♥ moody.
Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 7/25/2008 05:44:00 PM
What's wrong?
Nothing seems to go RIGHT.
I'm angry with myself. >.<
many many downs.
Where are the ups?
Nothing seems to go MY WAY too.
Wanted to eat Tau Suan ytd, but no more.
Was craving for it for so long alr.
Wasn't angry or anything.
Just felt that, why do you like to see me in sucha state.
You've succeded. :)
Everything piled up.
More and more each hour and each day.
I told no one.
I don't feel like saying out either.
I feel there isn't any point in saying it.
So what for, it'll only bring disharmony.
So, ssshhhh.....
As usual, at night is the time when i pour out everything,
and started blaming myself for these and that.
I've tried my best not to be like that.
But, I just couldn't.
I don't know why.
Probably, I can, when I don't care everything.
Today went to school with swollen eyes.
Met a crazy person on the bus.
I was very scared.
He made me so alert that I wasn't tired on bus.
Reached school; late.
He didn't notice.
So, don't wanna say much oso.
Life still goes on.
AS USUAL again, the comments and sentences from the mouth,
are out to create downs for me.
I didn't have any reaction and response,
but i heard it LOUD & CLEAR.
Pretended to be unaware of it.
But my heart and mind was fast in self-reacting.
Here it goes, my mood went low.
Do you see a security guard instigating others to rob the house he is guarding?
He is suppose to protect and make the owners feel secured.
Instead, he led insecurity to them.
Contradicting security?
What is security?
You make me confused.
Again, why do people like to say about religion?
I already keep my mouth SHUT about it.
But......
sigh. let's not say.I'm stressed and pressured from both side.
I guess, you'll never understand me.
You'll never be contented with me.
Oh, Xiao Zhu said "One will always feel that the other person's girlfriend is better"
IT'S SO TRUE! I was like, nodding my head in agreement.
I'm not that good afterall. SERIOUSLY!
So many things happened. I will bear with it. I hope everything will be over soon.
I made wishes and I hope they will come true.