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Friday, April 07, 2006 @ 4/07/2006 10:48:00 AM

waoh.. so long didnt update.. haa. had been quite busy dis few days. will update all according to dates k?

2nd April
went to church. help out in da children ministry. i led in da singing n worship. da kids made fun of me! i so embarrassed lahs. gosh! when dey greet me dey go, "Good afternoon, aunty magdalena jiejie!" wah seh, my face blush straight away. cos dey usually call me magdalena jjiejie, but dey always make fun of me by saying aunty. i saw baby faith calling me jiejie Madagascar!!! argh.. dis kids are reali making a fool of me.. anyway, haf a fun time with da kids. but its darn tiring. *wipe sweats* went for dinner n headed home!! yeah.

3rd April (Highlights)
hmm.. dis is a bad yet good day for me.. bad is cos, hubby n i actually planned to meet up. i msg-ed him da moment i woke up. n he oso msg-ed me da moment he woke up. however, we onli received it at around 2pm. which means we had been waiting for nth. i tot he had not woke up so i decided to go n bathe 1st so at least when he wake up i can straight away go n meet him already. aft i bathed i c dat he still haven wake up, so i went online lor. n so coincident, he's oso online. so we chatted in a reali harsh tone.. i'm so hurt when he talks like dat.. *sigh* den i ask if we're still meeting, [hubby: dunno.. . me: wad dunno.. . hubby: dunno means dunno lor..] urgh.. so pissed eh.. so i humbled myself n went to his hse even tho' he didnt sae he wanted to meet me. i msg-ed him he oso didnt reply me. when i reached his block, i waited downstairs for like 45mins. cos he didnt reply me, so i dun dare to go up.. skali he dowan to let me in. i'll feel veh rejected de.. so i waited n cried, waited n cried.. till he msg me say, " y u walk to my hse so long de".. den i went up. guess wad, i didnt tok for da whole 2hrs.. i already felt so bad n hurt.. if i were to tok to him, i'll definitely cry. so i decided to remain silent. [[sorry guys, dis is gonna be a long entry]]. half way while watching tv, i wanted to go home, cos my tears r rolling soon. but he insisted dat i go home later.. so i sat dwn again.. 6pm; he sends me home. we're so quiet. so cold too. *sigh* talk a little abt da problems. talk n talk abt it. till i reach home, i jus said "bye" n walked to my hse w/o even looking n waving at him. i cried on bed.. aft awhile, decided to bring puipui for a walk. guess wad, i met him. oh no! anyway, i received his msg when i saw him, it's "shall we talk".. is it fate? well, God wants us to talk things out bah, He noes im extremely sad bah.. went to a void deck to talk lor.. should i go into details?? wait he angry again how?? er.. mayb i'll skip dis part bah.. but indeed i cried reali hard.. i cried till like da world n everything had collapse. i swear dis is da hardest cry n da best cry i've had in my life till now. i was so hurt at dat point. well, it was dos hurt dat were accumulated dat made me cried my heart out. *sigh* - tooooooot- [dis part i'll not say bah, i jus cried lah.] cry for abt an hr den we went for dinner at 9pm. he's hungry but i got no appetite. went home aft dat. ending was okay. it went back to normal. but he realise da importance of me again.. onli when tings are going wrong, den he'll realise. sigh.. dat's all bah.. sad but good rite?

4th April
i go meet grace n mum. i was caught in da rain. went to meet rachel n anuty yongfong. he's helping out in da temple, so didnt msg him till he was at home.

5th April
he went to temple early in da morning to help. i went to meet grace at hougang. meet up with him at heartland mall. cos we miss each other. he bought a Nike shirt, i choose de!! yeah. n he said it's veh nice. haa. he pei me go eat dinner at KFC. aft dat jiu headed home. sat 62 all da way to geylang den back home. ended with a passionate kiss. `muacks`, baby!

6th April
actuali meeting him in da morning at his hse de. but his bro at home, so decided to meet in di afternoon. but i had to follow nic to da hospital for his intestines to be checked. so.. der goes our date.. *bleahs* hate it when things are like dat. well, but dear hubby came to novena square to meet me n gave aunty some old jerseys. picked nic at da hospital den he go training le.. sigh.. went home for piano lesson n realised dat we left an envelope in da hospital.. gosh!! how blur i can be..

`THAT'S ALL FOLKS` wada long entry....

`living with tears`; missyMsquared