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Monday, April 09, 2007 @ 4/09/2007 11:31:00 PM

Sigh

It seems like there are many problems. I can't take it. Couldn't sleep at all last night after fifi told me that meiyan, our sec. sch. senior, passed away in a bike accident.. I just couldn't sleep, and kept thinking about her. Her face just keep appearing in my mind. You ask me why? Beats me. But i just couldn't accept it, i don't believe she's gone. I was scared and was crying. It's sucha tragedy.

Since i couldn't get to sleep as i was scared, i drop him a SMS. But sad to say, he wasn't concerned at all. Cos when he woke up and SMSed me, he didnt seem to care and as if the SMS that i sent was wordless and blank. You really don't care about me? To think i always consoled and calm your fearful heart when you've nightmare or anything. Why can't you just give me lil of your care and concern? Is it so difficult? sigh. I'm so tired now, only managed to sleep from 7am to 11am.

Even when i'm with you. You didnt consoled me. I thought to myself mayb cos he don't know how to type it out. But i was wrong. Totally wrong. Sad to say, higher expectations means higher disappointments. It always happens to me. I don't know why either.

Watched a Taiwan romantic drama serial, Corner with Love. Very nice. Very touching. Tear-ed a lil while watching, but at times i tear-ed not because of the show. sigh.

Went to school with him to do some admin stuff with Sam. Sam said i'm his secretary. oh gosh, do i look like one? lol. Anyway, mj tried to crack jokes to make me laugh. But hey, it ain't funny. In fact, it made me sad.

Forget it. Anyway, it's LK's birthday. Wished him Happy Birthday. When he replied, the SMS that he sent pierced my heart. I felt the ache. I don't know if i'm thinking too much or it's a matter of fact that..... Don't wish to mention.. I know it myself will do. And, what i said ytd, B-I-N-G-O. But it was their friend's gf. But, I, myself know why i feel this way. It's the thought that counts, who cares whatever the answer will be. If i were the person, at least i'll ask. Anyway, I don't even know where the place will be. Ah! Forget it. Bull Crap! Gettin' drunk? lol.

Bused home alone. Lonely. Kept thinking of all the stuffs i've encountered recently. Without knowing, i tear-ed again. Don't know why, but it seems like i'm so emo. Guess it could be caused my my period. If u know it, understand me. I don't like my laughters to be so fake. I want to laugh with you till our sides hurt and our cheeks ache. Miss those days. Don't make us drift apart. Don't let our memories fade. Don't fade away from my heart.. I still love you despite all these. I don't know why either.

Anyway, i'm tired. I wanna turn in early. All these things just crash my brain, suck up my brain juice and cause constant headaches and blackouts. Hate it! Tmr gotta wake up early and meet my friends for shopping. Look forward to it. It's gonna be a tiring day cos at night going to watch mj's B division competition. Must Win!! =)


Loves,
magdalena<3