♥ NEGLECTED, LEFT OUT & IGNORED.
Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 6/23/2008 11:20:00 PM
Absence makes the heart grows fonder...
True or false? Well, it depends on how you feel. Time is precious, I don't want to waste my time thinking and brooding over useless things which I know will only give me more GREY HAIR.
But, I know myself, I'm a soft-hearted person, who never fails to melt whenever being pampered a little. Whenever being sweet-talked, I easily forget that this so and so person treat me like I was nobody. At that point of time, I will tell myself many things that I will do, like I will ignore that person or I will leave after awhile. All these are forgotten when pamperings and sweet talkings are received. I just smiled and forget everything.
Probably, I've learnt to take it easy.
I'm a girl from a complicated background. Hence, I always wanted my life to be better than before. I don't want to show people I'm facing problems. I want to look fine in front of people. I don't and hardly share my problems. Or probably, I've no one to share my problems with. So, I'm used to bottling up my feelings, this happened since I was in primary school. This was actually what I don't like, but it has become my personality and character. Cos I don't like people to force me to share my problems. Unless, I'm willing to and comfortable with it.
Enough of it. I'll know how to handle it. God will give me strength to carry on. I need my own space to think about lots of things. With additional problems of PROJECTS! These are killing me. Can it just leave me alone?
Cravings for many things, temptations to buy things. But pocket doesn't permits. :(
I'll have to control my spending. I just spent nearly $1.5k during May & June. All my hard-earned money:(
Yea, I agree this is a dull entry with no laughters and colours and pictures. Bear with me. After I get over this period and these things. You'll see the cheerful MAGDALENA comes back, blogging about her sweet and beautiful days, with pictures, I promise.
Eyes turned bubble.I'll keep smiling..Those were the days.Probably I haven't been improving myself since then.It's time I do something.Words of discouragement and demoralization will be out of my ears.Creativity and improvements will have NO restrictions! :)I will have to take a daring and very bold step. HAHA.
