feeling, I believe all man are good man, unless they are unfaithful man..
2 Hearts = 1 Love
1 Heart = No Love

Girls, be glad if your boyfriend is one who is faithful to you, who truly loves and respect you. Treasure them and cherish them! Or else they will be taken away.
Also, if the guy do not judge the appearance of the girl, that would be even better.
Cos I know, appearance changes. But the personality, character and inner self will not change.
It's better that a guy loves you for something unchangeable.
Guys with these 4 criteria are RARE!

Alright, enough of all these. It's getting sick and tiring.

I'm free everyday till sunday. Anyone wanna go out with me to chill? or to have a swet-it-out session with me? hee.

I'm gonna work on 6th April. I'm so glad that I finally took this courageous step to accept the job offer. First step to independence! :)

When Independence is 100% achieved, Insensitive will be achieved too. :)) *double grins*

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THE BIRTH OF MY ANG JIU
I made it on the 27th of March 2009, 10pm. I was worried that it'll be a failure, so i checked everyday to see its progress of fermentation. Today is the 3rd day and I saw my ANG JIU developing.. And I'm so excited to harvest it on the 24th of April (1 month later). If it is a success, I'll go on with the 2nd batch! :))

I've researched alot on this and found out it's good for confinement mothers because ANG JIU is a warm element food which will be nutritious for them and helping mothers warm their body. I guess it also helps to expel wind and cleanse the womb.

I'm gonna reserve it for:
-Myself
-Grandma & Mum
-MJ's mother
-Aunty in Malaysia

PS: I find happiness in seeing my ANG JIU developing.

Night Safari

2009-03-30T22:14:00.007+08:00

Night Safari on 25th March, Wednesday.

It was interesting and scary too. Cos we have to walk along the trails in THE NIGHT.
It's so dark. Lucky I do not have night blind.
We cabbed home after that. Reached home around 12midnight.

Planned to meet up the next day. But we didnt. Just stayed at home and slack.
Boring...

Buffet, buffet & buffets!

2009-03-18T00:05:00.004+08:00

11th March 2009 - 5th Anniversary of Min Jie & Magdalena.

My Gift from him: Citigems Rosella Diamond Necklace

His Gift from me: A Photo Album.

Dinner at Sakura International Buffet. FULL & BLOATED.

I love buffetS!

Have been craving for buffets everyday... haha.

Gonna grow fat, fatter & fattest.. lol.

I LOVE TO EAT!

I LOVE BUFFETs!

I will smile even in the face of bad situations for I know that all bad things will come to an end.
.

Pictures of US.

2009-02-24T00:16:00.018+08:00

Our Sweet Maiden Embarkation!

14.02.09 - Valentine's Day

JUST PICTURES.... Enjoy :)

Here WE go . . .

The Esplanade. Exchange prezzies time! :)

we love each other.

we enjoyed the moments.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T21:28:00.003+08:00

14th Feb 2009
Happy Valentine's Day~
Went to school to prepare gifts for Boyfriend.
Headed opp. school to do mani & pedi.
Bought a nice paper to write my letter to Boyfriend.
Trained to City Hall, met at Marina Square.
I'm punctual! lol.
Followed Boyfriend wherever he lead me..
Singapore Flyer on V. Day!!! Photos will be up as soon as he send me.
It was a pleasant surprise.
So touched.
Girlfriend: We're going in?
Boyfriend: Yah. HAHAHA.
He said I'm so funny and cute. lol.
45mins above land... I really treasure those moments.
Our First Time there.. I love you.

Went for dinner at Crystal Jade. Super full.
I apologised to Boyfriend cos I didn't reserved table at Kuishin Bo. :(
My dear, 5th Anniversary we go there k? I'm sorry..
But, the food was GOOD right, Boyfriend?!
-Sour & Spicy La Mian
-Rice Set with Chicken Wings
-Salt & Pepper Beancurd
-Drunken Chicken
-Xiao Long Bao
>>*BURPSSS*<<

Hand-in-hand we walked to Millenia Walk, Bakerzin...
To get the Macarons that I wanted to try for so long.
Headed down to Esplanade..
Our usual place where we exchange our tokens of love.. :)
I love the gifts that Boyfriend made and/or buy for me.
It's so sweet of him.
-Godiva Chocolates :)
-A handmade book of our pictures :)
-A letter from him :)
-Bakerzin Macarons :)
-Singapore Flyer :)
-Valentine's Dinner :)

I love all of it.....

That's because the moments were spent with him...
The gifts were from him...
The thoughts were from him...
And it's all because of him, my Boyfriend...

and that's why, i love him dearly.

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To: You know who you are!

You can emo all you want after reading my blog.

If you dare to write in your blog.

Then you'll have to be prepared to receive this FROM ME!

Firstly, you're the one who joined our group, there's a duty that you should try to keep up with the expectation of the group. If the GUYS can keep up with it. Why can't you? You're telling me you're worse than them?

Secondly, input more than output = xxxxxx.

There's no excuse for you to send us incomplete work and ask us to compile that work of yours with ours. At Pulau Ubin (but lie to us say you went to your fren's grandparents funeral) you told Jess it's 90% done; won't be able to be online till at night. We gave u chance, n waited till you're home to complete it. But you sent us another version that is 80% done. WTH?! Say will send us by 8pm; when you're not even online. Told Les will send him by 11.30pm. Till then still not half done. End up we have to take Jessica's sister work that she did for you plus Minjie have to do for you also. Are you embarrass about it? or ashame about it? The guys are more capable than you.

Thirdly, don't say you put in a lot of effort when u can lie to us and go pulau ubin the whole day without even completing your part of the project. MIND YOU, the project deadline is the next day and all of us require your part before we can progress..

Fourthly, you didn't even wholly complete a part. You need the GUYS to help you. You need Jessica's Sister (not our project member) to DO YOUR incomplete PARTS.

Lastly, I even hint you to compile our project (the easiest 2nd task), but you're so reluctant to do it, thus, Leslie volunteered to take on this 2nd task. But, it's okay.. Cos you didnt even complete your 1st task, not to even mention taking up 2nd task.

Nothing to say about you, liar... can you prove that you did more than any of us? including the GUYS?

Yah, you did more lying than all of us.. well done for your last project huh..

I believe all of us are standing on the same level of expectations from each and every one of us. But I guess u didnt have any expectations of yourself. If you dare say that you have, then I'm sorry to say that you have let yourself down.

International Business PROJECT!

2009-02-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

Last project for my whole poly life...
But it was the worst, toughest and most stressed...
Unfortunately, it was a group project...
All of us have to help to ensure every part is done...

If it's mark individually based on the part that each member have done, we wouldn't even care about the parts undone. Not to mention staying up till 4am just to finish it.

I must say that the rest have done a great job in completing the project. At least we manage to finish it within A DAY plus taking up additional task to do the undone parts!! Power sia..

Hopefully, our content can score too.

I thought I can make this project an impressive and impactful one before leaving TP.
sigh.
Now, i'm just praying hard that it will not pull my GPA down or affect my IB Grades.
sian.

Choose members wisely.

The Art of Guys . . .

2009-02-04T00:16:00.004+08:00

Hello, my friend..
You're caught! :)
I'm caught too? lol.
It's been long.

Double-imaged but confirmed to be good.
Wahaha...

Woohoo... Just something that tickles my heart..

Went to Sakae Sushi and we ordered SO MUCH food.
Super full, felt like vomiting when i ate the last piece of Cheese Chicken.
It was something like a "bonding" session for us again..
If not things will remain stagnant and bad, i guess.
But i "think", "everything" is "fine" now?
oh well.. let's not think too much.. cos it's tiring eh. gracious me!

There are lots to say.
I believed I've grown stronger.
Not very much affected by things anymore.
I don't cry so easily.
I won't get jealous so easily.
I won't get angry so easily.
But I'm still stuck with my personality of bottling things up.
I hate to share with certain people,
who doesn't care about me but will scold me after listening.
Like, hello, I'm already troubled and unhappy, and there you are ranting at me.
gracious me. . . Low EQ, I guess.

I admit I've changed.
I've realised that I should move on, look far and look deep..
As long as I don't get too focused, I can do better.
Way to go, MAG~

You knock me hard.
I've woken.
I've been living in my own fairytale dream, where everything is perfect.
Now, I know I'm totally wrong.
I've to protect myself from getting hurt.
Or else I'll die very early.

Adios, my friends..

Fly Away . . .

2009-02-03T01:49:00.002+08:00

It has flown away. Strings still attached though.

I'm tired.

Kite flies high and away on a windy day.

I don't know why, but, I finally understand.
or maybe I've understood it long ago but I didn't wanna accept it.

I've applied for NUS, hopefully I can get in. If not, Australia, here I come.
Probably, I'll focus on my STUDIES and nothing else.

Thinking back.. flashback memories of sweet moments.. how sweet... i miss it.

No more reliance.
Independence Day.
24th January 2009.

I'm fat! I admit it. I'm not perfect! I admit it.
In my mind always.

Scar-ed.

cobwebs growing !

2009-01-18T14:13:00.003+08:00

Alright, i'm back to blogging.

It's been very long since i last updated my blog. lol. Had been very busy with test, tests and testss! Argh.. Finally part of it are over and i'm only left with a few to bang on.. C'mon mag! Go, go, go~

It's the IVP '09 season and i'm always anticipating for the next match to watch.. lol. it's one of my motivation to look forward for that day and go to school.. lol.

Lately, darling had been extremely busy. Matches, trainings & trainings, tests & tests, projects and school.. It's been like 3 saturdays that we didnt go out tgt. Always it's either trainings or we have school & test on sat. Probably i've gotten used to it. not much unhappiness abt it, anyway. So, forget it. Let the kite fly as high and far from me.. I'll let it fly away from me either.. Till kite realise, kite'll fly to me and fall on my hands.. For now, kite just fly all you can..

Everyday is gonna be a fine day... All i need is time... and rest... I must not get so stressed up... If it's meant to be, it'll be.. Relax.. I shall believe in the Doctrine of What-you-see-is-what-you-get.

Materialism kills.

Allow me to EMO?

2009-01-01T20:27:00.003+08:00

Oh man.. dunno what i'm feeling now. Just a little confuse about my feelings. haa.

I so want to emo, so want to throw tantrum, so want to cry my hearts out, so want to scream my lungs out..

I just dowan to keep all these things in me. But i oso dont wanna share it with others.. lol.

I'm back from HK trip and it was excellent. I had many excellent pickups. And I love them all.. I'll take a pic of all my pick-ups and share with you guys. I can't wait to go there again a few months later and sweep almost every shop at there. lol. Pics will be up soon. :)

My next target for luxury bag is : Miu Miu.

I'll be back for you, Miu Miu!

Can you grant me permission to be emo? sigh.

Current Song: Total Eclipse of The Heart. :)

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely,
Every now and then I fall apart.
There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart.

Misses & Cares from abroad...

2008-12-23T02:12:00.003+08:00

Sigh.

Heartpain to hear it. Heartache to know it. All I can do is leave him alone to take good care of himself. Till he realise how important he is to me, he'll take care.

i miss him. i hope it's the same for him. miss him till i almost forget how he look like. but i look at our photos then i caught hold of his face in my memory. i was sad that he didnt sms me. but, oh wells, it's expensive. don't wanna waste such money. reach sg then catach up again lor.

Current Love: Duo Yu - Yang Zhong Wei

teardrops,
mag

On Holiday Mood . .

2008-12-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

Darling met up with me before I left for HK, he came after his training. Really appreciate it as he came even though he is tired and carrying many things. Also, it's our 4Yrs and 9months Anniversary. Coincidently, it's his mum's actual birthday too.. hee.. We sat at the bus stop to chit chat. hee. Both of us can't bear to leave each other.. lol.. It's so sweet.. I noe that we miss each other. I miss him alot too.. :) Kissed, hug and waved goodbye.. Chat on the phone while I walk home... Chat on the phone before we go to bed.. :(

My Boy..

I'm in Hong Kong perming my hair. haa. Look so funny.. Like an aunty.. :)

Footprints,

Mag

outta town :)

2008-12-11T22:04:00.004+08:00

HONG KONG, HERE MAGDALENA COMES ! ! !

Gonna go with 1 luggage and come back with 3 luggage. hahahaha...

Away from 12th Dec to 28th Dec.

Till then, to all my close ones esp. BMC, i'll see you back in sg soon. YQ, you say you'll wait for me to go drinking with vincent. And Lynn, heard from YQ that you miss me.. haa. we'll go drinking together and catch up.. hee. Take care girls, guys and girl power..

Dear, do take care of yourself. Although timing clash, If we're fated to meet in HK, we will. haa. When you're at HK must drink more water, bring lip balm and lotion. WEAR YOUR JACKET, don't catch a cold. You need to be in good form for the the tournament. Good luck for your matches. But don't so "ping ming" (I think your mum will agree to this too) k? Take care.. I'll be back soon, with lots of stuff..
Love you.

Bring me back my fantasy...

2008-12-05T10:24:00.003+08:00

Where's all my confidence and esteem that Joseph gave me just few weeks ago?

Oh man, it must have been destroyed..

Negative feelings and thoughts about myself keep running in my mind.
So much so that even when ppl praise me, I think they're lying to make me happy only.

Some said I look like Belinda Lee. It's a little random, but I dunno why, I oso like her..
But not for some ppl lar. haa.

School has started and I don't really like the feeling of sitting in lecture halls and listen to lecturers. it's a little tiring, ya know.

My Current LOVE:
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For an the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my vioce when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifed me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am because you loved me
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch sky
I lost my faith you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
Im grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I dont know that mach
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my vioce when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifed me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is A better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my vioce when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifed me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
Im everything I am because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my vioce when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifed me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith cez you believed
Im everything I am because you loved me
Im everything I am because you loved me
Over...

It's Just That Volcano . .

2008-11-22T10:00:00.002+08:00

Everything will go as what you said.

Hot, hot, hot... Burnin' Up...

Scalded by the Volcano's lava.. haa.

My smile has become a consealer for me.
My tears has become . . . . . . . . . . . .

Adecco Presentation

2008-11-18T21:23:00.003+08:00

Woohoo~

Finally, Adecco's Project is done. Ended the project with a great presentation by my group. We were awarded the best group for our presentation at IP. It was quite stressful cos we're presenting to 6 managers. hee.

Went to see the doctor cos of my back ache. Darling's mum brought me there. hee. That's so sweet of her. Really appreciate it. hee.

