valley of dreams.

♥ FISH & CO.

Monday, June 30, 2008 @ 6/30/2008 12:21:00 AM

WITH DARLING !

i miss him so much.

finally he can spend time with me. :)

was so happy.

SATURDAY

Ran into Jaymee & Jian Long at Vivo.

Chit chat for awhile and we went our own ways.

Walked around for awhile and we headed to Boon Tong Kee for dinner with family.

Went to do manicure, and we ran into Jian Long again.

Like, TWICE already. haa.

We ate Carl's Jr before leaving Vivo.

Didnt eat much at Boon Tong Kee.

Dad brought us to Geylang to eat Durians.

SUPER FULL!!

I think i would have easily gain 2kg in just 2days.

SUNDAY

Today, worked from 11am-9.30pm.

Actually i feel like watching cagers match. :(

After work, had a farewell dinner at Fish & Co. with my colleagues,

cos i'll be leaving and Marvin is transferring to PS outlet.

Almost all the Parkway staff are splitting. so sad.

They bought 2 MNG shorts for me!

THANKS SO MUCH!

I LOVE WORKING WITH YOU GUYS.

♥ Darling's 20th Birthday

Thursday, June 26, 2008 @ 6/26/2008 08:43:00 PM

Darling turned 20 today!

Eve of HIS birthday:
Cut cake with darling and his family. Swensen's Ice-Cream Cake; Cookies 'n' Cream! My FAVE!

I let out my floodgates. I'm feeling so much better after that. But was having headache after that. So painful la. Watched TV till 10pm then Darling sent me home.

Talk in MSN with him while doing project. Baked Blueberry muffin for him, BUT I FAILED! haa. Another time, boy. so sorry. Make a card for him with all my sincere words.

HIS BIRTHDAY!
Skipped morning lecture, went for MA Lecture. Darling have training at night, so we can only celebrate his birthday tmr. We stayed back after school to rush our HR project. Finally, it's done with everything just as what teacher wanted. hee. Had a great sense of satisfaction. Spent a little time with darling and I headed home.

I admit I was a little jealous. or maybe alot? I dunno. I'm confused about my feelings. But.... forget it, i'll just treat as I know nothing about it and that nothing happened. All I did was to be engrossed in completing our project.

I missed him when I was walking alone to the bus stop. :(

Gonna have lunch with Year 1 classmates tmr. YIPPEE! :)
After that, go out with Darling. hehehehehe..

I hope I can go to Genting. I pray hard that Daddy allows. Trust me Dad! I really wanna go, I never go overseas with my friends before, and this is my chance to go before SIP starts.. plssss..

♥ Sunshine after the rain

Tuesday, June 24, 2008 @ 6/24/2008 07:30:00 PM

Sunshine after the rain...

I feel so much better after I decide to cry out all my problems. Listen to my MP4 for the whole night. Didn't had a good sleep. Kept waking up at night. I know my heart isn't feeling good. Does one heart gets full like an email inbox? full with problems?

It's pressing me hard. I felt so much better after I cried. I was able to fall asleep, better than me being awake the whole night.

THANKS JAYMEE.
I KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME:)
GIVE YOU A BIG HUG!!!

Now, I know I'll never be alone. I felt so much lighter(not in terms of weight!) and less burdened. I've been eating a lot lately, probably due to stress.

Gotta go on a diet soon. sigh.

An emo girl will never survive, unless she stands up with power. WAHAHA...
I know who is good and who is not..

Nobody have seen the real me. I've changed all these years, into someone who is not ME anymore. I'll change back!

MAGDALENA WILL BE BACK. :)

♥ NEGLECTED, LEFT OUT & IGNORED.

Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 6/23/2008 11:20:00 PM

Absence makes the heart grows fonder...

True or false? Well, it depends on how you feel. Time is precious, I don't want to waste my time thinking and brooding over useless things which I know will only give me more GREY HAIR.

But, I know myself, I'm a soft-hearted person, who never fails to melt whenever being pampered a little. Whenever being sweet-talked, I easily forget that this so and so person treat me like I was nobody. At that point of time, I will tell myself many things that I will do, like I will ignore that person or I will leave after awhile. All these are forgotten when pamperings and sweet talkings are received. I just smiled and forget everything.

Probably, I've learnt to take it easy.

