♥ Confused.

Monday, April 28, 2008 @ 4/28/2008 09:00:00 PM

All in vain.

Discontentment surfaces whenever one compares. However, without comparison, there won't be any differentiation and you will always be stagnant. I used to compare, which makes me really upset. But what's the use of comparing and get to know how fortunate is that person, and you're not. Hence, i've told myself not to compare, but to do my part. Sometimes even more than that.. I've lost everything, i've sacrificed everything, just for this. What i just hope is that all this will turn out to be good.

Appreciation: To be grateful or thankful for.

I always try to appreciate the good deeds that i received. Since young, daddy always teach me to be thankful to the people around me who had helped me and shaped me to who I am today. I've told myself to make "Thank you, thank you" as my response to good deeds. Life is so short, I must make full use of this life to bring happiness to other's life, not only to my own life. What's the use of being happy when your surrounding friends are sad. I don't find it a joy.


People do have limits, i guess. Cos I seem to have reached my limit, I can tolerate no more. I used to be very tolerant. To the point where i swallow everything up, even if it might choke me, or mayb even to death. My heart feels heavy, it's exploding. There are too many things inside.. My colleague ever told me, once my volcano explodes it'll be a disaster. Sometimes i feel, it's better to let go of your problems bit by bit, best is immediately when it surface out.


I don't like to hurt people. I don't like to shout at people. I don't like to be harsh to people. I don't like to be angry at people for nothing. I don't like to vent my anger on people.

Why on earth would there be such person? A hot-headed person or a short-temper person? I don't know.

I've done my best, given my all. and that's all i have. If that's still not enough. sorry, i'm not your superwoman.


Yesterday match wasn't good. weilong was even hurt. the girls kept cheering for them.

dear, i got support you, you know mah? dear, i shouted, "jia you!", you heard mah? dear, i kept praying for you, you sensed it mah? dear dear dear, you know all this mah?


Tears behind my simple smile.
Everything was all in vain.

♥ Eek!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 4/22/2008 12:18:00 AM

Sweaty & Sticky.

Eek! I hate to be sweaty, cos after that i'd be sticky for the whole day. And that'll make me very uncomfortable and irritated. And itchy all over as well!! I dread it.

Don't tease me, don't criticize me! I'd get hurt.
But, oh well, probably that's what u think of me in your heart. still ain't good enough...
With security and assurance from you, i wouldn't feel so inferior. but... sigh.

Accompanied jie to renew his internet broadband. Laksa, thai-style tofu and teh peng for lunch, he ate chicken rice. OOH, it's so yummy can! It's been ages since i ate Laksa. haa. My childhood favourite food. I rmbed i used to eat it in pri sch with my bestie, then we will add lotsa chilli and ended up sticking our tongue out while trying to finish up the gravy. miss those days(:

But i hate the cockles! Eek!

Jie's mummy is so loving. Oh, I love her so! I'm really touched. hee. Did some spring cleaning with him. so dusty can. his exam notes were still on his table despite exams being over for such a long time. my goodness..

Helped with the wireless internet set-up... as usual, it takes a long time. previously when i helped with the modem, it also took a very long time. sian. when can i ever be good at doing such things? All this while, dear kept saying "Bai zheng..". cos he arranged the 4D tix properly le. then we always accidentally hit it and mispositioned it. So funny can. i kept laughing when he said that. Until, he himself laugh at himself whenever he said that. haha. Aft dinner, went to cp to get Cheesy donuts as promised by jie..

But, there were none left. . . So sad! There goes my mood and craving.. Like wanna cry sia.. Cos in the afternoon when we were abt to buy, the person said have to wait for abt 30mins, as they are still preparing.. He didnt wanna wait, i think. so he say later then come down buy.. Now, no more le, very disappointed! sigh sigh sigh.. He tried many ways to cheer me up, keep thinking of things to buy for me to eat. lol. But that's not my craving la my dear.

As soon as we know there were none left...
[Lena face changed, reject every other donuts and pulled Jie]
Jie: You now sure very angry, feel like killing me de.
Lena: Not only that... Feel like EATING YOU UP oso ar!
[Jie pulled me to basement to look for food at the jap fair. He wanted Pocky, but i dowan.]


**Today isn't my day, except for the yummy laksa and new innovation.

jie love lena. lena love jie. mmuaahs!

♥ School Re-opens

Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 4/20/2008 09:20:00 PM

Holidays Officially Ended.