Mag will smile no matter what . .

2008-11-14T08:57:00.005+08:00

Dumb, dumb, didi, didi..
Dumb, dumb, didi, didi..
Dumb, dumb, didi, di, DUMB..

Wednesday.. I saw a green man..
Went out for dinner with him at TPY.
I ate Qiu Lian Mee Hoon Kuey.
He eat Pig Trotters with rice.
Home sweet home.
Slept around 10plus.
Wasn't a good chat before I slp.

Thursday.. No colour man today..
Went home after work.
He's sick. He said he has fever.
I oso dunno how i can help him la.
He's schedule already so tight that he can barely be at home resting.
After his training. We quarrelled lor. Nothing unusual actually.
Just that I didnt have a good night slp.

Friday.. I saw a white man..
He didnt go to work. cos he's sick.
I initiate the msg 1st. Thickskin la, mag!
My dad asked me to go cell group.
I don't think i'll be able to go for the dinner meet-up with BMC.
sigh.
Still as cold as last night.
Still as cold as the night before.
Cos you're hot n you're cold...
What temperature should I be so as to be in the same frequency as you?
I don't mind making changes. lol.
lol. haa. hee. laughOUTloud. haha. hehe.

This week is a bad week..
Blame it on my dumbness.

my back is hurting ALOT!
Gonna see a doc tmr. Maybe gotta go for x-ray.
I think my spine is crooked. lol.

Please, everyone can just leave me alone.. thanks.

Weekend with Darling

2008-11-14T08:50:00.002+08:00

Friday - 7th
Meet him to cut his hair.
I told him I made friend.
Everything wasn't fine till the time when he send me home.
We ironed out everything and decided to start afresh.

Saturday - 8th
Went to work in the morning.
Confided to Aili. He gave me some advices.
Went to TP to meet him.
He was having Friendly with NUS.
We went to eat Ban Mian & Carrot cake. Nice!
Went to his house to wait for him to change into go-out clothes.
Headed to town with his friends. They're on a shopping spree.
Home sweet home after that. Tired. :)

Sunday - 9th
He have 3on3, again.
After that Friendly match.
Meet up with me to go my relative's Wedding Dinner at Swissotel The Stamford.
The food was excellent!
Talk, talk n talk. Some unhappiness though. But I guess everything was fine after that.

Weekend without Daddy

2008-11-03T12:13:00.007+08:00

Woohoo...

31st Oct
Went to meet dear at City Hall after work. After that, met Leon, Adeline, Jansen, Darren, Baowen and we walked around before settling at Sakura for Internation Buffet to celebrate Leon's birthday. Haa. And they played a Happy Birthday Song for him. I told him it was arranged by Adeline. lol.

Full + Bloated + Satisfying = Happy MAG~

The food was delicious. I love the Salmon Sashimi! hee. Darling loves it too. Took some photos outside the place. The guys.... humorous.. haa..

Walked to Far East to find another bunch of their friends.. Saw "Naruto(s)" on the street and we took pictures with them. will post 'em up soon. haa. Went home, was dead tired! Darling still have to travel home alone. sorry.

1st Nov
Went to school for On-Campus Session. Everything was quite brief and fast. Dear and I end at the same time and we hurried down to Kampung Ubi CC for his 3-on-3 Just Play competition; team with Laolao and Jinhong with their team name, Ji Tao Cui. Damn funny. lol. The sun was bad to us. It's so humid. With the sun shinning on my head n staying there so long without proper meals. I'm so hungry, tired, feeling nauseous and headache. Ji Tao Cui was the Champs! But it was actually a close fight, however, Hanbin was having leg cramps. So they decided to share the prize. Friendly match. haa. Chatted a lot with Yiwen. We shared a personal pizza but the staff made a mistake and gave us a regular pizza. Shiok! no additional top-up needed. hee.

Gwen came in the afternoon. :) Long time no see.
Jin Hong's GF, Jess, came along n we chatted quite a bit. A pretty girl, i must say.
Yuling came after that to find Laolao, but she hid behind something that was very faraway and watched their match from there. MJ spotted her, so Laolao went to persuade her to come over. She bought Swissroll for the guys. And they enjoyed it.

Split the prize and we went home. Tired + burnt + hungry.

*Peng, Yong Liang, Leslie, Worm, Kelly, Yan Qing, Cheryl and Lynn went down to support Dear. haa. Thanks~

Went to Dear's home for dinner, he packed some stuff for my domestic helper, bathed and packed his things and we left his home for my home. I wasn't feeling well. Vomited abit at Compasspoint toilet. Went home then vomit again after I bathed. While playing mahjong, i vomited again. The final and the most thing came out. lol. Was very tired throughout the whole game. However, I won a little. Dear lost quite a bit. We ended the game early cos I really need to rest. As soon as I lie on the bed, I feel aslp. Very tired...

2nd Nov
Woke up feeling good and fresh. hee. Dear was the last to wake up. haa. Joel went to disturb him till he wake up. haa. He said he slept well. And Joel said that the way dear fell aslp was very funny, he just fell back n slp. lol. We played mahjong in the morning. After that we all bathe and headed to Square2 and had Sakae Sushi for lunch. Dear love it alot, cos i ordered the soup which he like and i intro him the black pepper which he said it's nice. lol. Darling was a "nanny" to the 2 young ones while nic, my helper and myself went to visit my grandma in the hospital. After that we went to find them and bought for my sister the Angel Clay and a Book.

CLIMAX......
Dear drove us to AMK Hub using Toyota Picnic. The car is very big, but dear was very zai. He can even drive with one hand. lol. It's the 2nd time he took me on the wheels~ I was very excited... haa! He drove very smoothly that my younger siblings fell aslp in the car. haa.

Reached AMK hub and we walk walk around there. Bought bread for snacks. Headed home with tabao-ed Mee Goreng, Hor Fun n Hokkien Mee. We ate dinner then went to played Mahjong again. haa. It was a super fun weekend!! hee.

Around 10plus, darling follwed nicholas and they went off...

Bye to everyone.

2008-10-29T10:39:00.003+08:00

Will change to livejournal soon and lock my entries. Totally locked. From now on, no postings at blogspot.

Take care, peeps.

Going back into my turtle shell. Ah wang~ lol.

My 3rd...

2008-10-23T20:34:00.005+08:00

It's my third time.... I think I'm more experienced? lol. My first reaction wasn't angry at all... I was quite calm.. lol. But after awhile, i came to my senses.. I cried in office, for goodness sake. Nobody noes tho. After lunch, went to the toilet and breakdown, really cannot take it. Then went back office to continue my work. I told my friend that I must drown myself with work so I won't think about that.

Sigh, just a little unsure of what he wants.. But, it's for sure that he can't have the best of both worlds... Yes, the girl is good, the girl is great, probably she can give him what I can't give. No matter what happens, i think i just have to be happy that at least our paths cross and we did try our best in this relationship..

I asked myself, "why is it always me? it's like on a yearly basis samore. WHY? my old scar just recovered and here comes a new wound..".

Fine, some people just won't know how it feels being hurt, till they experience it themselves.

Alot of things running in my mind.. I'm thinking alot alot alot... I'm really tired.. Mentally and emotionally.. Just now while buying lunch, I suddenly feel very stressed up. I dunno how should I go about handling this issue. Although it's my third time, I think I won't just forgive and that's all. If not, I will be doing myself injustice and he will think he can get away so easily everytime.

Went to SK, my MP3 sucks today, the songs made me cry on bus! To prevent myself from crying or thinking of this, I quickly switch to "Low", and repeat it till i reach home. Indeed it helped. I went to pass minjie's stuff to his brother. Went to compasspoint Ladies, I brokedown at there again. I gave myself 10mins to cry. After that I cleaned up myself and went up to his house to pass to minxiang. Somehow, he looked into my eyes knowing that I cried and looks a little worried. lol. Or mayb he was shocked to see that I went all the way there to pass his brother the singlets. haa.

Went home after that. I literally fell aslp on bus. Was very tired after one whole day of crying n tearing. I told my friend that I was tired and wanted to go home.. I really tired. Cos I can't possibly just rest, stare blank, daydream at office. I've to do my things despite all the issues in my heart..

It's the ache in the heart.
It's what i call, "heartpain".
Total confusion and helpless.
I find trouble and problem for myself,
I'll face it myself.
Anyway, it's partly my fault..
You can blame me.. Blame me for all you want..
I dun give a damn anymore..
I'm tired, I feel like giving up everything!!!!!
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh..........

Dearie Rox, pub someday.. I'm feeling very vex..

2008-10-21T11:57:00.003+08:00

What's with that pretender? So pretentious that I chose to ignore the pretender. I'm so gonna draw a clear line between the pretender and I. Oh pls, your mask is even "nicer" than mine.

Just keep on saying and make the HEADLINES everyday, if it PLEASES you. I won't give it a damn already. I will purposely ignore it and will NEVER let it affect me anymore.

We're not subjected to any obligations to PLEASE you.

Some people are just simply WIERD, you wouldn't know what's their intention for every action they make. Hmm... Probably... They are confused with themselves!! That's the one... They are confused.. Totally confused.. But, please, don't make us confuse too. We will remind each other what we really want..

Hmm... No time for each other.. But I think it shouldn't be any problem already.. Cos I am really getting used to it, and I'm doing quite fine with it.. Hee. So, please don't worry about me. Just go ahead with your stuff and commitments, orite? keke.. Anyway, absence makes the heart grows fonder, right?

3rd Meet~

2008-10-18T12:08:00.005+08:00

3rd Meeting - 17th October 2008

Ytd was super fun. XR and I meet Peng at Tanah Merah then we headed to Dhoby Ghaut. Yong Liang and Worm was there first. So we chit chat awhile. Woon Cheng n Gretel were earlier than us, though Gretel said she'll be late. lol.

We waited for nearly 2hours for table for 15 of us. Leslie couldn't make it cos he has to attend funeral. We waited for so long that the waiters and waitress were angry for us also, cos there's a group of people who just wouldn't leave the table. argh. Peng, eugene, worm, yong lian and dear were very angry.. PEng and dear even sat at the table beside them and stare at them. lol. After we got our seat, the supervisor gave us many many benefits cos we waited for so long yet didn't gave up. haa. We have 15% discount, freeflow of drinks, free 3 bowls of garlic rice and 2 rounds of free drinks while we were waiting. lol. All of us were very happy that day! hee. We eat till SUPER full, EXCEPT for SIYUAN. She is really our big eater. Second is Eileen. hee. Both of them are really POWER GIRLS~

We left the place and found a very nice place to take photos. Photos will be uploaded at the end of this entry. hee. Everyone was getting tired as it was already 11plus when we left the place. we rushed to catch the last train. Time seems to fly very fast when we're having fun.. Sigh. Take care, folks. Till we meet again~

i'm sorry, you won't be able to get the best of both worlds. you will still have to make a choice. it's either that or this. sometimes i just admit defeat. cos i don't see a point in fighting for it if it doesn't meant to be mine.

*unfairness. sometimes i don't get what i want. sigh.

btw, the "love & marriage" story below...... Credit goes to Z-PING~

Weekend~

2008-10-17T10:10:00.002+08:00

TGIF = THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!

Today is gonna be a wonderful and eventful day. All my meals are planned, lunch @ Cafe Cartel and dinner @ The Manhatten Fish Market. I'm gladly anticipating for work to end and rush there to see all my friends as well as darling. hee.

The day before was bad for me, I just suddenly feel very emotional. I kept reflecting on how miserable my life is. Like, I don't have a family that loves me and don't have very close friends where I can really confide in them. Now, I realise how "poor" am I. Although I'm the eldest in the family, it seems that most of the effort are put into those younger than me or to the BOYS only. They get all the privileges and it's really very obvious. That's why sometimes I don't see the point in obeying them, or to even be at home. I will just listen and nod my head.

Now I realize how girls can be so unfairly treated. I swear I will not discriminate my daughters or sons in future. I will definitely want the best for them. I will not treat them like how i'm being treated. Yah, I admit there are ocassionaly pamperings from my dad. But it's not comparable to the rest. I just can't wait to go out and work and earn loads of money, so I can pamper myself with the things that I like and want.

I know I'm materialistic. But, this is my motivation to work hard so I can support myself and pamper myself.

It's nonsense to him. Although he said no, but it's quite obvious to me from the way he reply. So, after knowing it, I didn't wanna continue talking about all this with him. I decided to retreat and keep it to myself. Probably, that's all I can possibly do, since it's difficult for people to listen to all this. Was feeling very down that day, kept thinking of those unhappy stuff. But there is just no outlet for me. I pushed everything aside and went to sleep. Oh, but darling was sweet enough to say that "Although your family don't love you, I like you, I love you ah..". Thanks for your care.

A student asked a teacher, 'What is love?'
The teacher answered, 'In order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
The student went to the field, while going thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he thought to himself: maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… But maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he found out that he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, '… This is love. you keep on looking for a better one, but when you realize later on, you have already missed the person…

''What is marriage then?', asked the student.
The teacher replied, 'In order get an answer to question, go to the corn field, choose the biggest corn and return.
And again, the same rules apply: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
'The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he has already picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and returned to the teacher.
The teacher told him, 'This time you bring back a corn…. You look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get…. This is marriage.'

I think the story is very meaningful.

2008-10-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

11th October - Went out with dear for our DATE. After work I was feeling very sick, my lower back ache like mad, and i'm super tired. So as soon as I reached dear's house, i quickly ate the medicine for bodyache, the medicine can cause drowsiness. I closed my eyes and rested for awhile. Dear's mother came back...... oh... it's been ages since I last saw her.. hee. Went out to Orchard. I was feeling so blur the whole time, like drunk drunk that kind of feeling. I think it's cos of the medicine. I'm totally blur, i can't remember which shop i go and all. haa. But i just remember i had a great time eating at Manhatten, we ate Seafood Platter for 2 (the fried option). I just love the Prawns, the cheese sauce is SO NICE! And i love the Calamari Rings and the Garlic Rice.... ooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh soooooooooooooo yummmmmmyyyyyy~
Dear tabbed the bill. Thanks darling for the sumptuous and scrumptuous dinner. I LOVE IT..!