I'm a girl from a complicated background. Hence, I always wanted my life to be better than before. I don't want to show people I'm facing problems. I want to look fine in front of people. I don't and hardly share my problems. Or probably, I've no one to share my problems with. So, I'm used to bottling up my feelings, this happened since I was in primary school. This was actually what I don't like, but it has become my personality and character. Cos I don't like people to force me to share my problems. Unless, I'm willing to and comfortable with it.

Enough of it. I'll know how to handle it. God will give me strength to carry on. I need my own space to think about lots of things. With additional problems of PROJECTS! These are killing me. Can it just leave me alone?

Cravings for many things, temptations to buy things. But pocket doesn't permits. :(
I'll have to control my spending. I just spent nearly $1.5k during May & June. All my hard-earned money:(

Yea, I agree this is a dull entry with no laughters and colours and pictures. Bear with me. After I get over this period and these things. You'll see the cheerful MAGDALENA comes back, blogging about her sweet and beautiful days, with pictures, I promise.

Eyes turned bubble.
I'll keep smiling..
Those were the days.
Probably I haven't been improving myself since then.
It's time I do something.
Words of discouragement and demoralization will be out of my ears.
Creativity and improvements will have NO restrictions! :)
I will have to take a daring and very bold step. HAHA.

♥ Darling and Jansen's Birthday

Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 6/22/2008 10:04:00 PM

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION@ PASIR RIS PARK

20June
Darling Jie and Jansen celebrated their birthday-BBQ! The day before I tagged along with them to buy the stuff and helped them with the marination and preparation. I think I was a bit of a hindrance to them. :(

Hungry hungry! Bought Mr. Bean drink and pancakes, Old Chang Kee Sardine'CurryPuff. Rushed to meet my family then we ate dinner. After that, so full! :)

Didnt had much time with darling this few days. Cos he was quite busy, and he's mind is always not with me. oh well, it's okay.

21June
The actual BBQ day! Woke up early to pass Jaymee her Coach bag. lol. she's so happy upon receiving it. haa. Went back home to slack. Teach joel his chinese homework. Went to CitySatay to get the stuff for the guys-my dad's present to them! lol. My auntie offered to cook curry for them. sis and I helped out, and I finally know how to cook curry already!! Yes Yes Yes!! :)

Went to buy ice then we headed off to meet them. Some of them helped to carry the stuff. so heavy. Had fun over there-esp. my lil brother and sister, they played with the gorgors till 1am then go back. They're happy but I think the guys had a hard time with them. I BBQ-ed all the way, offered to do it cos if not I won't have anything to do. At least find something for me to do then won't bored and out of place. haahaa. Nothing much to talk. Lucky some of his friends talked to me and entertained me. Jaymee came!! Told dad that I might me going Genting with HER! Then, he doesn't seem to have any objection. That's good! I purposely show Jaymee to him, so he will let me go. haa.

My family went home after some time. Actually don't allow me to stay over cos I'll be the only girl. But, don't know why, in the end, dad allowed me! :) Leon, Zhuaper, Elmer and Kun You entertained me while we were BBQ-ing. Then Kelvin, Fion, Baowen, Brandon, Kun You and Nicholas took turns to play cards with me. Had a fun time playing.

As usual, they'll drink. But they can now hold their liquor so much better than before. haa. All I saw was RED FACES, some even RED BODY! lol. But they're not drunk yet.

Rained.... We moved to shelter..... Rain stopped..... We moved back to BBQ pit......

Final and Heaviest rain coming... Zhuaper say "This time Philip say that the rain surely come..(Before this, everyone was thinking who this person was, until we know his trick-nonsense!)".
Strong winds sending our things flying all over. Darling told us to "EVACUATE! HURRY!"..

Quickly pack and headed to Downtown East.. By that time, it was already 5plus. Sat there till the rain stopped then we headed home. I waited for Leon and Darling to bathe. Very sleepy. Falling asleep while waiting. lol. Darling caught me closing my eyes. haa! Went to take a cab home.

The weather outside is cold.. Bathed the moment I reached home. Msg awhile with Darling and I went to rest.