After not touching books and stationery for 2months. I felt that my brain had gone RUSTY! My goodness. But somehow, i'm excited for school. haa. This semester, Jie and I same class again! Fated? lol. Happy working together in projects yah? hehe. Chiong together.. haha. Gonna form my project group asap, if not, mj and I will only suffer being in a handicapped group.

Possible groupmates: Xiao Ran, Yanqing, Yan Qing's friend, Mj and I... plus one more guy. If not jie will be the only guy. lol!!

Time-table is superb! But still, i'll be working until this end of april only. Gotta concentrate in my studies. hee.

Little brother is sick, having fever, cough and sorethroat. Yesterday slept with him although he is sick, without worrying that I'll get sick. He's my precious brother, when he is unwell. I'll be sad. This morning I followed dad and aunt to KK Hospital to have him consulted. Only I can entertain him and play with him. Indeed the dragons of the house. 12years difference but we don't seem to have any age gap. Probably, i can get along well with children. Went home to get some rest, after that went to church with family and nic's girlF, Chrystal. Ate Megumi after church and sent her home.

Backed at home and edited Jie's resume, added his photo in it and sent it to vincent for him. I'm so bored now, he has training.

It's okay, tmr we're meeting already. In fact, we will be meeting each other EVERYDAY for this week.

Mon- School
Tues- School
Wed- Match
Thurs- School
Fri- School
Sat- Dating!
Sun- Match

Woohoo.. Don't get sian seeing me everyday wor. haa.


you are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
I <HEART3 YOU!

♥ Sweet Day

@ 4/20/2008 02:03:00 AM

Sweet Tongue & Warm Heart.

Hit town with him again! lol. Baked pasta for him, but i failed. not nice at all lor, even him don't really liked it. oh man, i'll bake nicer ones in future. But for now, bear with my inexperience hands. hee.

Checked out Gucci. Something caught his eyes. but we didnt have the chance to ask the price. too bad. another time bah.

Left Paragon and headed to Far East. I guess it's Stage Official Opening Day, there were many people outside the shop wearing streetwear. Jie and I even saw BEN YEO can! He looks so damn cool although he is quite old. He carries his clothes and accessories very well! VERY COOL! While at Far East, i was hoping that xiao zhu will come so that i can at least see him in person. haa. But he didnt came, i guess.

Jie and I craved for B.B.F from Chippy! There we go, dirtying our hands with the ketchup and mayo sauce. so damn nice! I love it with lotsa lotsa lotsa sauce. But jie doesn't like it. Like that it's good, then he can take all the sauce-less while i take the sauce-filled ones. kekekekekeke......

That's why, we are a pair. :)

He looks so cute when he sleeps in that position. Like a baby boy lor. Went to take his things and we ate Fried Yam Cake that his mummy cooked. so delicious!! I LOVE YAM! hee. I would have eaten one more piece if i can force my stomach to open. haa. Went to Kovan for his match on uncle's car with jansen and john.

Against Paya Lebar CSC. Won. :)

Ate dinner at the nearby coffeeshop with them. Darling sent me home, sweet sweet moments. Explained, talked, promised and sweared things. lol. He is so humourous. I love his personality. Cheerful and humourous. kekeke..

He went out with his friends lo. I'm slpin soon le. Tired..


i can't live, if living is without you... i truly love you, jie. <3

♥ WITH JAYMEE

Friday, April 18, 2008 @ 4/18/2008 11:42:00 PM

Brain fell out.

SHOP SHOP & SHOP WITH JAYMEEEE~ We practically encourage each other to buy things.

Bought:
-Dress
-MNG Shorts
-Body Shop Facial Foam

Planned to buy on sat:
-MNG Berms
-MNG Linen Shorts
-Charles&Keith Black Heels

What you always did is what I did. You don't really trust me do you? Or you trust her more?

I'll pick up my shit-things. Suppressed; choked.

When we are always at our happiest and closest moment, we'll surely encounter problems which breaks the happiness.


awkward silence. sorry for my dumbness.

I'M always DUMB.