Hmm.. there seem to be some problem recently. Sometimes I just dun understand why they are reacting this way. Every step and every action that we take is wrong, and we always seem to be in fault. But it's not true ar, we didn't say who cannot go with us and all. No one restrict anybody to join us. In fact, she was the one who stray from us first ah... Then now it seems like we neglected her and exclude her.. As peng said, chalet is the only and best event to get bonded with friends. I guess, that's a very wrong decision. And the worst thing, no one was informed. Cos if at least u let us know that you've left, and will surely persuade you to stay over. sigh.. I know it's good to be sensitive, but i think, shouldn't be too sensitive oso ah.. Like that it's very difficult for us cos, we have to be very careful with our words and action.. This really draws a line between us, as friends we usually speak straight from our mind, but now, we have to be careful. So it'll be quite pretentious and wierd. In the past, everything was okay ar... you even follwed us eat Ban Mian and all. But suddenly you just stray away from us...

Hopefully, we can solve this problem soon and things will get better.

4 years 7 months.

2008-10-11T12:14:00.003+08:00

4 Years and 7 Months together...

After work went to find them at town. Nothing much to say. Everything just didnt turn out well.. From my head to toe and from inside to outside. All I did was to smile my problems away infront of them. But some will noe how it feels in your heart... There is just this kind of sharp pain that you'll feel.. I don't know how to describe. If you ever cut your wrist, then mayb you'll know that it feels like that in your heart.. Those sharp sharp pain.. And my face will start squeezing like I'm gonna cry anytime soon, and tears will build up in my eyes.. I will curse and swear in my heart.. My body will be very violent, I will start clenching my fist, or i will hit the wall or do something which cause pain. I think cause i'm very angry with myself..

Sometimes i ask myself, " Do I deserve all these?", "What have I done wrong to be in this situation?"

It's hard to pull out my happy memories, which I will always try to think back when i'm feeling down..

But sometimes, it hurts even more... Cos you'll think, why in the past, we can be so happy, yet now things are always turning bad..

Is it true that medicine will cause the person to turn haywire? Oh gosh.. I'm just so angry and upset with myself..

It's difficult to talk about this to others, they may think i'm crazy. haha. I'm very cautious with my words and actions. I don't open myself up to others, unless they make me feel comfortable. But there are things which i've accepted and don't mind saying. Like, I'm from a broken family and all.. For other things, I just quietly talk to myself in my heart..

Living in fear. I'm scared...

Will be going out after work. No idea where yet.. But i think we'll go out?

QuestionS in my heart, waiting for people who can give me answerS...

Life is like a rollercoaster...

2008-10-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

hmm....

Many many thoughts running through my mind... I dunno who to start and dunno where to start..

I'll start with work....
So far my work is not giving me much problem. Just that sometimes I can't focus and may stray away. Facing the computer has caused my eyesight to get poorer. I hope it won't get so worse.

Next, to my emotions....
I'm facing lots of problems.. not a surprise anyway.. I'm always facing problems.. many many problems.. it's very difficult to solve it, cos i dunno how.. my heart just feels very tight.. whatever step i take, i'm taking a risk... But it seems that every step i take is a wrong one, which causes me to regret and feel so down... So so upset that I walked from TM to the next bus stop when there is one just opposite the road.. He's sick, so I tried my very best to give him advice to help him feel better.. But the reply wasn't very good, it somehow dampen my mood.. I told myself it's okay.. So i continued to smile and msg him.. Hoping that things might turn out better in after awhile.. Seems like it didn't.. Anyway, I was still excited that i'll be meeting him after work.. In then end, we didnt meet.. He gave me 2choices, but I chose not to meet him... Cos i feel that he seems reluctant and his mood was not good (like angry with me that kind), so we might quarrel or things may turn out sour.. So i said "Den nvm, it's okay. we meet another day. you go home and rest early bah k?" He's reply was so hurting.. I cried while walking to the bus stop.. It's not easy to control those tears.. It just flow.. My heart just ache.. My leg hurts too.. But I don't care, i even thought of walking to TP to take Bus 8. But I gave up cos my leg is getting tired..

Enough of all this. I'm getting emotional... Feel like breaking down... Crying has been activated... Tonight is not the right time to cry, cos tmr i've work.. I shall control till Friday night... I just feel so helpless..

Sometimes, it's better not to know so much things.. Rox, you shouldn't have read her blog. It'll only bring you pain.. I know how it feels to find out such things.. I also thought that there wasn't any girl there.. I think it's better to be kept in the dark, than to find it out ourselves. Or probably it would have been less painful when this came out from their mouth..

Humours..

2008-10-07T15:44:00.004+08:00

JUST FOR LAUGHS, FOLKS!

Pls click on the image to laugh!

STORY BEHIND YOUR DATE OF BIRTH

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1....

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2...

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3...

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4...

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...

If U were born on the 6th,15th,24th of any month then U r number 6...

If U were born on the 7th,16th,25th of any month then U r number 7...

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8...

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

Number 1
You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people Position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under Others, self confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get Marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views And you are most likely to take revenge over your Enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and Well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard To bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some People too... Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & Wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...

Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

Number 2
No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, You have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you Are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, Kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect Changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home). If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can Feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your Words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge You can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people! You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get Marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole Family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power Behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3
You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, Loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems Within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always You have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order To achieve something.. You will not get Anything without hard work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger Once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others.

Generally you are not a cool person. It ' s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone ' s attitud! e then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won ' t be long.. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it ' s over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

Number 4
You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don ' t know what to do... So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!

Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an exampleyou have got a degree in some thing... but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs..But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too.. You are radical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order...

Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

Number 5
You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks 'lets do this'. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc..

Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times ' coz your popularity.. You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it ' s your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

Number 6
Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don ' t care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early.

You are a caring person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5!!!

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too.

Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It ' s probably the Lord given you al! l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don ' t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there ' s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say 'this is what'. You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.

Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

Number 9
Hey...you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally... You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it ' s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.

Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

Emotional Outings...

2008-10-05T20:38:00.005+08:00

OUTING WITH FRIENDS - 30th September

The Guys & The Girls...

Group Photos...

Group Photos...

Kelly Services Group & Girls + MJ

Just US . .

This was the outing which was so miserable for me in my heart. I don't look like I am miserable from the photos right? haha.. Do not judge a book by its cover.. I may be smiling but sometimes it just hurts in my heart. I hate those moments. I SWEAR I HATE IT..

OUTING WITH FRIENDS - 4th October

Went for on-campus training. Was a little late, but thanks to dear and friends that they help me to say that I'm in the toilet. hehe. Lucky I wasn't that late, so this excuse can be used. hehe. After we went Ban Mian, then to TM & CS, then to Kallang Leisure Park. It's dear's, Yanqing's and my first time there. Chorpeng said that we are sua-kus. haa. Quite true lah. Cos I dunno how it looks like and what they have there. hehe. We bought Soyabean Ice-cream, Donuts and had dinner had Koufu. We played the arcade. It was so fun. The place was quite boring though. Dear and I left early cos we have our own birthday party to attend. He has to attend Joseph's Birthday Party whereas I have to attend my dad's godnephew 1st Birthday Party. So off we went.

As usual, he is hot-tempered with me again. For dunno what reason.

We msg-ed all the way till he go drinking and I fall alsp on bed...

5th October

*ting* It's morning already. I guess i'm getting quite used to his lifestyle. Last time I couldn't get to slp whenever he goes such places. But now can le bah.. OR mayb cos i'm too tired then can slp de.. hehe. Who knows.. But, still...... I feel that I'm still adapting to his lifestyle and I'm still learning... Probably if this is my lifestyle, he wouldn't be able to accept oso lor.. Put me in your shoes, then they will understand le bah.. Today oso didnt really msg with him.. Cos he so "EARLY" reach home, so will surely very late wake up..

A little boy accidentally kicked me at the side of my rib cage.. *PAIN* Now I know the feeling of getting bashed. haha. Same feeling like that.. and he said: "....how can kick my girl." Wah seh, so touch sia.. hehe.

Back to working week again. Gonna go gym with cynthia tmr after work! Excited.. hehe.

low point in my life.

2008-10-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

30th september - Work & Gathering
We had a gathering. This time round, Xiao Ran joined us. It wasn't all that good for me. Yes, I felt like crying. An yes, I felt like leaving at many point of time. I refused to see, I refused to hear. I just want to blank out and withdraw from everything. I just hate those moments. So helpless, so miserable, so xin ku and felt like bursting out in tears. All these, I bear it all by myself.. We ate at Changing Appetite, Marina Square. I ate Dory Escapade, my mood was damn bad that I can't even taste wad i'm eating and didn't enjoy my food at all. We chit chat, took photos, walked around, slack at Starbucks and home I go while they go drinking. I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't have the mood for all these. But after awhile of msg here and there, I guess everything starts to get a lil better when he made the effort to settle things..

Msged and cried at the same time.. I noe it's stupid.. But I have to let it off.. I love crying to myself.. I don't noe why.. Probab;y I don't wan ppl to see how ugly I look when I cry? lol.

Everything is fine now when we sit down n talked, we shared our thoughts and feelings. Hope it will be better.. It pains me to see him busy, tired and sick.. yet forking out time to spend with me. But in the end the time wasn't well-spent. Boos.

Have you ever experience all those that I experience the other day? I don't wanna say much. Store it into my heartdisk, hoping it will crash by itself someday.

2nd Oct - Work
Talked to yanqing today on msn, she said when she read my blog. It's 2 totally different Magdalena (the one she sees and the one who blogs). Split personality? lol. No lah, it's just that I don't wanna show out my sorrows and unhappiness. I like to be a strong person.. I don't like to look weak, that's why I always put up a strong front. hee. Also, I don't wanna spoil everyone's joy. hee. Thanks babe! I noe you care.

1st Oct- Pictures & Outing with Dear and Friends
Meet up with dear before meeting the rest. Adeline was there too. Had some conversations and chats with her. Previously, we didnt talk at all. hehe. Till yesterday, I realise that she got read my blog, thru Melvin's link. lol. Hey girl, do leave a tag and let me noe your blog link if you have one, yea? hee. See you soon during their next outing. It was fun shopping with the guys right. hee. Nice knowing you too. (=

Adecco - IP Branch.
Came back to work on saturday. Need to pack some stuff to move to Tampines Branch.

Eating dinner with joel.
He miss me loads, that's why we sat down and had dinner together and catch up with each other. hee. Like so matured right? hee.

Welfare Outing Sept - Adecco

2008-09-28T13:39:00.004+08:00

Finally.... Another week passes by.. quite quickly I must say.. Cos this Monday I'll be moving to Tampines Branch already.. No more Yan Qing, Eileen and Lynn for lunch le.. And the food at Tanjong Pagar are nice and cheap! They have lots of yummy muffins too!! hee.

It's not any fantastic week for me.. There were many problems which I have to handle and face it bravely. No one there to listen, no one whom I dare to share with... Just me, myself and I.. Anyway, no one can understand my feeling, cos sometimes, I also don't know what I'm doing and what I really want. I always wished a simple smile can erase all my problems and I can forget about it. But, it's difficult. I always tell myself to move on and not cry when something just hit me straight at my heart.. Just give it a smile and move on, don't ever think back or reflect on it cos tears will just stream down.. I have this habit, which is, I won't turn back and look at him whenever we said goodbye. Cos i don't like to see him walking away from me, neither do i like to see his back when i noe he won't turn back for me till the next time we meet... So, what's the point of turning back to see him for another glance.. It just hurts..

For all this while, I've never turn back after we waved goodbye. I always have the hope that he'll come chasing after me. But i'll still keep telling myself, "Aiyah, it's impossible. Don't demand and think so much. Just walk on. My eyes are placed in front and not at the back, so I'll look forward and not turn my head around to take a glance.." I've never told anyone this before. Not even him, for like how many years already.

Friday I went to my company's welfare outing at Chinatown's KTV. It was quite fun. Sang a few songs only. Cos i'm quite a shy person. Iceman said so too. But he said he managed to break my ice. Boss chatted with me about my work and my performance. I felt happy when they were satisfied with my performance. Got a sense of satisfaction and achievement. I'll continue to do my very best de!! =D . I wanna do well for this Internship. Hee. Xiao Ran said that Boss favours me. Hee. She's trying to recruit me after I graduate. Hehe. I agreed to it, cos she's handling a very good and strong team.

1.) Ethan, Samuel, ME, Amanda & Bruce
2.) Jaren a.k.a Iceman, ME & Boss.

1.) Ethan, Samuel, ME & Amanda
2.) ME & Boss.

P.S: Dad sprained his ankle, and will be home for 12days. Heartpain to see him in great pain. Now his leg is in a cast, and using crutches to move around. Very sad. Pity him a lot. :(

Nothing goes smooth for me.... Let's not meet so often.. I don't want it either.. hmm, since I won't be meeting you often. Till the next time we meet, you take care... I can't msg as and when I like already.. Gotta focus on my work already.. You gotta really take care..

Week 2 of SIP

2008-09-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

Ytd marks the end of Week 2 for attachment. hee. Went to meet the guys for dinner at Chinatown. Went to the famous Frog Porridge coffeeshop. But some of us don't like so we ate zhi char. hee. Worm, Shiyuan n Yishan ate Salad You Tiao and Sweet & Sour Pork. Les and I ordered Black Pepper Beef and Beancurd. All of us shared the dishes and was super full. It's very fun catching up with them. Laughed over jokes and riddles. Chatted for about 3hours; meet at 7plus and went home at 10.45pm. I went home with Les, shiyuan n wooncheng. But Les followed us till Clarke Quay and we went on our journey. Reached home around 11.30pm. So late, so tired, so lazy to bathe. But i still bathe.

Wasn't a nice chat over the phone. Don't know why, probably my voice provoked him? Probably I've said all the wrong things? Probably I shouldn't have asked too much. Probably I shouldn't have been so unreasonable and self-centred. Alright, I know. I will change.

I will change.

Probably you'll like the new me. Please wait for change to take place... Sorry for the inconvenience caused as there may be some emotion unstability happening.

YES! It's saturday. It's my rest day.. I slacked and did all the things I liked. lol. I woke up late, eat a lot, watched tv, lie on the bed, watched vcd and go out for dinner with my family. hee. It's been long since I stayed at home on saturday. I wanna stay home on saturdays!! hee. hee. Can watch my MVP Qing Ren oso.

Oh man, MVP Qing Ren so nice. Although I watched it got many times. The story still makes me cry over touching and sad scenes. Ice Man, Gao Xing and Prince...... Oh my goodness. Just find them very charming. Ice Man very muscular, I like his nose. lol. Prince.. I like his character and the way he treat Xiao Xi. He's SUPER rich too. His mum uses a LV Planner. Oh my! Ahhh... Gao Xing, has the Jay Chou look and I just like his features. hahahaha... I like the way Prince woo Xiao Xi, very persistant and truly sincere in winning her heart. He really love her lah. Can do anything for her. This type of man is EXTINCT! Maybe that's why it's only a show. He's rich and also love her so much. Xiao Xi stupid sia.. stupid dao bu de liao.. haha.

