♥ low point in my life.

Thursday, October 02, 2008 @ 10/02/2008 11:36:00 PM

30th september - Work & Gathering
We had a gathering. This time round, Xiao Ran joined us. It wasn't all that good for me. Yes, I felt like crying. An yes, I felt like leaving at many point of time. I refused to see, I refused to hear. I just want to blank out and withdraw from everything. I just hate those moments. So helpless, so miserable, so xin ku and felt like bursting out in tears. All these, I bear it all by myself.. We ate at Changing Appetite, Marina Square. I ate Dory Escapade, my mood was damn bad that I can't even taste wad i'm eating and didn't enjoy my food at all. We chit chat, took photos, walked around, slack at Starbucks and home I go while they go drinking. I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't have the mood for all these. But after awhile of msg here and there, I guess everything starts to get a lil better when he made the effort to settle things..

Msged and cried at the same time.. I noe it's stupid.. But I have to let it off.. I love crying to myself.. I don't noe why.. Probab;y I don't wan ppl to see how ugly I look when I cry? lol.

Everything is fine now when we sit down n talked, we shared our thoughts and feelings. Hope it will be better.. It pains me to see him busy, tired and sick.. yet forking out time to spend with me. But in the end the time wasn't well-spent. Boos.

Have you ever experience all those that I experience the other day? I don't wanna say much. Store it into my heartdisk, hoping it will crash by itself someday.

2nd Oct - Work
Talked to yanqing today on msn, she said when she read my blog. It's 2 totally different Magdalena (the one she sees and the one who blogs). Split personality? lol. No lah, it's just that I don't wanna show out my sorrows and unhappiness. I like to be a strong person.. I don't like to look weak, that's why I always put up a strong front. hee. Also, I don't wanna spoil everyone's joy. hee. Thanks babe! I noe you care.





1st Oct- Pictures & Outing with Dear and Friends
Meet up with dear before meeting the rest. Adeline was there too. Had some conversations and chats with her. Previously, we didnt talk at all. hehe. Till yesterday, I realise that she got read my blog, thru Melvin's link. lol. Hey girl, do leave a tag and let me noe your blog link if you have one, yea? hee. See you soon during their next outing. It was fun shopping with the guys right. hee. Nice knowing you too. (=



Adecco - IP Branch.
Came back to work on saturday. Need to pack some stuff to move to Tampines Branch.


Eating dinner with joel.
He miss me loads, that's why we sat down and had dinner together and catch up with each other. hee. Like so matured right? hee.