Darling's 3on3 cancelled. He went to do his things.. 11.30am woke up to go for the lunch gathering with my church members. I'M SO TIRED!!! Ate Swensen's, with a total bill of 475bucks for 20ppl(Vouchers we had was only 200bucks; adults had to fork out extra cash). Very full.. Ate my favourite ice-cream and creamy pasta-all the sinful food. But, sinful food are my faves. haa.

Went to shop at MNG again. Spent 160bucks there. This time round, I bought tops. Previous visit there, I bought 3Bottoms and 1Top. Spendthrift girl! I love shopping. I love luxurious goods. Gonna put my hands on one of the Agnes b. coinpurse, to take advantage of the mid-year sale. I can sell it if Coach comes out with new and nicer designs. :)

Sleepy during church service. Chit chat with the guys and cheryl. :) This few weeks Kiddy Clara had been quite close to me. She's cute and pretty. haa.

Headed home. Placed my bets on soccer. Hope to win some money so i can buy Agnes b. coinpurse. haa. My hopes are not that high though, cos I didnt analyze it at all. haa.

Alright, off to start my 1st draft for project. Then, I'll be going to bed. I NEED SLEEP!!

♥ COACH WRISTLET

Saturday, June 21, 2008 @ 6/21/2008 12:07:00 AM

GOLD COACH WRISTLET WITH FLOWER EMBROIDERY...

Condition: 100% Brand New with Tag on.

Size: 6 1/2 (L) x 4 (H). Can fit a Coach Mini Skinny or HP.

Remarks: Limited stocks of this colour in SGP. In fact, no more selling of this colour at ALL Coach in SGP. The price is definitely higher than others cos of the flower embroidery.

Price: Offer reasonably. Bear in mind its "Remarks".

Interested buyers may email i-hearts-lollipop@hotmail.com for enquiry.

♥ arrived from thailand

Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 6/20/2008 01:37:00 AM

PICKUPS OF DARLING & ME...

HE'S BACK! MISS HIM ALOT! WENT TO BUGIS THEN TO TOWN.

Darling's Gucci wallet & Burberry Coinpurse.

Darling's Coinpurse..

Overall Shorts. Darling bought for me:) Thanks!

Darling's Birthday gift from ME! :) Keke.

Yesterday's Pickups: Mango Top, Ness Skirt and Ness Belt.

CANDYBITES~
SUGAR MOMENTS!
iHEARTSyou<3

♥ Video clip

Sunday, June 15, 2008 @ 6/15/2008 01:00:00 AM

Sorry about the background noise. Reduce the volume, cos it's abit loud.

Video down for DARLING. Specially for you.

Almost teared when i watched the vidoe clip. Kinda touching and very happy for him.

Tears of Joy:)

♥ Darling depart for Bangkok

Saturday, June 14, 2008 @ 6/14/2008 11:43:00 PM

Misses, Loves & Care...

7am-10.30am: Meet up with Darling. His mum sent us to Tanah Merah. Took train to T2. Ate Mac for breakfast. Jaymee, Jianlong, Zalsie and Richard came over. Saw Zhuaper, in his full uniform. Hee. Meet up with the rest at 8.30am. Slacked till 10am. Final HUG and we sent them in. Wasn't very emotional. Not like what Sam said, that I'll cry and can't bear to let him go. Haa.

GOODBYE, MY LOVER. I'LL SEE YOU ON THURSDAY AGAIN.

10.30am-4pm: Headed to town with JAYMEE! As usual, we SHOPPED. Went to Centrepoint, bought La Senza Bras. keke. Went over to Taka. Checked out Ralph Lauren, Polo Jeans, Tommy Hilfiger, Kate Spade, Coach, Loewe, Burberry, LV, Agnes b. and Gucci. Next we dined at Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao. Ordered 5dishes in total. Nice & Filling! :) THANKS JAYMEE, FOR THE BIRTHDAY TREAT! =D enjoyed my day with her. Oh, we went to Mango and bought a top each. lol. And Jaymee is in love with a Burberry Wallet and Agnes b. purse. It's nice though. Headed home, cos we are already running out of energy. TIRED!

*JL and MJ called us when we were eating. So funny cos we have to pass the phone around. We also discussed about how good if we are able to tag along, but both of us will go shopping while they train. keke.