Prince tag line: "In this world, there is nothing that Tai Zi can't do"
Xiao Xi tag line: "Don't give up so easily, or else you'll only do yourself wrong"

SIP Updates

2008-09-17T08:26:00.002+08:00

SIP
So far so good.... Though it's a little bit stressing cos any mistake can have many impacts, and my colleagues and boss have high expectations of things. So, I gotta buck up and be alert. My boss say I'm not daring in doing things, of cos lah.. I'm still new ar.. If i go ahead without asking their approval, and anything goes wrong they will say that I should have asked thme before doing things. Hmm... so yah, lame.. Oh, have been lunching with Kelly staff (Yanqing, Eileen n Lynn). lol!

Monday
Lunch with lynn n eileen, yanqing had to lunch with her supervisor. lol. Went to meet darling after work. We headed to TPY for dinner. I ate Mee hoon Kuey Dry while he ate U-Mian Dry. Dessert for me was "Da Mai" and he ate Ice-Kachang. Darling brought Mooncake for me. And it's the one that I love! The pastry kind with yam filling. hee.

Tuesday
Lunch with yanqing, lynn and eileen. Lynn talked about her scary nightmare with the "ghost". lol. So lame lah. Now then i realised she is very gossip kind. Went home straight after work. Darling went to meet his friends. hee.
Some things get sour, but I just have to use my smile to sweeten things up, at least before i sleep. So I won't have nightmare or something. lol.

Wednesday
Sour things drag on to the next day, which really makes me very moody and sad. I oso don't want to talk much cos it doesn't benefit anyone. Stay focus!!!! Go work loh.. sigh.. (T.T)

SIP Orientation!

2008-09-10T20:51:00.003+08:00

2 things to talk about.... SIP and Exams Result.

SIP
Everything was so so fine. Meet up with Cheryl and Erica then we went up ADECCO. Suppose to meet with Xiaoran oso. But there were some miscommunication and we couldn't meet up with her. Called her but couldn't get her oso. So Cheryl, Erica and I went up first. Started with Orientation. It was very dry. It's all about absorbing information only. The room was dark, which makes me lose focus at time and felt like sleeping. Hee. The room got colder.. I couldn't 'tahan'. Keep fidgeting and my fingers were too cold that it became stiff. laughoutloud. Part one of orientation ended. The whole group went to Amoy Street Hawker Centre for lunch. I ate the FAMOUS LOR MEE, which what Cheryl and Jeremy recommended. hee. It's not too bad. I finished the whole bowl clean&green. laughoutloud. We have lunch break from 11.15 to 1pm. So it's almost 2hours. hee. After lunch, Cheryl, Xiaoran and I bought Missy Muffins. I chose the White Choco flavour, cos there is a cockroach running pass the Cheese Muffin's tray. So I gave it a pass and chose those muffins that are placed on the higher shelf. hee. It's yummy. I intend to buy a box home one of these days. hee. If happen to work before meeting friends or darling. I may buy for them too. hee.

After eating, we brought our muffins to meet Yan Qing, Lynn and Eileen. Went to MRT station there to eat our muffins while they have their lunch. hee. It's fun talking with them, yea. Cheryl, Xiaoran and I left first because our lunchbreak ended earlier than theirs. We reached ADECCO on the dot. Not too late and not too early. hee. Continued with part two of the orientation, it lasted for about 1hour and we went on to some roleplay. It was quite lame la. But we still gladly did it. hee. All of us were quiet except one guy who is VERY outspoken. To the EXTREME! haa. Jaslyn (orientation supervisor) brought me to my direct supervisors. I've my own work desk. It's the FIRST desk RIGHT INFRONT of the door. boos. Means when there are walk-in candidates, I got to attend to them. oh dear, stress ah. But my direct supervisor is very hip, she very friendly oso. Just that colleagues don't look friendly.

Supervisor: Hi, I'm Min Er, welcome to ADECCO.
Magdalena: Hi, I'm Magdalena. Nice to meet you.
Supervisor: Are you a Chinese?
Magdalena: Yah. I'm a Chinese.
Supervisor: As in Pure Chinese?
Magdalena: Er.. Yah. Why eh?
Supervisor: Oh.. Cos you have the Peranakan features and look. Baba look.
Magdalena: Oh yah! You're right. I've Peranakan blood in me. So maybe that's why.
Supervisor: Icic.. Can see from your look.
Magdalena: Wah, you're very good at looking at people. Can tell straight away that I'm a Baba.
Jaslyn: That's why she's the Branch Manager for HR, can assess people very well.

*magdalena was grinning. First time people say I'm a Peranakan without me telling them.

The whole orientation for the first day ended at around 2.30pm. Went home with Jason and Faatimah. I think I've learnt to open-up already. I can even talk to people whom I just met for hours. I guess it's a positive trait. (: Reached home around 4pm.

EXAM RESULTS
The results wasn't that good. But better than having to take supplementary papers and having to go through the trouble of applying leave and all. hee. All in all, quite satisfied bah. (:

JUST MY THOUGHTS
I dunno why, but i just miss those times that I spent with my friends after lectures and tutorials. Like eating Ban Mian and all. Missed darling too cos we are so used to spending our everyday together even though it's in class. laughoutloud. Being alone having to be independant, learn on my own and deal with clients and candidates make me have the feeling of loneliness and stress ah! But I believe I can cope well. hee.

JIA YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS HAVING ATTACHMENT! We can do it de! 3months will pass very quickly.

SIP Launch

2008-09-09T00:24:00.005+08:00

Went for SIP Launch at 8.45am. Chorpeng and I was on the same bus, but I was sleeping so didnt see him. lol. Being attached to ADECCO Recruitment Agency at International Plaza. Was quite happy with it, although it's the competitor of KELLY. Cos I'm in the same building as most of my friends, just that different level. hee. So we can eat lunch together n go home together. hee. I think it's gonna be fun? This SIP really bonds us, cos we'll definitely rely on each other when we're in an unfamiliar place.

But this is not the case for darling.. I'm just praying hard for him that at least he'll be able to get good colleagues that can slack with him n joke around with him.. Also, "take care" of him.. Just very worried about him.. I'm also very nervous, but didn't wanna show to him, cos I'm afraid he'll be more frightened.. like no more pillar of strength... Chey, wad pillar of strength sia.. Like so 'liao bu qi' hor.. hee.

Today after the SIP Launch, the whole group went opp. to eat Ban Mian. There are Chorpeng, Eugene, Yong Liang, Worm, Leslie, Yishan, Yan Qing, Cheryl, Shiyuan, Woon Cheng, Gretel and Kelly. I think this will also be the last time we eat Ban Mian together.. The next time will be 3months later? or maybe during our on-campus session. hmm..

Kelly went other place whereas we went to TM, do some stuff there. Gretel went home cos she wasn't feeling well. Yong Liang bought a box of CRUNCH Ice-cream, all of us shared it with him. his treat... thanks! It's nice but it gets sweeter as I finish it off.. The rest loiter around TM while Darling and I went to UOB to activate his UOB Gold Card.

Took train down to ORCHARD. Went to Agnes b. at Shaw House, actually to buy Yong Liang shirt. But they don't have his size and the colour that he want. Darling asked him to wear size 0.5, since he's wearing size 1 but it's still too big for him! lol. Headed to Far East.. Walked for awhile and the guys are hungry.. Chorpeng, Darling and I went to eat Ramen. Darling treat me to Gyoza. SUPERB CAN!! Must eat it with lotsa GINGER n VINEGAR! Yummy. (now craving for Assam Laksa). Worm, Leslie, Yong Liang n Eugene went to eat Chicken Rice. Went over to find them then we go and look for Yanqing they all. They were shopping for heels for SIP. haa. Shiyuan and Yanqing bought Chippy! oh dear... Yummy. Keep salivating! Went to Lucky Plaza's Arcade. The guys play Daytona and the girls just watch. haa.

Headed to Toa Payoh. Went to Popular with the purpose of buying a file to put the SIP Logbook. But none caught dear's eyes. But I ended buying a Chocolate Snack, which is NICE! hee. Meet up with the girls who were buying Waffles. Then we headed to NTUC to "shop"? haa.. I bought another snack which wooncheng intro me. CHEESE snack. haa. Went to the interchange to meet worm's friend. Darling and Eugene bought a $2.00 chicken rice, which was oh-so-yummy! hee. Tasted some from darling's. hee. I'm always so greedy. wahaha..

Took bus157 to Mediacorp to support Eileen, C!Star. hee. It's my first time there. Was very excited. really very excited. Sounds like a small kid. The feeling was just so different. Really like a small kid experiencing excitement. Cos it's something new to me. and it's NATIONAL TV kind, like wad yishan always say... on NATIONAL TV leh.. haha.. Yanqing sat beside me and kept peeping at me. haha.. she must be feeling that i'm sucha sua-gu! lol.

Went home with Yanqing, Yishan, Leslie, Chorpeng and Dear. We didn't stay for the Results cos it'll be very late, and Dear is tired. hee.

I guess I've hit on his raw nerve again. I'm sucha shitty person. kan na sai sia! Always talk the wrong things lor. Next time just shut my mouth... There is always something that makes me feel insecure or rather i'm unhappy with.. but i think it's just men's nature.. Anyway, i'm not any better than those girls out there. Just forget about it. Just close my eyes so I won't see anything. Just close my hears so I won't hear anything. arrgh.. Bitter Medicine..! I don't like..!

Home at last. It's a long day for all of us. Watched the Result show, C!Star is out already. ): Very sad sia, I wanna go and support them again! it's so fun! hee. Planning for tmr... hee.

i'm feeling very lousy... feel like crying out loud... too much for me to hold...

Genting Photos.

2008-09-07T21:36:00.011+08:00

GENTING TRIP WITH DARLING, ROXANNE & LAOLAO.

DAY 1 - EAT, SHOPPING & MOVIES.

Went for Breakfast.

*Breakfast at MacDonalds*
Ordered Sausage McMuffin Meal, Darling ordered Big Breakfast..

After Breakfast, went to slack (or rather to sleep) at the hotel's reception area and went for Chicken and Century Egg Congee.

Waiting For Check-in..
*Feeling that it's still long before our turn to check-in, we went to Starbucks to wait. Ordered Hot Chocolate n Mushroom Cabiatta.

*Checked-in*
Rested and washed up..

*Lunch at MacDonalds*
Ordered McChicken Set.. I like the fries.. so yummy. (:

After washing up.. Went for Shopping.. Bought a few stuff only.

*Dinner at PIZZA HUT!!*
Ordered I Large Hawaiian Pizza, Spicy Chicken Wings, Criss Cut Fries and Spaghetti. It's so satisfying! The pizza was yummy.. the top is soft with lots of ingredients then the base is crispy!!

Buying Movie Tix..
Watched Meet The Zohan & The Luckiest Man.
Four of us were dozing during both midnight shows...

More photos are with ROXANNE!! (:

DAY 2 - THEME PARK, EAT N SHOPPING.
Went for Breakfast at around 9am at the Hotel's Cafe. Went back to change clothes and headed to the Theme Park entrance to buy our All-Park tickets(Indoor & Outdoor).

OUTDOOR THEME PARK- Pictures r with Roxanne. Will post 'em as soon as I got hold of it.

*Lunch-ed at Marrybrown.*
Ate Fish & Chips Meal while darling ate the 2Pcs Chicken Meal.. It's very filling..

After that went for Indoor Theme Park Rides. Photos of PART I indoor theme park are with Roxanne. Bought some local products for family then we headed to hotel to put them down n wash up. Went back to bathe n had dinner at HOU WEI (chinese food). Super Delicious.. Ate Assam Laksa.. after a while went to Coffee Bean for Desserts. Dear & I ate German Cheesecake while Rox & Laolao ate Oreo Cheesecake. Woohoo.. Yummy yummy.. I wanna eat again!! I've gained much weight over the 3days at Genting.. My stomach is used to the huge appetite and now it's hard for me to control my diet. lol.

Here's the pictures of PART II,

INDOOR THEME PARK - PART II

Infront of the Haunted Mansion.. wahaha..

We're on the Carousel..

Reindeer Ride..

Reindeer Ride...

Floating Boat Ride..

Touring around the shopping centre..

Last day at Genting loh..

DAY 3 - EAT & HOME...
Woke up around 8.15 to get ready. Did some last minute packing and we headed to the shopping centre for our breakfast. For all the three days, each of us spent SGD$150. lol. Most of it was spent on FOOOD~ Yummy delicious FFOOODD~!

*Breakfast at Burger King*
Ordered the croissant meal while darling ordered BK Breakfast. The hashbrowns was superb. Tasty burger too.. Very shiok..

Pictures from the PEAK!

WE LOVE OUR GENTING TRIP!! (:

See you guys soon..

Photos From Joel's Birthday

2008-09-07T21:18:00.003+08:00

Joel's 8th Birthday Party !

Eating.. Minjie, Baowen, John & Jansen.

Joel opening his Present given by the guys.. Ben 10.

Cut Cake loh!

What to do on a Saturday?

2008-08-30T12:06:00.003+08:00

Finally exams are over. I feel so relax. No stress at all. But suddenly like have the momentum to continue studying. lol. So lame. oh well, but I still won't like exams. I rather have projects than exams. haha.

Today will be home the whole day. Made some plans but very lazy to go out.. Planned to go Little India, play Badminton with little borther and watch Wall.E with him. Hmm, but a bit lazy to go out..

Have to pack my bag tonight for Genting. Will be leaving tmr night after church. (: Dad gave me Malaysia money already, so I don't have to change any. wahaha.. Thanks alot, Dad!

By hook or by crook, I need to go Little India. Hee. And play Badminton.. Gotta do alot of exercise, cos have been eating alot alot during exam period. haha..

Alright, gotta get myself prepared to go Little India already. hee. Can't wait to see Roxanne tmr. It's been so long since I last saw her. Hee. Gonna spend my 3days 2night with her.. woohoo.. hee.

Exams ended..

2008-08-28T23:43:00.003+08:00

LIFE - EXAMS = HOLIDAYS!

I love this equation ALOT! haa.
Tmr afternoon will be playing badminton with friends..
Have lunch after that then go home n slack.. He'll be playing bball at night..
Feel like exercising, like hitting the gym or something. hmm...

