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Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @ 3/28/2007 04:31:00 PM

BORED!
Simply BORED.

Today i mahjong-ed since morning till afternoon.
Ytd i mahjong-ed from morning till evening.
Lol.
Everyday only mahjong and mahjong.
haa.

Anyway, ytd after mahjong, we went to watch movie, Mr.Bean's Holiday.
Not that nice though, wasn't up to expectation.
hmm, ytd lotsa dispute and misunderstandings.
i don't blame him neither do i blame myself.
cos both are at fault.
i feel that each time we spend the whole day together, there will be many quarrels in a day.
i dunno is it we cannot spend most of our time together.
if that's the case then, how are we gonna spend our time in future?
means we cannot be together in future?

sometimes i feel that we don't seem to get along.
it's like, we can't click. u noe? always have friction those kind.
can't seem to agree with each other.
sigh.

Didnt work this whole holiday.
Have been idling away my holiday.
I wanna work also cannot.
What's wrong with working at Sakae Sushi?
I'm seriously short of money.
no work=no income
no income=no shopping
Have been using my Ang Bao money,
which i m not suppose to and not allowed to use.
sigh.
No Shopping for me! =(
I'm always so tempted to go into my fave shops,
to browse through, try on then purchase it.
but now, i can't.
argh.
it's so frustrating!
everytime i walk pass the shops, he ask me, "Want to go in and see?"
and i so much so want to go in,
but i've to resist and cannot fall into temptations.
Already short of money still want to choose the work.

Told me no need to find job this holiday, just spend my holiday go watch his match and accompany him. I didnt think much and just agreed to it.
But now, he's out there working then who will keep me company?
*cries*

un-fair.
sigh.
he go training or play ball i oso keep quiet le.
now, plus he go work i oso cannot say anything.

sigh.
dad dowan to give me money cos i've spent alot.
i don't wanna go out anymore, since i've not much money left.
my bank left less than $100, can't even by a shorts.
aahhh!!
M-O-N-E-Y-!-!
Where to search for you?

it's been a month since i hope to strike 4D.
that's the only easy way to get lotsa money.
but it's also difficult.

Today lost a little in mahjong.
sigh.
Tomorrow he have training again.
hais.
it's seriously boring!
this whole holiday i didnt even earn a single dollar.
I'm jus prone to taking his words for real.
i should have went ahead to look for jobs.
Somemore, during last semester's holiday i told myself to look for a job this holiday regardless of anything.

oh man! F***! Dumb!
oh please, will someone remind me to look for job?
or mayb intro me a job so i'll accept it right away and not live with regrets, like what i'm going through right now.

argh.
more than a month had past.
there goes my holiday.
I thought i could earn some money to buy new clothes for my next semester and year.
sigh.

Shan't brood over it.
You're the reason for all.
i don't get moody or upset for no reason.
it's bottled within me.
sometimes i jus love to go all silent and not say anything.
i love to be alone for nothing will happen except loneliness.


I Love Mag-Self.

footprints;
magdalena

♥

Monday, March 19, 2007 @ 3/19/2007 05:51:00 PM


It's been long since i blogged. indeed, many things happen. sigh. there are bad times which i dread but there are also good times which i cherish dearly.

The day before 11march was exciting n sweet. on the day itself was sweet and fun. hee. went for dinner at New York New York then went to the Esplanade Roof Terrace. *sweet moments* he gave me my present. a Coach skinny purse. hee. love it lots! he also made a card with all our photostickers. so sweet of him. =)) after that, went to my house to play overnight mahjong. got a vulgarity from him. was super angry. argh. anyway, forget about it. this is the 2nd time oready. wad a sucky feeling.

for the next few days, we had overnight mahjong at my place. there are quarrels here and there. so difficult.. i wonder how we can live together in future. we can get along if we we are not always together, if not, there will surely be quarrels. cant be peaceful de.

raised his voice at me da day before, was very hurt. he promised that he will not raised his voice at me, but he broke it. ='( almost teared infront of him. i just don't get it, why he is so hot-tempered. easily frustrated and annoyed. argh. den ytd, quarreled again. hate it! im at a loss. i dunno wad to do. seriously. msges sucks. don't wish to talk abt it. i care less about it. he's going for chalet tonight. oh well, enjoy urself.

stupid quarrels! rage.

i hope everything will be fine soon. didnt meet him today. there goes the egg tarts i bought for him. egg tarts into the bin. =(


magdalena.

♥ March is here!

Saturday, March 03, 2007 @ 3/03/2007 07:26:00 PM

March is here! Eleventh is coming! =D

Happy Chinese New Year To ALL!
Wish all of You, Great Health and Great Wealth.

Hmm.. even with all the blessings and wishes from my relatives. i feel that my life is at risk. my back hurts, so ytd went to see the Chinese Physician and he said that my body is crooked. WTH, crooked?! was screaming and shouting in GREAT pain! bb waited for me outside. was so scary. hee. after that we went to Velocity then go Town le. bought a Topshop shorts. Love it lots. hee. walked around town. went to the high-end brands. Went to see Gucci, LV, Burberry, Tommy and Bottega. hee. enjoyed myself. Tried a shorts at Mphosis, but he siad that it's tight on me. but i feel it's just nice. oh well, fat and fats. =( i'll jus have to admit it and accept the fact. nvm, forget about this.. he's going clubbing in da night. i jus dun feel safe letting him go. seriously. hey c'mon man, temptations are hard to resist don't you agree? even if he keep saying dont worry, nothing will happen. yah, i MAY believe it if u're sober. but wad if one is drunk. hard to predict. sigh. anyway, on my way home in the cab, teared a lil. feeling so insecure, so unsafe.

BUT, it's alright. i gotta learn to let go and not be overprotected over him! i'll not care about it le. jus go back n sleep till next morning can le. if it's meant to be it'll be. if anything happens, then it'll happen. i cant do anything de.

Playing mahjong tonight. overnite mahjong with sis, nic and mj.


footprints;
magdalena.