♥ Advance Birthday Pressie!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @ 4/16/2008 10:45:00 PM

Meet up with him. Pasta for lunch for him, Amos cookies for me! :) YUMMY DELICIOUS!
Bus-ed to school with him to go for his Kelly interview. Took a detour in a cab to check something. But all was fine. Took a bus back and waited for his interview to end. Headed down to Orchard. Checked out Coach the very moment we reach town. Didnt expect anything... cos i only wanted to leave my name and contact number there so when the bag that i liked is on the selling floor, they can give me a call... BUT, TO MY SURPRISE! it's already selling there.. WAS SO HAPPY LA! Without hesitation, darling got it for me for my birthday present. Actually I suggested to come back later, cos we should like discuss 1st or something mah. But he said, wait no more already i sure regret. SO........ Yes, he got it for me. THANKS DARLING FOR THE BAG!! I LOVE IT A LOT! The sales person gave us a really huge paperbag. so cute can. Then we'll have to walk around town with that huge bag. lol. Went to chit chat with Wisma's colleagues. They finally remembered me. haa! Fun working with them too! :)

I ENJOYED MYSELF WITH LIM MIN JIE=) ! 16th april.

His match cancelled, so we have more time to walk around town. Ate western for lunch/dinner. Checked out Agnes b., Burberry, Loewe, Charles & Keith, Gap and Ralph Lauren. All so tempting; wallet size also reducing. sigh.

Working is tough! I'm all so drained out after a day of work. Tiring.. And the money i earn is not much lo. sigh. 1mth's pay cannot even buy a bag! For goodness sake. Pathetic!

Tmr will be meeting Jamie to hit Town again and eat Redbull Ice-cream! Excited!! Hee. Should be walking around town for awhile then going to Dempsey Rd to check out some bags then.... most probably go drinking after that. But we won't go till so late. Jus drink and chat and slack.. hee. Girls wants and needs some happy hours too. But there will be times where the girls and boys have happy hours together. Sometimes, we girls need to pour out our sorrows too.

But before all these fun, i've work from 12-3pm.. haa. But i like working at Change Alley also, apart from Parkway.. cos aunty catherine treats me well and take good care of me. So touch.. gonna get her a gift as she's leaving already.. *sobs*

SATURDAY HITTING TOWN WITH DARLING AGAIN! :)

♥ OUTING!

Sunday, April 13, 2008 @ 4/13/2008 02:23:00 PM

Went to Parkway VERY early. dear and I reach there at 11am. And the rest of them were still at their meeting place. Heavy rainpour for quite some time. Went over to GG<5 to see colleagues for awhile. Alicia finally saw my boyfriend. haa. After that we walked around Parkway aimlessly. Dear said he wanted to go to Borders, we went to browse through a Sports book and we saw the tallest and shortest bball players. So cartoon can; very funny. Shopped at Mango and bought a Polka-dot top. I LOVE IT~

Met the rest. There were roxanne, laolao, jaymee, jian long, zhuaper, rongtian, weilong, priscilia, dear and I.

Bladed at ECP.
Showered.
Ate at Subway. (To most of us, it was our first time. haha.)
Enjoyed Cotton Candy!
Bowled.
Blew birthday cake. (Rongtian's Birthday)
Slacked.
Bus-ed home!

ENJOYED~ :)

Dear and I was dead tired in the bus.

Today, Minyi vs Home Utd. All the best to them. Pray hard that they will be in top form! :) GOOD LUCK!

♥ touchy touchy.

Sunday, April 06, 2008 @ 4/06/2008 08:27:00 PM

This holiday has been really tiring for me. Seems like i've got no time for myself. lol. Cos it's all about work work and work. And salary isn't that good at all. Hope to find a higher-paid job. I need to earn more money. Got lots of things on my mind that i want. keke. I'm like that, always not contented. haa. Ytd while waiting for bus to get back home, Ika talked to me and gave me so many advices. She made me picked up a little courage. I hope i can be courageous and confident like her. Hmm.. She's indeed a pretty and confident lady! I admire!

He's so touchy this few days. Dunno what went into him.

Ask also not happy,
Tell also not happy,
Dont's ask will happy?
Don't tell will happy?

I respect you that's why i asked for ur opinions and comments. Looks like i shouldn't have done that. It's fine with me, if u don't want me to ask or tell u. Probably that'll make my life even easier right.

Oh man, late night eatings and supper had made me put on weight! I hate putting on weight. Makes me so sian. But colleagues keep telling me not to go on diet. But, i find myself fat. They even said maybe i'm anorexic. LOL. It's not true, i still have thick flesh and loads of fats. haa.


If every guys are the same, then you won't be able to differentiate good from bad.