YES, i can't wait to go Genting with Darling, Roxanne and Laolao. It's gonna be a fun trip! Rox and I will definitely sit the Space Shot..! Yippee.. We'll go shop, eat, play and rest.. Away from school and stress!!!! After Genting trip, the next day will be going for class chalet.. another fun that I anticipate.. wahaha.. it's really gonna be an extremely fun holiday before my SIP starts..

?.? So coincident that we wore the total opposite colour.
It wasn't planned at all wor. I didn't even realised until Darling said so.
Wierd but funny too.

Exams are quite alright.. I'm confident of the other papers.. but I screwed my Events Mgt n Human Resource papers.. Events Mgt was totally no time to complete.. Then the marks allocated are so little yet demanded us to write so much. sigh. A very bad and no-confidence paper for me.. prepared to expect a decrease in my grade. Hope it wouldn't affect so much.. PLEASE!

Human Resource was even worse.. I think I'm too stressed out. Totally blanked out.. I'm so tired to the point that my eyes can be crossed any time. wad the hell.. I wasn't aware of wad I am writing lor.. Just keep writing.. Don't even know whether it makes sense.. If you ask me wad i wrote down as my answers, i can just tell you... ASK MY SOUL WHAT SHE WROTE.. cos I couldn't feel that MAGDALENA was the one answering and writing.. I got no feeling at all.. totally numb..

AN EXTREMELY BAD PAPER I'VE TAKEN SO FAR.. I was confident of it.. But too tired liao, can't help it.. Very regretful over it.. >.<

Joel Bday and Muffins

2008-08-22T21:08:00.004+08:00

MUFFINS !

19th Aug
Went on Muffins-hunt on Tuesday after Revision Tutorial. Cos i was the one who intro the place, and i'm an idiot in directions and places.. We walked a SUPER long way.. The moment we reach the place, he said that we walk 1big round.. we took like 20mins to walk in.. But with him leading out of the place, we took like 10mins only.. lol. wad an idiot I am.. lol.

22nd Aug
Went to buy muffins again. This time around, it is FRESHLY BAKE! My fingers were burning.. lol. My tongue was scald the moment i sink my teeth into the Blueberry With Cheese Muffin. Hhhmmmm.... Mama Mia~ Darling love the Muffins alot.. haa.

16th Aug
This was taken after hitting town with Darling on the 16th Aug. It's also after my little brother's birthday celebration. hee. Joel invited Jansen, John, Baowen and Darling.. So after that, the 5 of us headed to Suntec City and then to Town.. ((:

Weekly post

2008-08-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

My Beauty Sleep!
Teachers just cancel their lessons and lectures as and when they like sia. Didnt even give sufficient notice for us. Made us wake up so early just to find out that it's cancelled. Disrupt my sleep!!

Events Mgt & Lunch
Went for Events Mgt; as usual LATE! Lesson only took like 30mins..! goodness gracious.. Seems like a wasted trip.. And there were so little of us in class.. We went opposite to the coffeeshop that sells nice Hokkien Mee. But it's close when we were there. Boos~ Quite a few of us.. Like 9 of us.. Huiqi and her group went to TM cos we had 2hrs of break.. We slacked at the coffeeshop for 1hour and walked back.. The weather is SUPER HOT. All of us agreed, and were complaining about it almost every minute.

Mrs Loy MC & Chalet Discussion
Combined HR Class with Benny's class. First time and the Last time for this semester. Yes, it's fun!! The guys were very humourous.. Just simply couldn't stop laughing.. ((: As usual, I did my HR tutorial. Which is a contribution to the whole group, which allows time for us to slack and talk in class. lol. Chalet dates have been confirmed. Money have been collected. Now, we're anticipating for the shopping of food and the chalet itself. Yippee!! It's gonna be fun, when we all play Mahjong and Blackjack. Plus, BBQ-ing! hehehehe....

Badminton Session Planning
Recently due to the olympics.. All of us are quite interested to play badminton and many other sports that the guys can think of.. Actually it's because I wanted to play badminton. A form of exercise mah.. So I asked my group lor.. Cos jess said she wanna play oso.. Then I told Yanqing about it.. Hmm... she's interested!! YAY!! Gonna make this badminton session happen! Will start planning and asking around. Anyway, this is quite a common sport. so everyone should know how to play. Liting and Yongliang oso seems interested.. Book 2 courts and play doubles? Winner stay loser out? weeee~

15 Aug
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YISHAN!!
YOU'RE ONE CUTE GIRL I'VE EVER KNOWN SO FAR. I like your "relax" style and cheerful style. Cos you're always smiling, no, LAUGHING! the only time i saw a quiet Yishan is when her throat is SORE! Which forbids her to laugh.. Keep on LAUGHING, girl! she should create laughter-is-my-life.blogspot.com
[Since she say that i should change mine to cheese-is-my-life.blogspot.com]

16 Aug
JOEL'S 8TH BIRTHDAY PARTY !!
My 12years difference brother.. I love him and he loves me. although i get very angry with him at times. lol.
Darling will be coming with Jansen and Baowen. They will be going gym before coming.. He has been focusing heavily on self-development. tsktsk.. How good it will be if my house is near some gym or swimming complex. There will be magic show during the party. heehee.. Going to Career Fair with the guys after the party. Tmr seems to be an exciting and fun day! hee.

Tasted your medicine!

2008-08-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

Your medicine is so bitter and so hard to swallow.
Mine may be slightly bitter only. You wanna taste mine too? :/

Monday: Went home after lesson.
Tuesday: After Events Lect, went to pizza hut for lunch with girl power & the guys. Swimming after that then ate Mee Hoon Kuey and home-sweet-home.
Wednesday: Aft lesson, headed to gym. Ate at Mensa. Went to town ate Carrot Cake. Watched Hougang Getai.
Thursday: Went to TM during break and ate Pumpkin Cake. Home after lesson.

Somehow, I've a feeling that I've reached the limits. Like, the rubberband alr stretched to the fullest. Any more longer, it'll snap. On Wednesday, it almost snap, but I control myself by using breathing techniques. I guess, it does help a little bit. It just hit on my raw nerve. And I really cannot tolerate it. I wanted to throw everything I'm holding into the dustbin, then kick it, punch it and throw the dustbin away!!

I wanna born to be a man in my next life. I hate all the soft-hearted emotions and sobbing. I think I've enough of it. I wanna be a MAN! A MAN! A MAN!

43rd NDP

2008-08-11T02:35:00.005+08:00

7th Aug- School, Bugis & Town

My Fave! Look at the CHEESE!

My funny photos of the day.

*Credits to Darling.

43rd National Day- 9th Aug

Watching the aircrafts zooming around..

Suntec City

Adidas @ City Link Mall

Swimming!!

2008-08-07T01:14:00.002+08:00

Tues - 5th Aug

Went for lunch with darling at Mensa. Ate Western for lunch. ((: my fave!
Meet up with the group to compile our HR Report..
Went swimming at Anchorvale CC. They have slides! so fun.. But the water keep going into my nose. Very pain.. I love to go swimming.. I feel so shiok after swimming.. haa.

darling, i wanna go there again..!

After that, went to eat Tom Yam Mee Hoon Kuey.. Super Shiok.. but too spicy liao. I've got cravings for Mee Hoon Kuey.

Gonna eat it for the next few days.. my cravings last for days.. sometimes even weeks. lol.

This few weeks had been craving for hot desserts, like, Tau Suan, Green Bean and Bobo Hitam.

Wednesday- 6th Aug
Finished HR project today!! Compilation process is always taking us sucha long time.. Yeah, tmr going town. like after sucha long time... haa. Gonna get a bag tmr. so excited. hope it's within my budget. keke. Yeah, i like shopping!! shiok shiok shiok..

Yippee.... No more projects already! Left with exams only.. Now, i'm excited to get back my results for the Tourism reports. hope will do well.. hee.

Puipui's Birthday!

2008-08-07T00:42:00.005+08:00

6th August - 3rd Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HO PUIPUI !

All of us love you alot!

Sorry that we neglect you at times,

like didn't bring you out and scold you for shedding your fur.

You're my handsome, charming, cute and smart friend.

Happy Birthday, puipui

happy birthday, puipui

happy birthday to puipui......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!

muacks & hugs!!

BF's role?

2008-08-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

BF's SHOULD DO.

☆~ When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"
☆~ When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you = "LET HER BEAT AND ACT PAINFUL"
☆~ When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tuff = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"
☆~ When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"
☆~ When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"
☆~ When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"
☆~ When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"
☆~ When she steals your favorite pillow = "Let her keep it and slp with it for a night"
☆~ When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"
☆~ When she looks at you with doubt = "Back yourself up"
☆~ When she says that she likes you = "SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN U COULD UNDERSTAND!"
☆~ When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"
☆~ When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"
☆~ Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
☆~ Call her at 12:00am on her birthday/anniversary dates to tell her you love her
☆~ Treat her like she's all that matters to you☆~ Stay up all night with her when she's sick
☆~ Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

Find some of the pointers quite true... haha. Meaningful huh?

Weekly pictures

2008-08-02T21:58:00.010+08:00

Pictures from the entire week...

Joel hogged my computer. So I flew his kite IN my room.
I jumped with joy and laughter seeing it "fly".
And they said "Jiejie, you crazy ar?"

BUNNY HAS WRINKLES~!!

1. This is what I do when I'm bored...
2. More bored...

3. SUPER bored & crazy... (trying to be a retarded bunny; successful!)

Team Temasek; CHAMPION!

Myself & Darling. (Congratulation, darl.)

At the clinic. The doctor was late! goodness..

That's me again..
I don't like my dining area's mirror cos it cuts me into half!
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boring friday

2008-08-02T02:22:00.002+08:00

It's a boring Friday again.
Morning class.
As usual, I'M LATE! (for sure.)

After tutorial went opposite for Dry Mee Hoon Kuey,
then Mango Ice Blend, Upsize plus Passion Fruit Jelly. SHIOK!
Walked over to school and continued with projects.
After consultation, went home.
BORING.
Watched tv, eat junk food and play Viwawa.
SIAN.

Wanted to do projects, but don't have the inspiration to come out with recommendations.
So i decided to play games. hooked by it.
and yes, that's why i can blog now.

Tmr will be home the whole day.
Should have planned for facial.
Bad planning. :(
Oh wells, do projects lor.

neglected?

2008-07-31T21:47:00.011+08:00

Busy with projects and class tests.

The final one, HR PBL 2.

Guys, let's get it done once and for all.

Because of this, we don't have time for each other.

Our time are all spent for projects.

Yes, we get to meet each other.

But it's for studies.

No personal time with you, boy.

Mon- POLITE.

Tues- Follow him to clinic and back home.

Wed- Paya Lebar Competition.

Today- Minyi training.

Fri- Playing ball

Sat- Dinner

Sun- Exhibition match

Mon- School till 4pm then go home.

Tues- FINALLY GET TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU!!

It's like one whole week..

And I really do miss you a lot.
a lot.... a lot.... a lot....

Those were the days; we're so close.

We made a wish from this fountain in year 2004, that our love will be everlasting.

P.S If you miss me...

All is well. Finally.

2008-07-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

At RP watching SP vs NYP with my pretty Roxanne. (:

She always look very sweet. loveyou((:

After all the storm and rage, everything is calm and peaceful.
I hope all this won't happen again.
I don't wish to be in this situation anymore.
I don't have any bad intentions against any of you.
In fact, i really treasure you girls. (:
It's a waste that our friendship was soured because of that.

I still love you girls. I believe, we all want this friendship.
We'll enjoy genting trip together alright. *cheers*

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End of POLITE.

2008-07-29T00:15:00.004+08:00

Today marks the end of POLITE for Jie,
cos next year he'll be graduating alr.
And, this also means lesser time with roxanne and jaymee.

Things are becoming more unbelievable.
All of us are shocked.

Hope everything goes smooth from now on.
Jie, taught me a good lesson.
Thanks dear.

Today's matches were exciting!
SP vs NYP; both are good and they're fighting for 2nd place.
TP vs RP; Junior Richard's 3points were superb!
NP vs ITE; close fight, and with me wanting NP to win~
Aftermath, prize presentation. TP'S THE CHAMP!!

Had a great chat with rox about her windsurfing camp.
Sounds fun.
But I think i sucked at it. I believe I can't even make it move. haha.
Seeing her hitting the gym, it gives me slight motivation to go too.
But with my laziness. it's difficult.
Pretty Rox, do upload our photos den i can get from your blog! :)

Didn't talk much with Jaymee,
cos we were both engrossed watching the match.
Haha. The match was somehow funny too.
It's gonna be long till the next time we meet.

Gwen's always missing,
it's only till the match end then i'll see her.
She's cute. I like her vintage dressing.
Cutie, do send me the photo that you helped mj & i take. Thanks! :)

After the prize presentation,
Jie and I went to eat Mac!!
oh yes, it's so satisfying..
hmm.. *slurps* + *burps*

-Home Sweet Home-

stuck in lift!

2008-07-27T03:20:00.002+08:00

25th July; Night
A funny yet scary experience. haha
Yesterday night went to Cell Group at AMK.
Dad bought them Durians.
So we ate happily and chit-chat happily.
I got to know one more friend from church, he's Jerry. Nice to meet you:)
After that it's time to go off.
We all went to take the only lift in that entire block.
Actually we didnt wanna squeeze Uncle Sam and Jerry in.
But they all keep asking them in.
So they came in. (8adults, 1kid and a gunnysack of DURIAN SHELLS)
It went downn... and downn.. and downnn BELOW FIRST LEVEL!!
and the door did not open!!
I quickly press the emerg. bell. Little rebecca was shouting "HELP!"
Lol.
It was so funny!
We got rescued after 20mins.
So many people outside looking at us.
There is this guy who keeps laughing or smiling. (i don't know which)
MY SPECIAL EXPERIENCE..

