valley of dreams.

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Thursday, March 30, 2006 @ 3/30/2006 12:56:00 PM

argh!!!!!!!! Found out something dat i shouldn't noe!!!! WTH!! y must i read her blog.. Fookity! damn no mood now.. damn it.. already not having good mood, dis morning msg-es didnt go veh well either.. now, i read her blog which makes my BLOOD BOILS to 100degrees!! I HATE YOU!! I'LL NOT TRUST YOU EVER AGAIN.. NO WAY WILL I TRUST YOU.. feel like asking you to fark off.. (opps.. =X) damn spoil mood.. go n do wadeva u lyk lah.. u lead ur life, i lead my life.. should i reply his msg later? i tink i shouldn't.. well, let's c my mood lor.. argh!!!! ytd cun sleep.. around 3am den sleep.. having insomnia i guess.. but jus when i fall asleep, my nose bled! shucks~ den i had to wake up n wash up da blood.. hais.. all i have is problems n problems... zhen fan ar.. sians.. im VEH ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAHHHHH......... U go chi da pian lah... argh~

`anger & resentment`; missyMsquared

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006 @ 3/29/2006 01:20:00 PM

...sigh
same old problems always occurs, cos each time we bring da problem up we nv get da chance to solve it.. thus, da problem continues.. it's tough, reali veh tough. i dunno when da problem will come to a stop. it's draining me out. TOTALLY! hmm.. 2yrs le, we've gone to almost every part of sgp.. now, each time we meet, we dunno where to go n dunno wad to do.. meet less often oso got it's advantage bah.. keke.. jiu shi ying wei na 2yrs wo men mei ci chu qu gaigai, suo yi xian zai mei you ti fang qu le.. sigh.. but no matter wad, memories r still memories.. n i wun forget it.. my stay in bedok was my happiest moments.. but i guess, it's all in da past.. i can onli dream of it.. sumtimes i wonder, i change huh? did i? im puzzled.. but, i tink haf bah.. cos every1 will change mah.. last time whenever i quarrel with my ex(s) i will sae they change le or we dun understand each other.. haa.. when i tink back, kinda farni oso lah.. haa.. quite childish oso, cos i nv try to solve da problem jiu sae we dun understand each other.. den jiu break le.. quite a sad ending tho'.. anyway, it's da past.. but i'll never 4get 1 thing, i will definitely haf a BOX of strepsils when i say dat im coughing or haf sorethroat.. thanks ar!! guess, u noe hu u r.. haa..

ytd watch xiao zhu, saw xiao S n her husband's marriage.. veh nice.. her husband so damn loving lor.. *envious* , and... da more i look at xioa zhu, he's so sweet too.. haf da look of a good bf.. haa.. cos he veh caring n cute.. lol.. im nuts over him.. well, any1 dat has a good, loving n caring bf.. good for u!! u're in good fortune.. haa.. dun anyhow shout at u can le.. keke..

da day b4, went out with him.. i was late.. oh gosh, tardy queen! he's angry lah.. so we didnt tok for like 2hrs.. sigh.. den walk n walk.. i suddenly dun feel well. my headache hurts alot n my back was aching, feel like fainting already.. but i ren n ren.. till we went to eat den he tok to me, aft dat i quickly eat panadol jiu hao le.. phew` heng didnt faint in da streets.. haa. i cun imagine dat.. lol.. dat's all for monday lor.. actualli it was our shopping day, but we went home empty-handed.. lol..

joseph say; sometimes must give and take... i oso dunno whether i got give and take anot? i scared i only take n take or give n give.. somehow, i feel i've become an over-giver.. but i dun wan to sae, cos dat mite be from my perspective onli.. while he mite oso think dat he's an over-giver le.. so, everything's left UNKNOWN.
-lack of heart's communication-

`living with tears`; missMsquared

♥ swollen eyes`

Sunday, March 26, 2006 @ 3/26/2006 11:42:00 AM

hais.. ytd had a bad day again n a bad nite too.. met him in di afternoon, was alrite at first.. den i met my cousin in tm with his fren.. haa. so coincidence.. yahs.. den we decided to go sbc to watch match, so we took 31, but veh inconvenient cos nid to walk veh far, so we alite den walk further down to take a bus.. actuali we decided to go back n rest, cos he's sick n was having headache.. but when i started msging, he became pissed off bah, den we headed home.. he say, if not we'll go sbc le.. *sigh* sorry, my fault... at nite we msg n msg lor.. den sae out everything.. i sae n sae.. den he sae dat my words r vicious.. vicious?? m i so vicious?? *sigh* im so hurt when i saw da msg.. im jus saying wad i feel onli mah.. hais.. guess, we need some time off each other bah.. vicious? reali so vicious ar? -cried thru da nite-

can any1 tell me?

**Am i vicious?
OR
Im jus not tactful with my words?

`living with tears`;missyM2

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Friday, March 24, 2006 @ 3/24/2006 01:21:00 PM

hmm.. new blog new stories? haa. hope so.. hope dat da stories would be beautiful n nice. hee. well, meet him ytd to go n take our medical report for TP. tell u wad, i spoke wad's in my heart. i was so shock. haa. guess, he's kinda hurt too when i said wad i felt. sigh. at least i've said wad's in my heart, if ignored it den nvm lor, but if he take it into consideration den dat's gd lor.. keke. darling is sick. *sigh* must have overtire himself. always busy training till late nite den take his bath. now, sick le.. hais.. k lah, m going over to his hse to visit him le. take care people..

`living with tears`; missyMsquared

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Thursday, March 23, 2006 @ 3/23/2006 08:58:00 PM

dots.. dots.. dots.. testing..