♥ Weekend~

Friday, October 17, 2008 @ 10/17/2008 10:10:00 AM

TGIF = THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!

Today is gonna be a wonderful and eventful day. All my meals are planned, lunch @ Cafe Cartel and dinner @ The Manhatten Fish Market. I'm gladly anticipating for work to end and rush there to see all my friends as well as darling. hee.

The day before was bad for me, I just suddenly feel very emotional. I kept reflecting on how miserable my life is. Like, I don't have a family that loves me and don't have very close friends where I can really confide in them. Now, I realise how "poor" am I. Although I'm the eldest in the family, it seems that most of the effort are put into those younger than me or to the BOYS only. They get all the privileges and it's really very obvious. That's why sometimes I don't see the point in obeying them, or to even be at home. I will just listen and nod my head.

Now I realize how girls can be so unfairly treated. I swear I will not discriminate my daughters or sons in future. I will definitely want the best for them. I will not treat them like how i'm being treated. Yah, I admit there are ocassionaly pamperings from my dad. But it's not comparable to the rest. I just can't wait to go out and work and earn loads of money, so I can pamper myself with the things that I like and want.

I know I'm materialistic. But, this is my motivation to work hard so I can support myself and pamper myself.

It's nonsense to him. Although he said no, but it's quite obvious to me from the way he reply. So, after knowing it, I didn't wanna continue talking about all this with him. I decided to retreat and keep it to myself. Probably, that's all I can possibly do, since it's difficult for people to listen to all this. Was feeling very down that day, kept thinking of those unhappy stuff. But there is just no outlet for me. I pushed everything aside and went to sleep. Oh, but darling was sweet enough to say that "Although your family don't love you, I like you, I love you ah..". Thanks for your care.

A student asked a teacher, 'What is love?'
The teacher answered, 'In order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
The student went to the field, while going thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he thought to himself: maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… But maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he found out that he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, '… This is love. you keep on looking for a better one, but when you realize later on, you have already missed the person…

''What is marriage then?', asked the student.
The teacher replied, 'In order get an answer to question, go to the corn field, choose the biggest corn and return.
And again, the same rules apply: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
'The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he has already picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and returned to the teacher.
The teacher told him, 'This time you bring back a corn…. You look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get…. This is marriage.'

I think the story is very meaningful.