26th July
Met darling.
Feeling was a little wierd and awkward. (don't know why also)
Took quite some time to feel comfy.
The feeling is like 'we're drifted' kind? something along that line, i guess.
Gave him a BIG HUG and apologized for yesterday's tiff.
yes, it's my fault. i treasure you alot. i know u treasure me ALOT too:)
Went to queensway with the objective of using his vouchers.
But we ended up with FOOD HUNTING! :))
oh yes yes yes!! i simply love food hunting.
I don't know why, but i just love to eat.
though knowing i will regret and feel guilty after that. lol.
What a stupid girl.
Ate Laksa & tutu kueh.
Went to Anchorpoint; walked awhile.
Headed to Ikea for the Hotdog bun (with LOTSA mustard&chilli sauce)
Bus-ed down to TPY.
Printed the photos of the Award Ceremony of bb for his mummy.
Walked to a hawker centre for DRY U-MIAN, ORR-LUA, ICE-KACHANG & GREEN BEAN SOUP!! :))))
SUPER YUMMY!
Collected photos and we headed HOME:)

I LOVE FOOD HUNTING.
most importantly, i love YOU!

i'll cherish our relationship. thanks for not giving up on me. i know i'm VERY sensitive, suspicious and unreasonable. sorry.

I LOVE ROXANNE ALOT ALOT !! haha.
i'm so glad you're not a judgemental person :))))
Cos i used to have many friends who tease me. and i don't like them so much. >.<
Hope you don't mind having a fat and pimply friend.
Take care, my pretty friend.

moody.

2008-07-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

What's wrong?
Nothing seems to go RIGHT.
I'm angry with myself. >.<

many many downs.
Where are the ups?

Nothing seems to go MY WAY too.
Wanted to eat Tau Suan ytd, but no more.
Was craving for it for so long alr.
Wasn't angry or anything.
Just felt that, why do you like to see me in sucha state.
You've succeded. :)

Everything piled up.
More and more each hour and each day.
I told no one.
I don't feel like saying out either.
I feel there isn't any point in saying it.
So what for, it'll only bring disharmony.
So, ssshhhh.....

As usual, at night is the time when i pour out everything,
and started blaming myself for these and that.
I've tried my best not to be like that.
But, I just couldn't.
I don't know why.
Probably, I can, when I don't care everything.

Today went to school with swollen eyes.
Met a crazy person on the bus.
I was very scared.
He made me so alert that I wasn't tired on bus.
Reached school; late.
He didn't notice.
So, don't wanna say much oso.
Life still goes on.

AS USUAL again, the comments and sentences from the mouth,
are out to create downs for me.
I didn't have any reaction and response,
but i heard it LOUD & CLEAR.
Pretended to be unaware of it.
But my heart and mind was fast in self-reacting.
Here it goes, my mood went low.

Do you see a security guard instigating others to rob the house he is guarding?
He is suppose to protect and make the owners feel secured.
Instead, he led insecurity to them.
Contradicting security?
What is security?
You make me confused.

Again, why do people like to say about religion?
I already keep my mouth SHUT about it.
But......
sigh. let's not say.
I'm stressed and pressured from both side.
I guess, you'll never understand me.
You'll never be contented with me.
Oh, Xiao Zhu said "One will always feel that the other person's girlfriend is better"
IT'S SO TRUE! I was like, nodding my head in agreement.
I'm not that good afterall. SERIOUSLY!

So many things happened. I will bear with it. I hope everything will be over soon.
I made wishes and I hope they will come true.

God brought me up.

2008-07-24T00:26:00.003+08:00

Cranky.

Don't know why.
Just very moody.
Didn't feel like talking.
Kept quiet and did my classwork.

Do not insult my religion.
I'm proud to be a Christian.

I'll not turn my back on God.

My anger was raging!!
Breathe in, breathe out..
cool down.

God brought me up to who I am today,
an upright person.

Silence

2008-07-22T20:54:00.005+08:00

He told me a story.

he's sad and showed empathy.

i'm sad upon hearing it too.

But,

I've mixed feeling about it.

Cos,

put myself in that shoe.

Things will turn out different.

Reaction and response will also be different.

Why is it so?

sigh.

I keep it to myself.

Things had just turned sweet,

i don't want to rain again.

i laughed extremely hard till my face want to cramp.

HAHA.

Laughter is the best medicine.

Short-term only, i guess.

I couldn't stop thinking of it.

sighs

Mustafa Alone..

2008-07-19T18:32:00.004+08:00

Speechless.. (It's all written on my heart)

Mine & Joel

Retail Therapy = Satisfaction

Lonely doesn't mean unhappiness. Find joy in life.

Conquered Little India & Mustafa with 'em..

Morning- Sleep Therapy
Afternoon- Beauty & Retail Therapy
Night- Food Therapy (BBQ)

Listening to: The Greatest Love of All.

Teardrops keep falling...

2008-07-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

It's been long since a heart-to-heart talk.

It's good cos i got assurance. But i noe, it's short-term assurance only.

I'll just have to believe in myself and built up my self-confidence, or else i won't go far in future.

I think i'm too mindful of his comments, so i don't dare and don't have the courage to take any bold decision or steps.

I admit it's my fault. I rightfully and willingly admit it. But I was a little hurt, to realize i was that bad.

I'm so confused. Mixed feeling. Don't know where my mind is. I'm so stress. What should I do?

Pls wash my brain and let my thinking be simple and nice. Make me an open girl. I dun wish to continue with this stupid brain's thinking. It takes a toll on me. I'm dying from it.

Give me a break, i'll will change. can i be oblivious of everything around me? can i be like ah wang, dunno anything and lead a simple life.

You're the reason for the teardrops on my guitar...

Palawan Beach

2008-07-13T13:59:00.002+08:00

I LOVE SENTOSA ~

2ND WEEK THERE!
This time at Palawan Beach.

Took lotsa pictures. :)

I MISS YOU, BABY...

Next week is POLITE Cup, must JIA YOU!

I'll cheer u on`

Wonderful time

2008-07-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

Nothing beats having a wonderful time with HIM .

i always miss you badly.

Thanks for your time, despite being so busy with basketball and projects.

i love you darling.

FISH & CO.

2008-06-30T00:21:00.007+08:00

WITH DARLING !

i miss him so much.

finally he can spend time with me. :)

was so happy.

SATURDAY

Ran into Jaymee & Jian Long at Vivo.

Chit chat for awhile and we went our own ways.

Walked around for awhile and we headed to Boon Tong Kee for dinner with family.

Went to do manicure, and we ran into Jian Long again.

Like, TWICE already. haa.

We ate Carl's Jr before leaving Vivo.

Didnt eat much at Boon Tong Kee.

Dad brought us to Geylang to eat Durians.

SUPER FULL!!

I think i would have easily gain 2kg in just 2days.

SUNDAY

Today, worked from 11am-9.30pm.

Actually i feel like watching cagers match. :(

After work, had a farewell dinner at Fish & Co. with my colleagues,

cos i'll be leaving and Marvin is transferring to PS outlet.

Almost all the Parkway staff are splitting. so sad.

They bought 2 MNG shorts for me!

THANKS SO MUCH!

I LOVE WORKING WITH YOU GUYS.

Darling's 20th Birthday

2008-06-26T20:43:00.002+08:00

Darling turned 20 today!

Eve of HIS birthday:
Cut cake with darling and his family. Swensen's Ice-Cream Cake; Cookies 'n' Cream! My FAVE!

I let out my floodgates. I'm feeling so much better after that. But was having headache after that. So painful la. Watched TV till 10pm then Darling sent me home.

Talk in MSN with him while doing project. Baked Blueberry muffin for him, BUT I FAILED! haa. Another time, boy. so sorry. Make a card for him with all my sincere words.

HIS BIRTHDAY!
Skipped morning lecture, went for MA Lecture. Darling have training at night, so we can only celebrate his birthday tmr. We stayed back after school to rush our HR project. Finally, it's done with everything just as what teacher wanted. hee. Had a great sense of satisfaction. Spent a little time with darling and I headed home.

I admit I was a little jealous. or maybe alot? I dunno. I'm confused about my feelings. But.... forget it, i'll just treat as I know nothing about it and that nothing happened. All I did was to be engrossed in completing our project.

I missed him when I was walking alone to the bus stop. :(

Gonna have lunch with Year 1 classmates tmr. YIPPEE! :)
After that, go out with Darling. hehehehehe..

I hope I can go to Genting. I pray hard that Daddy allows. Trust me Dad! I really wanna go, I never go overseas with my friends before, and this is my chance to go before SIP starts.. plssss..

Sunshine after the rain

2008-06-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

Sunshine after the rain...

I feel so much better after I decide to cry out all my problems. Listen to my MP4 for the whole night. Didn't had a good sleep. Kept waking up at night. I know my heart isn't feeling good. Does one heart gets full like an email inbox? full with problems?

It's pressing me hard. I felt so much better after I cried. I was able to fall asleep, better than me being awake the whole night.

THANKS JAYMEE.
I KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME:)
GIVE YOU A BIG HUG!!!

Now, I know I'll never be alone. I felt so much lighter(not in terms of weight!) and less burdened. I've been eating a lot lately, probably due to stress.

Gotta go on a diet soon. sigh.

An emo girl will never survive, unless she stands up with power. WAHAHA...
I know who is good and who is not..

Nobody have seen the real me. I've changed all these years, into someone who is not ME anymore. I'll change back!

MAGDALENA WILL BE BACK. :)

NEGLECTED, LEFT OUT & IGNORED.

2008-06-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Absence makes the heart grows fonder...

True or false? Well, it depends on how you feel. Time is precious, I don't want to waste my time thinking and brooding over useless things which I know will only give me more GREY HAIR.

But, I know myself, I'm a soft-hearted person, who never fails to melt whenever being pampered a little. Whenever being sweet-talked, I easily forget that this so and so person treat me like I was nobody. At that point of time, I will tell myself many things that I will do, like I will ignore that person or I will leave after awhile. All these are forgotten when pamperings and sweet talkings are received. I just smiled and forget everything.

Probably, I've learnt to take it easy.

I'm a girl from a complicated background. Hence, I always wanted my life to be better than before. I don't want to show people I'm facing problems. I want to look fine in front of people. I don't and hardly share my problems. Or probably, I've no one to share my problems with. So, I'm used to bottling up my feelings, this happened since I was in primary school. This was actually what I don't like, but it has become my personality and character. Cos I don't like people to force me to share my problems. Unless, I'm willing to and comfortable with it.

Enough of it. I'll know how to handle it. God will give me strength to carry on. I need my own space to think about lots of things. With additional problems of PROJECTS! These are killing me. Can it just leave me alone?

Cravings for many things, temptations to buy things. But pocket doesn't permits. :(
I'll have to control my spending. I just spent nearly $1.5k during May & June. All my hard-earned money:(

Yea, I agree this is a dull entry with no laughters and colours and pictures. Bear with me. After I get over this period and these things. You'll see the cheerful MAGDALENA comes back, blogging about her sweet and beautiful days, with pictures, I promise.

Eyes turned bubble.
I'll keep smiling..
Those were the days.
Probably I haven't been improving myself since then.
It's time I do something.
Words of discouragement and demoralization will be out of my ears.
Creativity and improvements will have NO restrictions! :)
I will have to take a daring and very bold step. HAHA.

Darling and Jansen's Birthday

2008-06-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION@ PASIR RIS PARK

20June
Darling Jie and Jansen celebrated their birthday-BBQ! The day before I tagged along with them to buy the stuff and helped them with the marination and preparation. I think I was a bit of a hindrance to them. :(

Hungry hungry! Bought Mr. Bean drink and pancakes, Old Chang Kee Sardine'CurryPuff. Rushed to meet my family then we ate dinner. After that, so full! :)

Didnt had much time with darling this few days. Cos he was quite busy, and he's mind is always not with me. oh well, it's okay.

21June
The actual BBQ day! Woke up early to pass Jaymee her Coach bag. lol. she's so happy upon receiving it. haa. Went back home to slack. Teach joel his chinese homework. Went to CitySatay to get the stuff for the guys-my dad's present to them! lol. My auntie offered to cook curry for them. sis and I helped out, and I finally know how to cook curry already!! Yes Yes Yes!! :)

Went to buy ice then we headed off to meet them. Some of them helped to carry the stuff. so heavy. Had fun over there-esp. my lil brother and sister, they played with the gorgors till 1am then go back. They're happy but I think the guys had a hard time with them. I BBQ-ed all the way, offered to do it cos if not I won't have anything to do. At least find something for me to do then won't bored and out of place. haahaa. Nothing much to talk. Lucky some of his friends talked to me and entertained me. Jaymee came!! Told dad that I might me going Genting with HER! Then, he doesn't seem to have any objection. That's good! I purposely show Jaymee to him, so he will let me go. haa.

My family went home after some time. Actually don't allow me to stay over cos I'll be the only girl. But, don't know why, in the end, dad allowed me! :) Leon, Zhuaper, Elmer and Kun You entertained me while we were BBQ-ing. Then Kelvin, Fion, Baowen, Brandon, Kun You and Nicholas took turns to play cards with me. Had a fun time playing.

As usual, they'll drink. But they can now hold their liquor so much better than before. haa. All I saw was RED FACES, some even RED BODY! lol. But they're not drunk yet.

Rained.... We moved to shelter..... Rain stopped..... We moved back to BBQ pit......

Final and Heaviest rain coming... Zhuaper say "This time Philip say that the rain surely come..(Before this, everyone was thinking who this person was, until we know his trick-nonsense!)".
Strong winds sending our things flying all over. Darling told us to "EVACUATE! HURRY!"..

Quickly pack and headed to Downtown East.. By that time, it was already 5plus. Sat there till the rain stopped then we headed home. I waited for Leon and Darling to bathe. Very sleepy. Falling asleep while waiting. lol. Darling caught me closing my eyes. haa! Went to take a cab home.

The weather outside is cold.. Bathed the moment I reached home. Msg awhile with Darling and I went to rest.

Darling's 3on3 cancelled. He went to do his things.. 11.30am woke up to go for the lunch gathering with my church members. I'M SO TIRED!!! Ate Swensen's, with a total bill of 475bucks for 20ppl(Vouchers we had was only 200bucks; adults had to fork out extra cash). Very full.. Ate my favourite ice-cream and creamy pasta-all the sinful food. But, sinful food are my faves. haa.

Went to shop at MNG again. Spent 160bucks there. This time round, I bought tops. Previous visit there, I bought 3Bottoms and 1Top. Spendthrift girl! I love shopping. I love luxurious goods. Gonna put my hands on one of the Agnes b. coinpurse, to take advantage of the mid-year sale. I can sell it if Coach comes out with new and nicer designs. :)

Sleepy during church service. Chit chat with the guys and cheryl. :) This few weeks Kiddy Clara had been quite close to me. She's cute and pretty. haa.

Headed home. Placed my bets on soccer. Hope to win some money so i can buy Agnes b. coinpurse. haa. My hopes are not that high though, cos I didnt analyze it at all. haa.

