♥ Lonely Saturday

Sunday, July 29, 2007 @ 7/29/2007 03:02:00 PM

oh well,
it's a boring saturday.
supposed to be scheduled for work.
But i turned it down last week,
cos he said that i always work on saturdays.
and what the...
I'm so bored, i'm so bored!

Went to my dad's godson birthday.
His 7th Birthday! Happy Birthday, Chester!
It was held at MacDonald's.
I joined in the games with all the kids.
I won one of the games.
Cool huh? haa.
Went home after the party ends.

I don't wish to mention anything..
I don't wish to know anything..
I don't wish to see anything..
Yesterday was just a dream to me..
Lucky the day passes quite fast for me..
I know i can do it on my own..
And, i will do it on my own..
Shall not care about such nonsense..

Project deadlines are nearing..
French project is worse!
We jus started on the report only,
thus, during consultation last thurs
we did not show Jerome our report..
Charmaine, Syarfa and I are rushing the report..
Slides jus need some editing, so it should be fine..
Ganbatte girls! =)

Jap project is all in a mess.
We either have too little to act out, or we have too much too act out.
Our script also lack creativity.
Wad the *!
I'm just getting too tired with all these.
Cos our schedule don't seem to have any time we can all meet together.
Sian.
So we can only communicate during Jap tutorial, or emails.

I've to get back to work soon,
can't possibly keep taking leave.
I will work my way through..
I'm sorry if i'll disappoint you..

There isn't much i can do..
I've done quite a bit..
Gettin' a lil' bit tired..
Give me a break..
I need a rest..


*aneladgam

(pronounce my backward name, sounds cool. haa)
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I'm a damn demanding girl,
I'm very possessive,
I'm so unreasonable,
I'm not understanding.
I think I can go and bang my head and die.

♥ critical!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 @ 7/17/2007 11:30:00 PM

oh my! oh my!
I'm in critical condition.
Can't hold on any longer.

Gastric is killing me.
Losing my appetite day by day.
But that's good, cos it aids in slimming.
Haa.
Work has been tiring, making me late for classes the next day.
Studies had been neglected due to work.
Poor time management, i guess.

Have not been feeling good and well the past few days.
Colleagues saw it and ask me what happen.
But i refused to tell.
Merely mentioned that i drank alot of water the night before,
that's why my eyes are puffy.
Behind the smiles of me, might not be what you see and think.
Like tears, might not be sadness.
They could be tears of joy.
Are there smiles of sorrows?
I guess there are,
when one gotta force a smile even though their heart is crying badly?
Isn't that smiles of sorrows?

Have you ever find yourself crying, in a crowded place where everyone is smiling and laughing?

The thought of letting go everything is subsided by happy memories.
Happy memories which i cherish.
But what about bad ones which are etched deeply in me,
even to the point of dimming my happiness.
I've given my all.
I hope you appreciate it,
or at least realise and received it.
*smiles*
I've been drained and wringed dry.
Or you still want me to give some more?

Watched Transformers! Finally!
Nice show. I enjoyed it. I love it.
The cars are cool. I wish to own one.
The girl is HOT HOT HOT too. seriously.
She has the figure that all girls would die for.
Rating: 4/5
I don't mind watching it again. =)
Went home alone.
I know I'm stupid, always stupid.
Nothing seems good about me.
I've nothing but negative points, ok?
Don't have to repeat so many times.
It's registered in my mind.
I just feel so negative about myself now.
I used to tell myself and others to,
ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE.
But now, i hardly used this phrase.
Cos i don't see any positive side of me.
Falling into depression?
I hope i have amnesia. or STM.
That'll be great.
Then, I'll be able to start each day on a happy and new note.

Quarrelled with neighbours.
About something very lame.
But i kaypo abit, wanting to know what happen.
And i was all ready to pull punches at them.
Haa.
Wanted to vent my anger at them.
Make them my punching bag! Haa.
Good idea huh?

oh well,
loads of things are still undone.
I got to start touching them.
Before they reach the deadline.
French, Japanese, MBS, HRM projects.
Still not completed!
I'm really in deep shit.
French is completely UNTOUCHED.
My gosh.
Move on man, Mag. Stop daydreaming. Don't get bothered by other nonsense.
Let it be. Cos i know i don't have what it takes.
So i can only see it from afar, and blame everything on me.

Life is not that easy afterall. Cos you fall hard and will suffer pain even after you're up on your feet. Don't ever live a negative life, learn to love yourself, don't be put down.

signing off....

♥ in school//

Monday, July 02, 2007 @ 7/02/2007 02:48:00 PM

wee~
i'm currently in school. suppose to do my project,
but apparently, i saved it in dear's thumbdrive.
so stupid. *abish* hee
then i wanted to fill the blanks in my notes, but i can't find the lecture slides.
wadTHEhell.
everything doesn't seem to go smoothly.
argh.
feeling so shit now.

hmm.. while waiting for my time to be up to go to work,
i went to view other's blog and update mine!
hee. i know i'm lazy.. forgive me. =)

have been facing several problems.
but i believe i can face it strongly and i will overcome it.
mag is strong enough to handle it.
i will stay strong. =))

This month's work schedukle is hectic!
have to work for 12days! arhhh!
Plus i have 4 projects on hand for submission.
i'm dead`
How am i going to cope with all this.
i'll surely be tired and easily frustrated.
don't provoke me. wahaha..

oh man, i'm simply lost in my Business Finance.
i know nuts about it.
Mr. Phua commented that i am consistently late for class.
Gonna make sure that i am on time tmr.
hee.
Have to do Bfin tutorial tonight.

Last tuesday was dear's birthday.
had a whole lot of fun with his friends.
went to Sakae Sushi and Barcode.
will try to upload some photos at the end of this entry.. hee.

oh yah! i've been posted to the same elective as darling!
i'm glad that we're in the same course, cos we'll be studying the same thing
and we may be in the same class!
haa.
but there are pros and cons about this.

i'm late for work! AHH! bye guys...