5pm-6.30pm: Beauty Nap:)

7pm-9pm: Grandparent's House! Bought food at Blk409 hawker centre and brought it up. Ate dinner with them including brother, mother and big uncle. Fixed the cordless phone that I bought for my grandparents. They're very happy. Was happy that they are happy. Can see the smile and excitement in their face. LOVE YOU ALL~ Enjoyed myself with them, especially with the presence of my chatty brother. haha.

9pm: Backed at Home! Blogging. Chatting with Jaymee. Darling called again! <3>

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10june: Went to school to find him. Ate dinner at CP. Raining heavily. Ran across the rain. DRENCHED TOTALLY. Cold on bus. Looped our 62 bus journey to avoid having to run across the road under the rain. Reached home at 11pm, whereas Dear at 12midnite.

11june: 4Yrs 3mths. Didnt feel very good on that very day. Though the day started well.

12june: Facial in the morning and met him in the evening. Here comes his attitude. I think he have PMS for the past few days. siao siao one.

13june: Was feeling very down, upset, moody and sian. Awards Ceremony 2008. He got the Sportsperson Of The Year and Merit Award for Basketball. CONGRATULATION! Talked to Jaymee. Thanks alot for your consolation. Feeling so much better after that.

SNEAK PEEK!

SPORTSPERSON & HIS MUM

WITH HIS CARING MUMMY

HAPPY FOR HIM! CONGRATS DARLING! <3

14june: He flew off to BANGKOK.

awaiting for your arrival. love you to bits.

we are ONE in the bond of LOVE.

never will we be separated.

you're always in my heart,

so there's no need for me to miss you,

all i have to do is look for you in my heart.

BUT, i do need you physically.

Take care, my dear boy. ilu<3

♥ good or bad?

Friday, June 13, 2008 @ 6/13/2008 12:38:00 AM

Contradictions..

As usual, meet up for awhile only. Awkward scene. Lost. Out of place. Unwelcome? Whatever word you wanna use. I just don't feel good.

2nd disappointment. Final one. No more of this. Enough.

It's okay. I shall not say much. I must only say things that build others up and not say things that make them unhappy, demoralize or that will pull them down. So, SSHHH...

Suppressing all my feelings, thoughts and emotions. Is this good or bad? To say or not to say?

FALLING SOON. But i gotta stay strong, because he said "You're my pillar, you cannot fall."
OKAY, I will pull it through. Nothing will make me fall apart. I gotta find my strong side of me. I must learn to understand him, that there are other more things than just ME.

Holidays are getting boring. We are one in the bond of love.

Value-less. Only valuable when needed.

♥ 4yrs3mths

Wednesday, June 11, 2008 @ 6/11/2008 10:52:00 PM

Precious Moments. . . Our 4yrs 3mths. . .

Darling is busy; tight schedule. Means I've to squeeze into his schedule):

Not a good feeling at all.

Met up for about 3hrs and we parted. Cos he has lots of other things to do. Time flies whenever I'm with him. Was kinda sad when I got to know that he have to go off later. I admit I teared a little. A few days back, I knew this would happen. I just prayed that we would not quarrel or something like that. Fortunately, it's quite minor.

Happiness doesn't last long.

Ate Wanton Mee and it's super nice! Yummy yummy. But was already kinda upset, so didn't really enjoyed it.

Oh well, at the very least, be glad that he spent time with me. Alright, enough of all these grumblings and moddy stuff..

Backed from Church Camp on Monday, had fun playing with them. On the 2nd night, the youths played Hide and Seek around the hotel. On the 3rd night, played Hide and Seek with the youths, kids and some adults, after the kids and adults went to sleep. The youths went for Part 2, BLIND MICE in the DARK! I've begin to love soccer. haha. Cheryl, Matthea and I were the only girls who played soccer with the boys(kids) and guys. We weren't any burden to them. haha. All of us suffered injuries like cuts, blisters and bruises, cos we played barefooted. IT'S FUN! hehe. But, i miss him alot while i was at the camp.

The day before i went to the church camp, i went out with Rox and Jaymee. Went to Sketches for dinner, we created our own pizza! The pizza was yummy! Super full. hee. After that MOS with the girls. Roxanne loves magic. haa. Superb in dancing. ROXANNE'S A DANCING QUEEN! lol. Cabbed home with the girls. had so much fun with them! :)

Everything muct be done with LOVE being the main motivator.