Alright, off to start my 1st draft for project. Then, I'll be going to bed. I NEED SLEEP!!

COACH WRISTLET

2008-06-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

GOLD COACH WRISTLET WITH FLOWER EMBROIDERY...

Condition: 100% Brand New with Tag on.

Size: 6 1/2 (L) x 4 (H). Can fit a Coach Mini Skinny or HP.

Remarks: Limited stocks of this colour in SGP. In fact, no more selling of this colour at ALL Coach in SGP. The price is definitely higher than others cos of the flower embroidery.

Price: Offer reasonably. Bear in mind its "Remarks".

Interested buyers may email i-hearts-lollipop@hotmail.com for enquiry.

arrived from thailand

2008-06-20T01:37:00.006+08:00

PICKUPS OF DARLING & ME...

HE'S BACK! MISS HIM ALOT! WENT TO BUGIS THEN TO TOWN.

Darling's Gucci wallet & Burberry Coinpurse.

Darling's Coinpurse..

Overall Shorts. Darling bought for me:) Thanks!

Darling's Birthday gift from ME! :) Keke.

Yesterday's Pickups: Mango Top, Ness Skirt and Ness Belt.

CANDYBITES~
SUGAR MOMENTS!
iHEARTSyou<3

Video clip

2008-06-15T01:00:00.004+08:00

Sorry about the background noise. Reduce the volume, cos it's abit loud.

Video down for DARLING. Specially for you.

Almost teared when i watched the vidoe clip. Kinda touching and very happy for him.

Tears of Joy:)

Darling depart for Bangkok

2008-06-14T23:43:00.008+08:00

Misses, Loves & Care...

7am-10.30am: Meet up with Darling. His mum sent us to Tanah Merah. Took train to T2. Ate Mac for breakfast. Jaymee, Jianlong, Zalsie and Richard came over. Saw Zhuaper, in his full uniform. Hee. Meet up with the rest at 8.30am. Slacked till 10am. Final HUG and we sent them in. Wasn't very emotional. Not like what Sam said, that I'll cry and can't bear to let him go. Haa.

GOODBYE, MY LOVER. I'LL SEE YOU ON THURSDAY AGAIN.

10.30am-4pm: Headed to town with JAYMEE! As usual, we SHOPPED. Went to Centrepoint, bought La Senza Bras. keke. Went over to Taka. Checked out Ralph Lauren, Polo Jeans, Tommy Hilfiger, Kate Spade, Coach, Loewe, Burberry, LV, Agnes b. and Gucci. Next we dined at Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao. Ordered 5dishes in total. Nice & Filling! :) THANKS JAYMEE, FOR THE BIRTHDAY TREAT! =D enjoyed my day with her. Oh, we went to Mango and bought a top each. lol. And Jaymee is in love with a Burberry Wallet and Agnes b. purse. It's nice though. Headed home, cos we are already running out of energy. TIRED!

*JL and MJ called us when we were eating. So funny cos we have to pass the phone around. We also discussed about how good if we are able to tag along, but both of us will go shopping while they train. keke.

5pm-6.30pm: Beauty Nap:)

7pm-9pm: Grandparent's House! Bought food at Blk409 hawker centre and brought it up. Ate dinner with them including brother, mother and big uncle. Fixed the cordless phone that I bought for my grandparents. They're very happy. Was happy that they are happy. Can see the smile and excitement in their face. LOVE YOU ALL~ Enjoyed myself with them, especially with the presence of my chatty brother. haha.

9pm: Backed at Home! Blogging. Chatting with Jaymee. Darling called again! <3>

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10june: Went to school to find him. Ate dinner at CP. Raining heavily. Ran across the rain. DRENCHED TOTALLY. Cold on bus. Looped our 62 bus journey to avoid having to run across the road under the rain. Reached home at 11pm, whereas Dear at 12midnite.

11june: 4Yrs 3mths. Didnt feel very good on that very day. Though the day started well.

12june: Facial in the morning and met him in the evening. Here comes his attitude. I think he have PMS for the past few days. siao siao one.

13june: Was feeling very down, upset, moody and sian. Awards Ceremony 2008. He got the Sportsperson Of The Year and Merit Award for Basketball. CONGRATULATION! Talked to Jaymee. Thanks alot for your consolation. Feeling so much better after that.

SNEAK PEEK!

SPORTSPERSON & HIS MUM

WITH HIS CARING MUMMY

HAPPY FOR HIM! CONGRATS DARLING! <3

14june: He flew off to BANGKOK.

awaiting for your arrival. love you to bits.

we are ONE in the bond of LOVE.

never will we be separated.

you're always in my heart,

so there's no need for me to miss you,

all i have to do is look for you in my heart.

BUT, i do need you physically.

Take care, my dear boy. ilu<3

good or bad?

2008-06-13T00:38:00.003+08:00

Contradictions..

As usual, meet up for awhile only. Awkward scene. Lost. Out of place. Unwelcome? Whatever word you wanna use. I just don't feel good.

2nd disappointment. Final one. No more of this. Enough.

It's okay. I shall not say much. I must only say things that build others up and not say things that make them unhappy, demoralize or that will pull them down. So, SSHHH...

Suppressing all my feelings, thoughts and emotions. Is this good or bad? To say or not to say?

FALLING SOON. But i gotta stay strong, because he said "You're my pillar, you cannot fall."
OKAY, I will pull it through. Nothing will make me fall apart. I gotta find my strong side of me. I must learn to understand him, that there are other more things than just ME.

Holidays are getting boring. We are one in the bond of love.

Value-less. Only valuable when needed.

4yrs3mths

2008-06-11T22:52:00.004+08:00

Precious Moments. . . Our 4yrs 3mths. . .

Darling is busy; tight schedule. Means I've to squeeze into his schedule):

Not a good feeling at all.

Met up for about 3hrs and we parted. Cos he has lots of other things to do. Time flies whenever I'm with him. Was kinda sad when I got to know that he have to go off later. I admit I teared a little. A few days back, I knew this would happen. I just prayed that we would not quarrel or something like that. Fortunately, it's quite minor.

Happiness doesn't last long.

Ate Wanton Mee and it's super nice! Yummy yummy. But was already kinda upset, so didn't really enjoyed it.

Oh well, at the very least, be glad that he spent time with me. Alright, enough of all these grumblings and moddy stuff..

Backed from Church Camp on Monday, had fun playing with them. On the 2nd night, the youths played Hide and Seek around the hotel. On the 3rd night, played Hide and Seek with the youths, kids and some adults, after the kids and adults went to sleep. The youths went for Part 2, BLIND MICE in the DARK! I've begin to love soccer. haha. Cheryl, Matthea and I were the only girls who played soccer with the boys(kids) and guys. We weren't any burden to them. haha. All of us suffered injuries like cuts, blisters and bruises, cos we played barefooted. IT'S FUN! hehe. But, i miss him alot while i was at the camp.

The day before i went to the church camp, i went out with Rox and Jaymee. Went to Sketches for dinner, we created our own pizza! The pizza was yummy! Super full. hee. After that MOS with the girls. Roxanne loves magic. haa. Superb in dancing. ROXANNE'S A DANCING QUEEN! lol. Cabbed home with the girls. had so much fun with them! :)

Everything muct be done with LOVE being the main motivator.

Good sermon

2008-05-25T23:34:00.004+08:00

Church.

Went to church and received a very good message from Pastor James Kerr. Really speaking directly to me. TO ME?!

Main Points:

Do not be discontented, for you won't be able to thank God for his blessings.
Do not greed, for no one will and can ever be contented.
Do not judge, for you will also be judged.
Do not grumble,
Be patient in the face of suffering, for blessed are those who have persevered.
Do not be self-centred, the world is not about YOU.
Everything should be done accordng to God's will, leave it to God's will.
Do not boast and brag, all such boasting is evil.
Anyone who knows what's good ought to do and if doesn't do it, sins.
Do not swear, let your "Yes" be yes and "No" be no, or else you'll be condemned.

Every main point is speaking right to me.. Feel like God is trying to talk to me, scolding me of all my wrongdoings and reminding me not to fall into temptations and sins.

"People who want to get rich fall into temptation and trap into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs." - Extracted from Bible.

What a meaningful sermon and message I've attended. :) I'll keep reminding myself of all these. To put all my plans into God's hands. Cos not everything is about ME, what's the use of planning everything when God's plan for you isn't that.

For example:
You planned an outing with your friends at the beach to sun tan, picnic at there and play games and all. This is YOUR plan.

BUT, what if it suddenly rains? Then, this is GOD'S will. SO, we must leave our plans to God and pray that He'll accept it. If not, no use planning also, we must put God's plan and will before ours.

24may

2008-05-25T00:42:00.005+08:00

OUTINGS!

FRIDAY

Morning went to check out Adidas at Expo. Went to Food Fair. Bought tasty Yam Paste, 1bowl of Chicken Rice, 1Cheese Chicken Wing and Water Chestnut drink. I love FOOD! lol. Went to school and we headed town after that.

WOOHOO.. Shopping again. Bought 2 tops~ nice nice nice..

Dinner-ed at Lucky Plaza. Ate Claypot Rice while dear ate U-Mian. hehe. After eating, he mixed all the chilli together. CRAZY. Headed home after that. Talked to dear about my "dreams", like if i have 1million dollars and all, and i'll jus buy almost all the designs of Prada, MiuMiu, Loewe, LV and Gucci. Then i'll be so contented. lol. YES, I'M DREAMING. :)

Headed home with a not-so-good feeling. "wa eh mia jin kor ar"= my life very bitter. People are so filthy rich that they can buy SEVERAL bags. I even saw a couple with 2Prada paperbags, 3big Gucci paperbags. one of it even contained many many small boxes. goodness, where this ppl get their money?

Saturday

Breakfast at changi village, ate the famous Nasi Lemak. Queued for 30mins can. But it was nice and worth it. hehe. Groupmates came after awhile. Headed to Pulau Ubin. So hot, sweaty ans sticky. Luckily we do not need to cycle the whole area, or else we'll die. lol.

After that went back to bathe and change. Headed to Town with family to celebrate Daddy's Birthday. Went to Mushroom Pot, the wasn't that bad. But it's not too worth it. Swissotel is better. hehe. Walked around for awhile and we went to Swensen to buy Oreo flavoured ice-cream cake. Cut cake and dear headed home. Dad and brother went out to celebrate with dad's colleague. And i'm sleepy now... Dreaming of all my bags and stuff.. zZzZzZzZz

i close my eyes or turn away,

i refuse to look..

just to save myself.

Donuts!

2008-05-22T22:35:00.010+08:00

School & Projects...

21 May

Went to CP for my CHEESY DONUTS again, to replace the Cheese Fries. :)

Heated it up in the microwave and sink our teeth in the Cheese-filled donuts with cheese topping! YUMMY. i love the nacho cheese in the donut. ooohh~ irresistable.

Went to Kovan for Dear's Paya Lebar Cup. Jaymee is there too, cos jianlong is playing before dear's match! As usual, we talked and we gossipped. hahahaha... She left shortly while i chat with zhuaper and at the same time watch dear's match. HE PLAYED SUPER WELL. :) LOVE YOU! High Shooting Percentage!

Anyway, the team played well as a whole. Slacked at the coffeeshop with Jansen, Darren and their friend. Chatting happily, then we headed home. Tired... Waited for bus damn long. So we reached home very late, esp dear. sorry..

22 May

Attended 2 lectures... During break, went to Biz PArk for Hot Milo & Hot Tea. But we ended up eating. Goodness~ After lecture we went opposite school to EAT AGAIN! I ate Fried TungHoon while dear ate Nasi Lemak. I DRANK ONE WHOLE CUP OF "LIANG CHA"! Dear's mum cook "Liang Cha" and i DRANK A CUP! EEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKK! i used to hate it, cos it's so bitter, but dear's mum cook de very nice. not bitter at all lor. haha. Finished my PTN already! :) -home sweet home-

i love my boyfriend.

20.05

2008-05-20T22:46:00.020+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY! :)

20-05-08; 12:00am:
Darling came to my house to give me a surprise. Was very shock! hee. Caught me off guard, really didnt expect that he'll come. haha. blew the candles and he rushed to catch the last bus. TOUCHED!! And it's my favourite, chocolate cake! :) Woohoo. Ate one slice together then he left. hee.

20-05-08; Tuesday:
Darling has Kelly Services, so we can only go out at 6pm, after his class. Went to do some project stuff, finally i finished everything according to what teacher said. hehe. Was so happy and had a sense of satisfaction. haha.

Met at Boon Keng and we headed to Taka. Walked around at Coach and Gucci then we went up to get our seats at CRYSTAL JADE LA MIAN XIAO LONG BAO!!! i love the xiao long bao there. Super shiok. The juice in it is the best. hehe. That's our reason for choosing there, the xiao long bao. hehe. Took many many photos.. some were so funny that we laughed.. Ate till very full.. like wanna throw out all the food. haha. when i hugged darling tight, he said "Wait the xiaon long bao come out ah.." Then i said "Like bomberman de bomb come out!" lol.

Totally enjoyed myself:) Love him to bits.

Thank you so much darling for the Coach Bag.
Thank you so much for the belt.
Thank you so much for the surprise!
Thank you so much for the dinner!

Takashimaya! :)

BEFORE.......

Choosing our FOOD! YUMMY!

HIM: SOYA SAUCE good!
HER: VINEGAR yeah!

FOOD ARRIVED -
SPICY&SOUR LA MAIN, SIGNATURE FRIED RICE & 3BASKET OF XIAO LONG BAO.

DURING......

GREEDY GREEDY; HUNGRY AH!

"KAI DONG" LO, DARLING! EAT, EAT, EAT . . .

AFTER.......

1)*burps*

2)Full till cannot ar..

3)To prove that i'm super happy!

LAST BASKET OF XIAO LONG BAO & DARLING FINISHING UP MY LA MIAN~ WAY TO GO BABY!

GOING HOME...

Went home to cut Swensen's ice-cream cake with my family members including darling! It was oreo flavoured. so yummy! Everybody ate a slice and it was all just nice, not a single left. Darling went home after that.

and that's,

MY BEAUTIFUL BIRTHDAY STORY . . .

iLOVEallTHOSEwhoCELEBRATEDandWISHEDme! THANK YOU GUYS! :)

Birthday eve...

2008-05-19T21:35:00.003+08:00

Birthday Eve...

Yes! Tmr is my birthday. So happy. I've grown another year older. Don't celebrate my birthday is not an issue anymore.

As long as i can be happy. As long as my dreams and wished will come true. I've got no time, no time cos i'm getting older and i've not done much for myself. I need to buck up in my studies so i can go to University. I wanna be a successful career woman.

So i can buy whatever i want without bothering anyone might say me. Or don't have to ask daddy to buy for me. I've seen many nice-nice things which is so tempting and irresistable. I don't mind working very hard to get it. But sometimes, heartpain to part with my money. haha. I have lots of things that i like. Designer goods has its attraction.

Wishlist:
-Red Loewe wallet
-Coach Patent Wristlet
-Striped Pink Ralph Lauren L/S Shirt
-Solid Pink Ralph Lauren L/S Shirt

I dunno what colour to get for the wristlet, actually tot of red, but the wallet i wanna get is also red. HOW HOW HOW? I'm so problematic hur. haha.

Went to Swissotel to celebrate my birthday, treat from dad. Nicholas, Joel, caralene, MinJie, anutie nemia and my dad went. Total 7people, so the bill was HUGE. Big family have big expenses. After that went to Funan cos my dad wanna get a software. Then he fetched mj and I to orchard. Window shopped only. Went to check out the prices from my wishlist as well as jaymee's Coach bags and my brother's Bottega wallet. The prices are killing me, whenever i check the prices for them. My heart will stop a second.

Ytd will be the last time i see rox and jaymee, cos it's the guy's last match for div1. Will miss them ALOT! Had a great time chatting with them. After their match, rox, laolao, elmer, vincent, chenye, maureen, minjie and I went to Bedok 85 for dinner. DELICIOUS! And we ate many dishes. Fried oyster, chicken wings, Ba Chor Mee and Hokkien Mee. Zhuaper joined us after awhile then we headed to East Coast for "desserts" without vincent, chenye and maureen. Suppose to be desserts but we ended up eating bread and all. They were yummy though. Enjoyed myself with the guys and ROXANNE!! :) Will definitely miss her alot alot alot..

Gone are my teen-age, welcome to the age of adults.
An age where problems have to be solved by yourself!

No more help from others. Anyway, i've been an independent girl who does everything myself. I guess the most precious thing is my hands. Cos i did many many things which made me and independent girl. I don't have any person to help solve my problems, nor do i have any people to listen to my shits. I do everything MYSELF.

can i be a twen-teen? :)

With Yishan

2008-05-15T21:34:00.005+08:00

Sudden fetish for bright colours . . .

Skipped Special Interest Tourism lecture, cos it was at 9am. Darling and I are just too lazy to go. However, we went for Managerial Accounting lecture at 11am. This one very important, must go. If not, sure very lost during tutorials. hee. After that, loitered outside lecture theatre chit-chatting with classmates.

Tomorrow is CCN DAY!! My class is selling Fried Nuggets, Fries and Hashbrown. So excited! I love doing business. haha. May considering open my own shop in future. wahaha..

Dear say he will surely steal steal eat the fries. but, i wanna help out. i wanna pack the fries for them and put the cheese or other sauces on top of it.. SO FUN!! :)

Gonna do manicure tmr, to support Ziying's class. hee. long time didnt see her already. miss her so much. hee. will ask her buy my class' fries as well. lol.

After all the chatting, the whole group walk out to the bus stop to take bus. Yi shan, dear and I headed to Tamp Mall. We took the same bus and talked talked on bus. Yi Shan is one funny girl i've met so far. Never fails to laugh! Kai Xing Guo!! :)

Dear and I dined at Seoul Garden for lunch. Yummy.. Took a lot of food and we can't finish it. So, dear find many ways to hide the food to prevent us from being charge for wastage. haha. And he kept giving the "very full, till wan vomit" face and sound. So funny! lol.

Seoul Garden...

SO FULL! I LOVE COOKING. (without having to clean up) wahahahahahaha~

Went for shopping, like again... Bought new water bottles. very cute! I've been eyeing that water bottle for very long already, cos it's very cute, can make the water cold, squeezable kind and small. Bought undergarments which when i showed Yi Shan, she like choked to see it. haha. Damn cute girl.

I liked one polka dot dress. But they only have Medium, no Small size. So sad lah.. Like it alot.. But it's quite expensive though. If i had bought it, I would have spend 100bucks! my goodness. I've been spending alot recently, and Dear had a hard time controlling me. haha.
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Some old photos which dear just sent me...

BOON TONG KEE ; 11 APRIL 08 ; 4 YRS 1 MTH <3

Anticipating for my birthday! Dear say he's bringing me out to eat my favourite XIAO LONG BAO!! SLURPS.

And he said something which i laughed, "Your birthday you don't bring your wallet k? I pay all. Then order without looking at the price, just order whatever you want.."

I was thinking... Don't bring my wallet out?
Cute.. hee.

I love you more and more... Was so touched to hear that. But dear, we still have to save money lah.. I'm already happy that you're willing to treat me so good and that you wanna make my birthday a really special one. MUACKS!

i love you for who you are.
thanks for loving me for who i am.
i love your character of not minding of appearance.

So, even if i grow old with wrinkles and white hair.
you'll still love me. :)

Don't you worry, cos i will still love you.

bored:(

2008-05-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

Mother's Day & 4yrs2mths...

It's a sunday... To me, sunday is a short day. Cos the moment i wake up i only have 3hours to spend before preparing myself to go to church. So i dun have much time to do anything. Nor do i have time to go out then go to church. Anyway, dear always sleep till afternoon then wake up. Hence, it's either computer or television for me. Occasionally, dad will bring us out for lunch before heading to church. Dad usually brings my dog to the recreation club to let him swim and socialize. the next time he goes there, i wanna follow. And i hope dear can come along so he can see the Great Daine, which is very tall, almost like a horse. haha.. His name is Ah Dai. haha.

Today i had a hard time doing my peer-teaching notes. i'm going crazy over projects. It's gettin' tougher and tougher. argh..

Lonely...

Went to Sakae Sushi after church.. I ate 3 coloured plates, 2handrolls, Chicken with cheese and salmons!! I love their chicken cheese! Those who love cheese will like it, cos the cheese is really ALOT! haha. some might get sicked eating it. But for me, I LOVE IT! hee.

Home... Finally i finished my project. lol.

Miss you dearly..

FOOD!!

2008-05-10T14:14:00.011+08:00

Food week...

This whole week, have been eating SINFUL food. goodness.. Looking back at the food that we eat, i guess i could have easily gain 2kg in just a week!

THURSDAY
Schooled as usual. After school, we went to Mensa 1 to eat the Fried Fish Ban Mian. So delicious, even bb oso like it alot.. he ate Fried Chicken Leg with rice.. After that, went to his house to watch TV.. His dad heat up the Youtiao and Hum Chi Peng for us, plus one Old Chang Kee Currypuff. Then his mum came back, cut about 3mangoes for us. Went home feeling so full and bloated.. All the food at the peak of my throat le lor. haa. Delicious but sinful. All the fried things can. I like Hum Chi Peng. nice, nice, nice..

Camwhoring start liao......

While going back, had fun chasing the 151 infront of the 87bus. lol. We kept finding chance for 87bus to overtake the 151 infront so we can board. haa.

FRIDAY
School early in the morning. Tourism tutorial isn't that boring afterall. I prefer tourism over HR. HR is getting boring. All we do is PBLs and PBLs. SIAN SIA~

Slacked with Jessica at Biz Park. Leslie bought Potato Wedges which he shared with Jess, Darling ate Maggie Goreng and I snacked on Fried Ikan Bilis. Bad for my skin lor. Tsk tsk~

Met up with my previous group members- Lynn, Mira, Leslie, Dear and Myself. Went to Mensa 2 for Western food. Lynn and I love the Dory with Spicy Tomato as sauce, so we ate that. Leslie ate Dory as well, but with Lemon Butter Sauce. Which darling claims is so much nicer than mine. Bleahs. He ate Chicken chop as usual, but this time round didn't add noodles. We are running out of time, so all of us ate quickly and left for class. Great fellowship:)

After class, went to Library and got entertained by Aisyah's free-photocopying technique. lol. Discuss awhile of Events Mgt project and we left for ice-cream just outside Library. So many people is eating, so darling and I joined in as well. I ate the Green Tea flavour, while he ate Honeycomb flavour. Darling one was superb. Special flavour which i never tried before. hee.

We drank lots of sweet drinks today, cos i forgot to bring my waterbottle. I was so thirsty the whole day. Plus, hot weather. Sweat like crazy.

Went to his house to get changed out of his very nice clothes and went to ECP to eat good food! Also to celebrate 4yrs 2mths in advance. We ordered Fried Oyster, Hokkien Mee, Fried Kway Teow, Satay and 2cups of Sugercane. Hmmmm.. YUMMY YUMMY! The food was good! But we took a long time getting there and getting out of there. The place is super inaccessible! We took about 3buses to Parkway from SengKang then we took a cab in to ECP which cost us 6.60bucks.

On our way there..... Bedok Interchange.

EATINGGGG!

After our dinner, we walked out of ECP. We literally WALK! Tiring and sweating all over. Finally crossed the overhead bridge and caught 135 back home. Then change to 62 to my nearest bus-stop.

Walking out of ECP....

On the bus HOME....

Wooh, I finally reached home. It's a long day for both of us. Especially him, cos he sent me home and have to go back himself. hee. THANKS DEAR FOR THE DINNER! :)

ENJOYED MYSELF, TOTALLY~

*P.S- We're into photo taking recently. Memories stored. *smiles*

Totally calories of intake for the week: UNCOUNTABLE.

Cheesy Donut!

2008-05-07T23:25:00.005+08:00

Cravings fulfilled...

Schooled early in the morning. Went for lunch then headed to do our project. After that headed to CP to get Cheesy Donuts! Oh man, irresistable! :) I LOVE IT. Dear oso LOVE IT! wahaha.. The cheesy donut has nacho cheese fillings and it's topped with cheddar cheese over the donut. Double-Cheese Donut! *SLURPS* one word for it, DELICIOUS! Each of us ate 2 Cheesy Donuts and 1 Chocolate donuts, which has chocolate fillings in it and topped with white chocolate. Also yummy la. I like donuts that has fillings inside. hee.

FAT LE, FAT LE! oh my goodness... Stop my cravings!

Tried a funny outfit, Kikstyo shirt with my "Atmos colour" shorts and Atmos shoes. LOL! Beginning to like the colour hur. Striking and cool:) Hope it doesn't look fat on me. haa.

Dear and I headed to Kovan to meet up with Elmer and Chenye. Went to SBC together. Sitting in Elmer's car is like sitting rollercoaster. lol. FUN! :)

Dinner-Supper at Golden Cafe with all of them including ROXANNE! :) Chatted with her all the way from SBC to the coffeeshop. Cheer up, my dear! You're a nice girl, and a really strong one. Hee. My admiration!

Headed home! Thanks to Elmer for the ride, like again. But sometimes paiseh oso, always have to trouble him. They went off to Jalan Kayu for Pratas. While i'm back at home blogging and uploading pics. haa. Watching Ah Bao later.

Little Brother's exam will be over tmr. He's gonna hog my computer with his mapling. goodness. Each time we talk, he'll tell me about his maple stuff. He's one cutie i love! Love him to bits, although he can really be very naughty at times which makes me spank him. Then he'll go: "I don't like jie jie.." and started crying. haha. My reply: "I oso don't like you.. go out of my room..". He'll run out with his bolster and started crying out loud. lol.

i love you to hold me tight.
thanks darling.

i love you for loving me.
fate has brought us together.
i'm sure it wants us to stay together always...
missing you`

School & Facial

2008-05-06T20:59:00.005+08:00

School & Facial...

Quite a boring day.. Had lunch with darling as usual. But the food wasn't that nice. I don't like tuesdays, cos he got no time for me and it's a long day for him due to training. which means i won't be able to talk to him till he's back home.

oh well, tmr will be ablt to spend more time together! :) Gonna do project together after class, then we'll go take his stuff then we'll head to SBC for his match vs rong da. Pray hard that he will play well. JIA YOU, MINYI! :) go, go, go!

Some old photos which i JUST got hold of... Thanks ar, dear.
all these were taken during the datings in our holidays lor, like 1month ago already! haa.

My colleague said the both of us look alike..
look-alike-couple?
lol.

i love my, shark-head boi.. muacks<3

5TH MAY

2008-05-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

Cheese Fries...

Didnt have enough sleep. ytd slept at 3am cos i was addicted to the game in my handphone. woke up at around 9am. TIRED! Even on bus i was playing the game, didnt rest at all. When i reached school to do project with darling, i kept yawning and complaint of tiredness. lol.

Baby got a new hairstyle! I LOVE IT! Very nice, cos i like it short. haa. But he said that it looks very nerd when he didnt style it. Then i said: "Look like Ah wang ar?". He said: "Yah!". HAA! I find it nice though. I teased him that it looks like shark. haa. So when he asked me to send him a file through hotmail. I typed a messase that says: "stupid shark head. lol."(in a joking and teasing manner). Then i kept laughing and slowly move further away from him, for fear he might tickle me. haa. Had a great time doing project with him. lol.

Had lunch at Biz Park and we went up for class. APEL lesson was fun. Our class decided to sell Fries, nuggets and hashbrown, with sauces like CHEESE, chilli, ketchup and mayo for CCN Day. I think it's gonna be so fun! :) hehehe... It'll also serve as a form of bonding with the class. Cos the class have not been talking to each other much. Looking forward to it.......

Craved for cheese fries again. Darling treat me! Settled down at Design school for the cheesy fries while he ate chicken chop. Dunno why, i've fallen in love with cheese. Almost everything i eat has got to do with cheese. lol. Yummy cheese! I'm a cheese lover. :)

-Marks&Spencer 4Cheese and Sour Cream Chips
-YellaFellas with Nacho Cheese
-Bread spread with Kraft Cheese
-Design School's Cheese Fries
-*Upcoming: Cheese Fries at Aljunied :)

Sent me home:) it's like once in a lifetime that he can send me home despite having to go for training at school. cos class ended early today, so he offered to send me home. hee. happy happy!

He's out with elmer and zhuaper for dinner-supper at Newton Circle. Good life ah, got good food to eat! Bleahs. Nvm, i got Ah Bao to watch, he don't have. lol.

He promised to buy me cheese fries on wednesday before his match! :) kekeke...

You're my pillar of strength,
Everything isn't easy,
But with you,
Everything is made easy.
Our love will get better in time.
i love you